Ramblings 3

@Iamwhoiamwhoami hi sweetie ❤❤ I hope the pre-op went well ❤ just a little longer to wait now ❤ hugs you tightly ❤❤

It snowed here two days ago😁 it snowed on and off all day 😁, I was watching it from the window ❤ I love snow it's so beautiful so magical ❤ I'm still stuck in hospital 🙁 but I'm sure I won't be here much longer ❤ I hope your ok, or at least ok'ish. I love you ❤

I was trying to figure out what to put here for an update and realized that to keep to the truth of my thoughts I can't put anything down here because it is embroiled in the darkest of darkness. The types of thoughts that I am not allowed to place here. That is what is interwoven in the blanket that surrounds me. Almost suffocating at times. So I apologize that is as good as it's gonna get for a while regarding my ramblings.

@Iamwhoiamwhoami good morning sweetie ❤ don't be sorry for not writing here, this is your place for when your ready ❤ I hope after the operation, we can take that suffocating blanket off you, and you can start to heal from all this ❤ pain makes you want to quit sometimes especially mixed in with mental pains. You've made it this far and I'm so proud of you, just a little bit longer ok?

I've been getting the feeling back in my upper left body, the painful tingling feelings are coming more frequently, and are becoming less painful on times ❤ so that's great news🙂 hopefully I will be out of hospital soon ❤❤

hugs  you tightly ❤❤

@Iamwhoiamwhoami hi sweetie ❤ I was able to move my left hand into a fist today😁😁😁 I'm getting better😁😁😁 yaaaay! I was so excited ❤ 

I'm still stuck here in hospital, listening to xmas songs, thinking about you ❤ I know your mind and body are in the darkest places right now, I wish I could light a candle to guide you through ❤ just know you are loved here, I love you ❤

@Iamwhoiamwhoami only 2 more days till the big day ❤ try not to be scared I got you 🙂 day right beside you holding your hand ❤ in a month or so this pain will have gone, and you will be able to walk again ❤ it's all gonna go well ❤

@Iamwhoiamwhoami I hope your surgery goes well Iam. We'll all be with you in spirit. ❤️ 

@Iamwhoiamwhoami is your surgery today, or tommorow? Gives you the biggest hug anyone could ever give. Don't you worry it's all gonna go really well ❤❤ I'll be by yourside, always ❤❤

@Iamwhoiamwhoami I love you ❤❤

@Iamwhoiamwhoami Thinking of you and sending good vibes ❤️

@Iamwhoiamwhoami good morning sweetie ❤ I hope your ok ❤ gives you a giant xmassy tiny hug