Anxiety Check-in ~ Mid July

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@daydreammemories

Ello! :3

1. I'm feeling physically and mentally tired. Yesterday, I was energized though. After an energized day, I'm usually tired the next day.
2. I'm taking care of sleep, eating full meals (kind of), and drinking enough water. 
3. Self care? xD I wish! Closest thing to self care for me was lighting a candle.
4. What's been taking up a lot of space in my mind lately are upcoming legal issues and finances.
5. The last time I went outside was yesterday!
6. My body feels fine but mind is stressed out.
7. I struggled with keeping up with my routine this week. I also missed my therapy session.
8. One thing that went well this week was socializing! I spent time with friends and family.
9. Something you can do to make me feel loved and supported is just exist! Haha xD No really, this post you've made is already supportive.
10. One small thing I can do today to prioritize myself and my mental health is to distract myself from stressful things. Engage in yoga, writing, and meditation. 

Any plans or fun ideas for the summer?
My plans for the summer are to go to as many horse races as I can and continue dancing at least once a week! : )

1. Physically I am not doing great because my dad woke me up unannounced and said I had to get out of my room because his friend was going to look at it. Mentally not as great because of my dad. He wouldn't tell me what was going on. All he said was "don't ask me ***!" and proceeded to have me out of the house temporarily. 

2. Yes I have been doing the basics daily like eating, sleeping. Could work on drinking more water. 

3. I haven't been doing any self-care lately because I don't have a set routine due to me not having a job. 

4. I am just trying to get a new job after I quit my current one due to personal reasons. I am worried about getting rejected from job applications. I am still thinking about this one job interview where I am still waiting to hear back after they delayed their decision. 

5. A couple hours ago when my dad temporarily kicked me out when his friend when checking out my room. I took a longer walk on Sunday like usual. 

➊ How are you feeling today, really Physically & Mentally.

✤ Physically? Exhausted. Been dealing with chronic pain and need to find a new doctor for that plus other medical issues. Mentally?...Haven't been so great. Just a lot on my mind.

➋ Are you taking care of the basics (sleeping, eating full meals, drinking enough water)?

✤ [Trigger Warning: Weight] Been eating a lot more, which is nice. I've been underweight for a while and have been skinny nearly all my life...When I was healthier, I used to weightlift and run, now that I have pain and medical problems, those things have been taken away from me. Hoping to recover soon enough though. I'm trying to drink more water. I want to try and be caffeine-free again, but just been stressed about other stuff...so coffee is a comfort for me. As far as sleep goes, it hasn't been so great.

➌ Have you been able to do any self-care lately? If not, what would help you get back on track?

✤ Kind of?...wish I was doing a little bit more. I've been eating better, drinking more water, and a little bit more active(as much as a I can until my chest, ribs and/or back hurts).

➍ What's been taking up a lot of space in your mind lately? Any recurring thoughts?

✤ Just anxious about finishing these real estate classes so I can start working again...I initially quit working due to health issues and just dealing with personal + work related stuff. 

Apart from that...I had to leave my last place after I quit my last job and now both son & I live with a family member who used to physically & verbally abuse me in the past. I don't have anywhere else to go...

That's why I have been stressing about finishing these classes. Once I finish, I have a job lined up, and I'll be able to move far awhile and start a new life.

I've dealt with a lot of trauma in the past, and have been diagnosed with PTSD, depression, & anxiety. Sometimes I think about past events that has happened and how it's affected me (badly) today...it's like a domino effect, and feels never-ending sometimes. I'm hoping that once I finish these real estate classes, go back to work, and move out of here, I can turnover a new leaf and live FAR away from places that cause me bad anxiety and make me relive my trauma.

➎ When was the last time you stretched or went outside for some fresh air?

✤ Just a few hours ago. I'm outside almost everyday now, even if for a little while.

➏ What's your body feeling like right now (breathing, heartbeat, muscles)? What sensations do you notice?

✤ Pain...back hurts really bad, luckily no chest pains at the moment.

➐ What's one thing you struggled with this week?

✤ Trying to focus on my real estate classes...physically and mentally fatigued. Dealing with family members I was estranged with -- the stress causes my chest/rib pain to become worse.

➑ What's one thing that went well this week?

✤ Eating more and gaining (healthy) weight.

➒ What's something someone can do to make you feel loved and supported?

✤ Uhm...well currently my (long distance) partner talks to me daily and sends funny gifs and videos, which lifts my mood.

➓ What's a small thing you can do today to prioritize yourself and your mental health?

✤ The day is almost over. I'm not used to this time difference. I plan on working on my real estate classes again tonight. I need to just get it done...It makes me anxious that I haven't finished it and have had plenty of time to...Was dealing with some stuff prior (ex. I left my job, went to the hospital 4x a month, dealing with personal problems, etc).

@daydreammemories 

1. I'm feeling better today. I only have a migraine. Sunday and Monday I felt off. I was tired all day, my head and my stomach hurt. I felt nauseous and I didn't want to eat. 

2. No I am not taking care of the basics. I can't reach deep sleep at night. I have some pills that are supposed to help me to sleep, but they haven't been working. My appetite is all over the place. I eat just enough to take my meds. But I have diabetes and I haven't figured out how to regulate my diet yet. 

3. No. I do not do self-care. #1 I don't know how. #2 I feel like I'm not worth it.

4. The space in my head is filled with, How I am a failure. That I am a bad person. That I can't finish anything. That I'm useless. That I'm selfish. That I feel trapped and I need to escape. 

7. One thing I struggled with is dealing with my husband. He blames me for everything. He is also always disparages and criticizes me. Then he wants to be affectionate.  

Not sure which # this is

One good thing that happened this week is my daughter and I went to a picnic celebrating BTS. It was a lot of fun and there was a lot of delicious food.

This summer I am just staying home. I am not working over the summer so money is tight. 

1. Today I am feeling physically okay and mentally drained.

2. I am taking basic care of myself. Sleeping, drinking lots of water, eating.

3. I have been trying to do a tiny bit of self care everyday.

4. My anxiety is taking up space in my mind every day. The physical symptoms of it drive me to think about it and thinking about it drives my physical symptoms.

5. I went outside half an hour ago. I walk my dog every day.

6. Everything feels tight.

7. Leaving the house

8. Leaving the house. I struggle to actually go but once I do it's okay.

9. Give me space to feel my feelings

10. Feel your feelings.

1. Physically- I am okay. It’s not good and it’s not bad, it’s just normal. Mentally- not great, but I hope it will get better. 

2. I’d say yes to all except the sleeping part lol. 

3. Yes, I have.

4. I got camp I’m going to next week. I’m excited since it was really fun last year, but there will be a lot of people so…

5. Yesterday. 

6. I don’t know, I’m kinda just chilling right now.

7. The usual urge to get back into bad habits, but I haven’t given in yet and don’t plan to.

8. I don’t know, the week isn’t over yet. (But if nothing else happens, I got some of my art done!)

9. Giving me a hug? 

10. Take breaks when needed, but not giving up. Never give up. 

I hope everyone is feeling good. If not, hugs 🫂 for you. Let me know if there is anything I can do. ❤️

-Local Teen Cookie Crow. 🍪🐦‍⬛

1. Physically I hurt. Mentally I'm tired

2. Mostly. I eat supper and I've been having something for lunch. I don't get enough sleep though and I hardly ever drink water 

3. Not as much as I was. Mostly just don't care about it right now

4. Grief mostly I guess

5. I just came in from outside. I'm always outside

6. Tired and tense

7. To find some kind of happiness? Motivation? 

8. Wednesday's chats are always amazing

9. Idk. 

10. Just not be so hard on myself

1. I’m physically healthy, but I’ve lost some weight this week because my father is in the hospital.

2. Yes.

* I have more than 24 hours circadian rhythm, but I sleep 8 hours

3. Unfortunately, no. Every time I try to take the first step, I stay where I am.

5. I never stretch nor do I walk outside. But I walk in our yard every day and count my steps

6. It’s the fast heartbeat like everybody in is this sub-forum. It raises all of a sudden then returns to normal.

7. Getting out.

8. I really don’t know.

9. Just knowing that someone is out there and interacting with each other can reduce anxiety and the feeling of loneliness.

10. I can’t do much lately, but I believe I can start with my circadian rhythm. It’s been bothering my whole life.

I forgot to remove the spaces before sending the comment. Sorry about that.