I've been so lonely lately, I have a small handful of friends but i'm so terrible talking or even keeping in contact with people, that i have got to the point of where i don't know what to do. i'm afriaid first of all, I feel like i'm working all the time in a job that was suppose to give me some freedom by paying off my rent then letting me actual free time and money to do things but thats a lot of shite. Then when things do slow down im terrified of have to go on benifits again because, i ,once again will have to always choose to stay inside and away from people because i can't afford to spend anything. I'm also a bit of an extreme introvert which makes it extrenely easy to isolate myself plus with a job that expect me to be in 6 days a week well should i even try.

Even night i start to feel depressed, then i get slightly stone (i want to it last), this doesn't help as i know this isn't fixing anything plus my flatmate is a complete puritan when it come to this sort of stuff, I have decided to stop for a bit, firstly so I will focus on what needs fixing (though work is shit so good luck to my prohibition) sceondly I want to be more health. However, when i start to feel depressed, I find myself saying things, that I don't want to say, such as "I hate you" then i have to convince myself I'm talking about my mistakes not myself or even my past self (this is not as bad as it use to be thankfully). Then ever other resentment starts clouding my mind which is a lot easier to distract myself with when stoned.

I am sick of the cycle, i am so sick of feeling this way and having it occanical slip out in public, even if people don't always realise it.

sorry for all the spelling and grammer mistakes, i needed to rant and not have a need to hold back or justify myself.

I feel depressed and my family just wants me to feel better but it's so hard to talk to people.

Shout out to the poor people, not is wealth but in mental health. Luv yah guys

I feel completly disconnected from the world right now. Everything feels like a dream- like it's not real. At school I try my best to pay attention but everything seems to pass over my head and I am having a hard time recalling information. My panic attacks and random body pains are becomming more frequent and I feel sad and exhausted all the time.

Financial problem stuck between a rock and a hard spot relationshipp shitty trying to lose my anger its part of me smh

I have been depressed for a while now and I can't seem to be happy for very long. I want to be happy and have it all (a good relationship with a guy, a job, and a happy family). But either I don't deserve to be happy or people keep getting in the way of my happiness. I don't know what to do or to say to people anymore so they'll like me. Women my age hate me cuz I'm either too pretty to hang out with their boyfriends or their bf isn't man enough to tell me that they're taken. And it gets worse with the men. They say that they like me and then they insult me behind my back or they're total jerks. As for my family situation, I'm living with my mom and stepfather cuz my father didn't have the guts to stand up to my stepmother and tell her that emotional abuse is wrong. So I got thrown out for talking to a friend about what my stepmother was doing and was threatened by my own father. And it didn't help any that I was socially isolated there cuz I had no one to turn to except for my older stepbrother. So my life is messed up and I can't even get Medicare or Medicaid to help me get some counseling because apparently I am not poor enough. I know that I am poor enough because I have no income coming in for me and my mom is supporting us on a $800 a month job and my stepfather is unemployed but actually fixes stuff for people. The government is stupid to think that I am not poor enough to get any kind of help from them just so I can talk to someone and get my life back on track so I can get a job. And I am sick and tired of people thinking they can do whatever they want with me. I deserve as much respect as the next human being.

Anxiety getting worse. I need go to for a job interview tomorrow. Hopefully everything will be fine! Not sure how hard it will be for the interview, feels like I'm still not yet well prepared. Wish I can do it!

Still haven't gotten over a break up from my best friend.... Everything reminds me of him and I think about what we could do together but then I remember it will never happen

Ive Been Depressed For Like 5 Months Now I Get To Be Happy Then It All Goes Away And My Depression Kicks In And It Kicks Hard😔 Im Tired Of Being Sad I Try Hatd Everyday To Be Happy But i Cant Find Happiness

No matter how hard I try to force myself into college, when I get here every morning all I want to do is burst into tear and run away from it all