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Ive been going to a sexual abuse/assault counsellor for 3 weeks now and its been helpful up until yesterdays session. I get the feeling she thinks I was raped and I wasnt. I havent told her exactly what happened but now it feels like I cant tell her because shell see it as not a big deal.
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I was molested as a child by my brother. It happened once, as far as I can remember. On the second occasion, we were teenagers. I was 13 so he wouldve been 15/16. He forced himself on top of me, held my wrists down and said it was time to practice sex. It didnt go any further than that because I said if he didnt get off, Id scream and tell our mum.
because I wasnt raped, Ive always had an issue with it not being a big deal. And now that my counsellor thinks I was, I dont know how to tell her different because I dont want her to say what Ive thought. I dont want to lie and go along with what she thinks but I also dont want to tell her. My current thought (however irrational it may be) is that shell tell me it wasnt sexual assault/abuse and that we cant continue with counselling...