Hi guys( and girls)!!!
How is everyone doing! Just use this as a place to brain dump about anything!
Ahh! There is this person who was very nice to me. Well, a little about me is that I remember everyone who's has been nice to me even for a mere moment and there is a whole long list of people. And I keep remembering them from time to time and I feel very anxious about whether they are doing fine or not. And it makes me sad that i have no way of contacting them. Recently another person was added to that list as I got to know that this person in my university who was very nice to me left his job. So that means I won't be able to see him again nor would I know if he's doing okay in life. Well, when we last met I thanked him for his favour but I didn't know it was the last time we were having a conversation. Come to think of it I'm really glad that I didn't wait for the next time to thank him... But again the thought that I wont hear from him ever again makes me really sad and I just cant take my mind away from the thoughts. I am feeling really upset that something might happen to him and I won't even know it. I can't even share it with anyone because people say I'm weird for thinking this way. And maybe they might take me wrong and wont acknowledge my feelings that I just want to make sure the person is doing fine in life. I don't want anything else.
@rationalGrapefruitq
i dont even know how i feel atp, how are you?
everything feels wrong irl to me atp :(
Everything is fine and will stay so 😅
Lots of tasks to do but always motivated!
@rationalGrapefruitq ok so I'm kinda just gonna trauma dump here. (Idk if I can call it trauma or not but you can skip if you want). Last year, I was in 9th grade. I wasn't that good at studies or assignments n all but I tried. Rn I'm in 10th and I know how to do stuff. How to study, how to do well in assignments, etc. It's just that I stopped trying. I wake up every day deciding what I will achieve today, but by the time I'm supposed to start working on it, I just give up before even starting. It's not like I'm being lazy (idk tbh) I want to do it but it's just hard to sit down and get that thing done. I think it is because the people around me (my parents and teachers) keep telling me how I am pointless and they have lost all hope in me so *** even I lost hope in myself. I know I can do it. I just don't. My parents say that it wuld be good if I don't score good as they would have pay less for a basic state board college and won't have send me abroad for further education. But every result day, they yell at me for getting bad marks. I feel like I'm a burden when I don't do good and even when I do good. I feel stuck. I've telling myself from a long time that al I need is a break but I recently realised that all this time I have been on break. I have yet to actually start and I'm already asking for a break. I feel like everything and everyone is moving ahead in time but I'm just stuck somewhere unable to cope up with all the work piling up. I don't know what to do.
@ginaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Hello Gina, i just wanna to tell you that is important worried about studys and university but ir not the unique way to live. I considered the mental health Is more important, try to figured out the things we need to be happy. You have time, you can do it surely. Listen to you, AND make it. I send all the positivos vibes.
Having a flareup right now: head pain, sensation of weight inside my head, vertigo, ringing in the ears...it's bad enough that I'm gonna lie down in a few minutes. Meanwhile we're all waiting for Hurricane Milton to arrive & pass through. (I'm in Florida...America's appendix)
OMG felt BC I just went through a hurricane Helene and she was a b****I can't imagine having to go through Milton on a freaking top of that OMG my heart goes out to you you're in my prayers keep me posted
@rationalGrapefruitq Those of us in the northeastern part of Florida got through it okay. It's the people in central FL...particularly on the Gulf coast around Tampa & nearby communities, who took the hit. If you're a praying person, pray for them.
I honestly don't pray that much, but Ill pray for them..
@rationalGrapefruitq Thank you, & I understand. I rarely ever pray for anything myself, mainly because 1) I'm an agnostic, & 2) I've never seen it actually fix anything in the real world. Some people find solace in others praying for them, which is good.
I saw my new therapist for the first time this morning. It went well. She has a good idea of things to work on, and in what order.
@WharfRat It's always good when a new therapist knows how to do her job.
@rationalGrapefruitq hi! i’m new and still trying to figure out how to use this. I’m honestly not doing too good right now, i feel guilty because i have so much in my life but i cannot get away from my depression. I’m trying to seek out some help and that’s what lead me here, decided to give something new a try!
