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@asheroo92 Have you ever thought about telling her that your brother threatened to rape you by jumping on top of you and grabbing your wrists even though he didn't actually go through with the act? What he did to was still a form of abuse and I think it's best if you tell your counselor that.

@Summershy that was really helpful, thank you! It

I know what you mean, but what you went through is definitely valid. It was traumatic, and with you have all the reasons in the world to feel how you do. She isnt going to be disappointed because to you, it was scarey and wrong. Dont rush into telling her, they are very good at not making assumptions and she of all people will know that you dont have to be raped to experience trauma. Even if she did make that assumption, she will adjust. But in the end it doesnt matter what she thinks, its about you, and getting what you need. And she knows that. If she is any type of decent counselor she isnt going to invalidate what youve been through. So go easy on yourself. If you think it would make it easier to tell her, do that. Of course she cant know what happened for sure until it comes from you. But dont feel rushed. She wont go anywhere. I know a lot of times when i feel like shes assuming something (even tho she usually isnt), ill just blurt out something like "its not what youre thinking, but im not ready to talk about it yet." Maybe something like that could work. Its your therapy so its important for you to feel comfortable and get what you need from it.

@asheroo92

Also good luck! Let me know if youd like to talk more about it. Im a few months into seeing a new counselor so i know what a struggle it can be at the beginning to get used to each other

@Npepsicola that's a really good tip to say "It's not what you're thinking but I'm not ready to talk about it yet" - that's something I could definitely use in a future session, so thank you! Everything else with her has been great. She's really given me a different perspective on things and seeing her view is really helpful. It also helps when she challenges my irrational logic. Say something minor like a friend reading a message but not replying for hours, my mind will immediately go to "something is wrong, I've done something wrong and they're annoyed with me" however she takes that and says things like "is it possible that your friend could have left her phone unlocked whilst busy?" and that helps me to not automatically think negatively.

I also agree with you that it's difficult at the start. Unfortunately, the sessions will only last for 18 weeks but I will make the most of it.