Ramblings 3

D.id th.ey catch on to the co.de?

my brain is already a mess, after trying to read these messages I am getting a wee bit dizzy. I think I need a decoder ring or something, 3D glasses, a different keyboard??? Is this the future of 7cups??😆😆

I can see everyone’s messages now. I’m going to try one without code to test. I reread my post from earlier, and I can see why it got censored. 🙄 Must have been that pesky word “afterward”. At least it gave me a little laugh for the day. 😁

@Iamwhoiamwhoami this is gonna be hard work😂😂😂😂😂 don.t worry I'm sure it will all be sort.ed out soon ❤

@Iamwhoiamwhoami good morning sweetie ❤❤ how are your meds doing?? My little piggie (runt) is a magician, he keeps getting out😂😂😂😂😂 he loves to just nose around everything😂😂😂 he can't hurt himself, or go far. I have them out for about 2 hours a day, and then again for hug time😁 I made their cage, it takes up half my room, they have loads of space, food, water, toys. But he still likes to get out and roam free😁 ❤ he's so cute ❤ I didn't put a good on their cage. So know I'm just gonna have to make the cage walls higher😂😂😂😂 ok I gotta go ❤ I love you ❤

I think I am going insane, this intense war my mind is continuously trying to keep going inside me . Probably not the correct or politically correct word but it’s the best I can come up with.

I have probably said it a lot lately, but I am saying it again. Being stuck living with myself is not something that I would wish on anyone else even my worst enemies. Which in my case happens to include me, myself and I.

I wish I could completely believe and even project what others say the see in me through my writings. I barely understand this new feeling of love. It’s a new feeling to me. I know the book definitions of the word. I am scared of how it makes me feel inside and I am equally scared of how to express it properly here. I would say the “real world “ but I don’t think I have to worry about that. I read about these things on the internet. I know, don’t believe everything I read there. However I think a lot of what I read seems true from what I’ve seen of others over the years.

I am scared of losing this strange feeling also. I have a hint of a memory that I think happened here some time ago. Something related to my feeling something similar maybe, I am not sure if it was a feeling or emotion, but I think it was something I experienced so very briefly here and then one misguided individual knocked me off my feet and ripped that feeling away from me quicker than a blink of an eye with some kind of message based in hate.

If that hint of a memory is true,I don’t want to remember the details . I do hope that individual is enlightened with truth and understanding and true acceptance.

I just hope that it doesn’t happen to me again.

@Iamwhoiamwhoami soul has come to my side to stick up for me many times ❤ you got good friends here. We all love you ❤

@Iamwhoiamwhoami and don't worry , we are all a little bit insane ❤ I wish your living circumstances where better for you🙁 things will get better, just keep holding on ❤

@Iamwhoiamwhoami so old tv shows, how old are we talking?? If you like old comedys, this is a British one though. 'monty python and the holy grail' I've seen clips and it looks hillarious. It's a film ❤

@Iamwhoiamwhoami I suppose that's a good thing with a bad memory😁 you can watch them over and over again ❤ I tried to watch tv a few years ago, when I found out it exsisted🙂 but it triggers flashbacks, the psychiatrist said it's probably something to do with the movements, and sound. We are not really sure. So I never watched tv, but my carers this year have been showing me clip of things in their phones and computers. And I'm doing quite well, so hopefully oneday soon, I'll be able to watch things😁❤