A break from depression and 7cups.
Okay well here I am, back with another post, I know they are not the best when I post and they can get depressing but this time I have to do this. To those who may have forgotten me i was Kingburger23 but recently I got a name change to my real name which you all know me as CallumKing2000 these days, however that is not what this post is about, I am making this post to let people know and my cups friends, I hope they are my friends, that I am taking a small vacation break, you see some of you knew today that I went into the sharing circle to share and I shared my feelings and thoughts, and when I shared I went back and I got so so sooo anxious to ask again so I logged out had an anxiety attack and logged back in and shared a few hours after explaining I need a break in General, so if people can pass on the news to the mindfulness team and just explain I won't be there for a while. As of tomorrow I will be booking into a hotel for a week to clear my mind and have some me time as I am not used to being around people alot, I just wanted to let people know that I am okay I will be taking time and I'll be doing mindfulness while alone. I just wanted to let folks know around here that I'm thinking of them and what they may be going through, so I will take my leave for tonight and get some rest and be freshed up for tomorrow. Look after each other guys. And I'll see you all when I get back. I love you ❤️
Tags: @iampapaya @SolitaryBird @Patienceimpatient @Bestvase7265 @TinyWhisper11 @VictoriaLove7 @Accidentaltentacles @adventurousBranch3786 @amiablepeace77 @Kala @Mymelaninnarritive @compassionateOak202
P.S, I also wanted to tag goldenpear but she has numbers in her name and I was looking for her. Thanks 🤜🤛
I'm damaging my family's life. By being in the way. Sadly I've sat and heard a few things I shouldn't have heard. Her partner wants me gone. I am gonna plan a day and leave next week. I can't be somewhere that I am not welcome. Take care.
@CallumKing2000 No I don't think it's that you're doing anything damaging. I mean she wanted you there. And They still have the freedom to do what they want whether you're there or not. Me being the suspicious person I am wonders what's up with the BF wanting you gone. Could you have a talk with her without him around? See what she has to say about this?
Can't do it anymore honestly I just can't be bothered. No body likes me. No one has time for me. I shouldn't even exist.
@CallumKing2000. I’m sorry to hear that you feel this way. You are definitely liked here ❤️.
@CallumKing2000. Why don’t you come spend some time wit friends in mindfulness and 50 plus discussions. It is always nice to see you there.
Don't let your brain lie to you like that. There are lots of people here who think that you are pretty great!
I am sorry that you are suffering right now. You don't deserve it.
May tomorrow be more peaceful.
Feel free to vent here any time. @CallumKing2000
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Oh, Ok, Cal, so I shouldn’t even exist as well.
So that’s how it’s going.
Sucks.
I hate this feeling.
Honestly, when it rears its head I say to it, “Go away!"
But being that it sucks, it often doesn’t just do as its told.
So it just lingers around.
Annoyingly.
Go away, bad feeling.
Cal needs to do stuff.
On your side, Cal.
I have swords, weapons and other to fight off the Evil that causes this feeling.
Love and Courage,
Rose
P.S. I also have Silverback Gorillas! Because, the Silvers always have your back! And, this is how Rose rolls.
@CallumKing2000 I have to disagree. I'm glad you exist and alot of people here like and care you. Me included. I think you're pretty awesome. It sucks when these thoughts pop into our heads and just won't let go. You don't have to fight these thoughts alone - your friends here will fight with you
It's odd but I truly thought everyone had forgotten about who I was or where I was. I mean I don't blame anyone for that but u know I don't really got many friends so I thought those had turned against myself. That's what I thought. Everything went quiet went I came back therefore I hadn't been sure of this. Don't be a stranger. It's good to talk to those I have such memories with. I forbid to forget anyone. I admit I enjoy seeing you people.
All you have to do is say "life bites right now and I need a friend". We are right there with you. We have been in your shoes. You can't be forgotten. You are too unique and awesome. @CallumKing2000
@CallumKing2000 I have to agree with @bestVase7265. All you have to say is that you need a friend. I have to admit that I have thoughts like that too. I think we probably all do sometimes. It helps to have someone to talk to.
Hey Cal! Just busy! Much love, Grandma Patience
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Hi, Cal, I will share that I deactivated my account recently and only very recently activated it. It’s because I was trying to concentrate on my writing. I’m finishing a book for publication.
Cal, if I’m ever “not here” please be assured it’s not because I don’t “want” to be here. It’s just that other things are grabbing me.
Also, what I have discovered being “off” this site while I am writing, is that there is a whole vast world off of here and it us just as rich and interesting, and using my skills at creating boundaries and finding joy, it’s a pretty interesting and wild ride. Worth it.
Much love and courage as always,
Rose
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Cal, I just read back a little and yeah it’s so intense when a boyfriend doesn’t want you there. That sucks. Yet, it’s your mum, so maybe she will have a little heart for you staying until you can get up on your feet. You’re doing so many good things. You are lighter than the feather you showed in your photo, and I can bear the thought of someone not wanting you there.
Love, Grandma Patience
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What I meant was: “I cannot bear the thought of someone not wanting you in their space."
Sorry for the typo.
You know you are loved in this space. Keep coming back.
Grandma Pat here just descending with a huge hug for Cal.
Love and courage you know the drill, keep your chin up and carry on. Love love love.
I've started to collect these. They are kingdom hearts trading cards. So far these are all I have so far but hopefully in the future I shall have a decent amount or maybe a full collection. 
@CallumKing2000 Cool! Omg I haven't played Kingdom Hearts in years! I should dig that out some weekend 😀
@mytwistedsoul yeah true enjoy if you do
@CallumKing2000 Thanks! :) How are you King? How are things at home? No pressure to answer of course
@mytwistedsoul for now things are queit. There are still whispering conversations about me but I'm just not letting it get to me. Turns out its because I think other people are very jealous because of my own decisions and savings I have there's been alot of jealous talk over the money but I'm saving up for a mortgage. But so far all is okay for now. Just keeping my earphones in and blocking the issues out.
The prequel to harry potter. Cant wiat to read this
@CallumKing2000 Oohhh I haven't read this one! I saw the movie though but the book is bound to be better!
It is a good one but it reads a bit more oddly that the regular books because it is more of an encyclopedia. However, it has great stories. @CallumKing2000
