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I literally feel like I'm stuck in this part of my life and the world is moving on!
@Shaf83 you just half to stay strong and move with the force
@Shaf83
I get you, I sometimes feel like I'm supposed to be "going places" as everybody tells me, but... How on earth?
What helps me when this gets overwelming is do something like draw or try to learn a song, just to keep my mind focused in something I actually like.
I feel completely disconnected from reality, and I'm having constant passive suicidal ideations that occasionally (rarely) become active. I'm also having memory problems and losing track of time, like I can't tell if it has been seconds or minutes or even hours since the last thing I remember. I woud try to get help but I know my family can't afford a therapist right now. I reread my old diary and found out that I've had these thoughts since I was little, but they're worse now.
I feel completely disconnected from reality, and I'm having constant passive suicidal ideations that occasionally (rarely) become active. I'm also having memory problems and losing track of time, like I can't tell if it has been seconds or minutes or even hours since the last thing I remember. I woud try to get help but I know my family can't afford a therapist right now. I reread my old diary and found out that I've had these thoughts since I was little, but they're worse now.
@Basilstorm
Sounds like depersonalization disorder
My father wouldn't look at my mother.
I can feel the stress, too.
@likeALake Keep breathing, love your family with every ounce. Sending hugs your way X
I've been so lonely lately, I have a small handful of friends but i'm so terrible talking or even keeping in contact with people, that i have got to the point of where i don't know what to do. i'm afriaid first of all, I feel like i'm working all the time in a job that was suppose to give me some freedom by paying off my rent then letting me actual free time and money to do things but thats a lot of shite. Then when things do slow down im terrified of have to go on benifits again because, i ,once again will have to always choose to stay inside and away from people because i can't afford to spend anything. I'm also a bit of an extreme introvert which makes it extrenely easy to isolate myself plus with a job that expect me to be in 6 days a week well should i even try.
Even night i start to feel depressed, then i get slightly stone (i want to it last), this doesn't help as i know this isn't fixing anything plus my flatmate is a complete puritan when it come to this sort of stuff, I have decided to stop for a bit, firstly so I will focus on what needs fixing (though work is shit so good luck to my prohibition) sceondly I want to be more health. However, when i start to feel depressed, I find myself saying things, that I don't want to say, such as "I hate you" then i have to convince myself I'm talking about my mistakes not myself or even my past self (this is not as bad as it use to be thankfully). Then ever other resentment starts clouding my mind which is a lot easier to distract myself with when stoned.
I am sick of the cycle, i am so sick of feeling this way and having it occanical slip out in public, even if people don't always realise it.
sorry for all the spelling and grammer mistakes, i needed to rant and not have a need to hold back or justify myself.
@jmck555 I'm hugging you from afar. I know how this feels personally. I am also struggling with this. It's hard to even keep a smile on my face some days just because the stress of it all just makes me want to stay in away from people.
I feel depressed and my family just wants me to feel better but it's so hard to talk to people.
@CuddlyPanda13 I feel you so much. I hope you feel better you deserve it
Shout out to the poor people, not is wealth but in mental health. Luv yah guys
I feel completly disconnected from the world right now. Everything feels like a dream- like it's not real. At school I try my best to pay attention but everything seems to pass over my head and I am having a hard time recalling information. My panic attacks and random body pains are becomming more frequent and I feel sad and exhausted all the time.
@AwkwardWizards awe Hun I feel the same way. It's really awful isn't it. But we're both strong. we're going to get through it together. We're going to take things one day at a time.
Financial problem stuck between a rock and a hard spot relationshipp shitty trying to lose my anger its part of me smh
@Bigeast031 I understand how you feel completely. My husband and I are having the same problem right now.
I have been depressed for a while now and I can't seem to be happy for very long. I want to be happy and have it all (a good relationship with a guy, a job, and a happy family). But either I don't deserve to be happy or people keep getting in the way of my happiness. I don't know what to do or to say to people anymore so they'll like me. Women my age hate me cuz I'm either too pretty to hang out with their boyfriends or their bf isn't man enough to tell me that they're taken. And it gets worse with the men. They say that they like me and then they insult me behind my back or they're total jerks. As for my family situation, I'm living with my mom and stepfather cuz my father didn't have the guts to stand up to my stepmother and tell her that emotional abuse is wrong. So I got thrown out for talking to a friend about what my stepmother was doing and was threatened by my own father. And it didn't help any that I was socially isolated there cuz I had no one to turn to except for my older stepbrother. So my life is messed up and I can't even get Medicare or Medicaid to help me get some counseling because apparently I am not poor enough. I know that I am poor enough because I have no income coming in for me and my mom is supporting us on a $800 a month job and my stepfather is unemployed but actually fixes stuff for people. The government is stupid to think that I am not poor enough to get any kind of help from them just so I can talk to someone and get my life back on track so I can get a job. And I am sick and tired of people thinking they can do whatever they want with me. I deserve as much respect as the next human being.