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Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

Laura December 2nd, 2014

Let us know in 1-3 sentences. Post every day!

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hellofriends January 23rd, 2015

These are just my thoughts now.

I hate this world, but the only thing keeping me down is music. Music is my everything. I don't know how to explain it, but I feel like sometimes even music is just an illusion of the senses.

I can't even cry anymore? I'm just so alone. I have no one who I can really trust. I hate myself so much. SO MUCH. I wish I at least had friends on the internet, but I don't. I don't even deserve friends.

I've been thinking a lot about Leelah Alcorn. I can't help but feel like I'm being so ungrateful and I shouldn't even be feeling sad. I can't stand myself. I wish I could just die in a car accident or get killed, that way it wouldn't be my fault. I can't even bring myself to kill myself. I will eventually, though. I'll do it one day.

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reliableMango71 January 28th, 2015

Post again - I feel like I hate me too! It is a new feeling for me, it came on after trauma, how long have you felt that way. I wish the hatred would go away!

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Mist63 January 23rd, 2015

I hate everything. Nothing matters. So sick of this horrible world.

plumCity78 January 23rd, 2015

I'm confused. One day I'm happy with my relationship and the next day I'm trying to devise a plan on how to move out without moving back into my parents house.

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Mana1723 January 24th, 2015

I know exactly how you feel. What helped me though is this book called "Way to Love" by Anthony De Mello. This book is amazing! Check it out.

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plumCity78 January 24th, 2015

I'll look into it. Thank you.

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Leucoryx January 23rd, 2015

I`mdisappointedwith life, still trying every day, keep getting disappointed. I wish I know why.

leviatatingbowtie45 January 24th, 2015

I feel pain mental or physical or I feel nothing at all. School is hell and home is only slightly better. Distractions and a friend are my only tethers

TheGlassDreamer January 24th, 2015

My depression has been terrible today. I feel so worthless. Yeah, I know I'm not, but I can't control the feeling and the sadness the plagues my mind. :(

MyFiniteInfinity January 24th, 2015

I feel okay. I'm not as bad as I used to be but I'm not as good as I would like to be. I'm getting there. Alongside depression I'm dealing with recovering from self harm as well. It's been two weeks since I last cut. I'm quite proud. Depression-wise, I think I'm feeling better than I have in a while. I'm feeling pretty positive that I can overcome this.

thequietone97 January 27th, 2015

I wish my peers could understand how I feel all the time. They're always telling me to "just smile" or "try not to think about it" yet they don't understand how difficult it is when you have depression. I feel like I'm coping with it better this week, though.

thequietone97 January 27th, 2015

I wish my peers could understand how I feel all the time. They're always telling me to "just smile" or "try not to think about it" yet they don't understand how difficult it is when you have depression. I feel like I'm coping with it better this week, though.

calkelly January 27th, 2015

Feeling a bit sad....it comes and goes like the wind......