Self-Harm Recovery Daily Check-in: Monday September 13, 2021
For me personally, self-harm and recovery have taught me to focus on myself and my own wellbeing, while ignoring the harshness of others around me. It's taught me that self-harm awareness and education need to improve, and my own journey has helped me help others in a meaningful way. However, self-harm had initially made me more fragile to the words and spite of others who didn't understand.
1. How are you today? Is there anything you'd like to talk about?
2. How has self-harm positively impacted your life? How has self-harm negatively impacted your life?
3. Let's tone the post down a little with a very out-f-the-blue question! What's your favourite breakfast food?
We appreciate you checking in with us. I hope you have a lovely week ahead and remember, we're all with you.
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This won't be cheerful at all- read at your own risk
1. How are you today? Is there anything you'd like to talk about?
Numb. Very numb. Can't feel emotions. I am faking being normal- I am just not. I am lost- I am nowhere. And when I do feel emotions I am anxious, scared and/or angry. And maybe guilt.
Currently I am not feeling emotions- I think I may be dissociating. Having memory gaps- I want to get help but I know I can't. Anyways- I hate this headache, but maybe numb is better than anxious.
2. How has self-harm positively impacted your life? How has self-harm negatively impacted your life?
Positive impact- helped me manage emotions, kept me alive in times of crisis. Outlet, coping mechanism. Means of survival
Negative impact- scars, guilt, shame and isolation. Loneliness- if I didn't tell anyone I thought I was faking who I am, and ofc I can't tell people
3. Let's tone the post down a little with a very out-f-the-blue question! What's your favourite breakfast food?
*thinks* Thanks to motivation issues I don't even feel like eating or having water (though I do eat regularly)...so hard question. But maybe something light like chocolate pancakes
@FedUpWithPeople
Hello, Fed. It sounds like you’re feeling lost in the void of emotions. It sounds like emotions may be overwhelming, and so numbness and dissociation is your brain’s subconscious coping mechanism. I’m sorry to hear that- it sounds quite difficult to have to bear with constantly. Especially thinking we can only deal with it ourselves. That’s a lot of pressure to put on ourselves. Just a reminder that you can seek professional help. Always know your options.
Those are great positive and negative impacts. Self-harm can be a mechanism to keep us alive- most of the time, it is, rather than what the general public think.
Chocolate pancakes sound delicious. I’m glad to hear you’re still eating regularly and staying hydrated. I hope over time when you start to feel better, you can start to enjoy the simple pleasures of food again.
Thank you very much for checking in with us today. We’re all here to listen. Keep coming back ❤️
@rebecca947
Thank you so much for responding
It's true- I really can't feel emotions so this is kind of like a new coping mechanism. It is a subconscious thing for me to dissociate a lot to escape everything for a while- mentally. I like this one since it doesn't harm my body physically, but it seems more distressful than sh. That's because I can't focus anywhere because of this.
Nothing comes easy- emotions are hard, but not having emotions leads to extreme motivation issues...I don't even want to do any of the things I love.
I hope one day I am able to really enjoy chocolate pancakes...and yeah sh is very misunderstood.
And sadly I can't reach out to a professional for atleast an year. If I could I would have long back. I wouldn't have put myself through all this if there was another way for me. I mean no one would sh or suffer knowing there is a way out.
1. How are you today? So so, kinda anxious. Is there anything you'd like to talk about? In my head, everything. Outloud, not so much
2. How has self-harm positively impacted your life? I guess it kept me sorta sane. How has self-harm negatively impacted your life? I think it isolated me more
3. Let's tone the post down a little with a very out-f-the-blue question! What's your favourite breakfast food? An omelette with cheese
@VangMason
Hello, Vang! That’s fair- it can seem scarier to say what we think out loud. It can feel more real and more distressing. I hope you’ll find a way to vent- in a journal, perhaps. As for anxiety, what are you worried about? It’s good that you acknowledge your emotions.
It’s good you recognise both sides of the story, despite it not being great.
Yum, that sounds delicious. I need to try it- anything with cheese is delicious!
Thank you for checking in ❤️
@rebecca947
I feel socially drained I went to this new place that I never went to.
Self-harm has positively changed my life by keeping my emotions mellow and by knowing my own body frame. The negative part is knowing since I did what I did I have to wake up with scars.
My favorite breakfast food is toast with peanut butter and chocolate milk.
@powerfulscarlet2729
Hello, Scarlet! Going to new places can be draining when we’re not used to it or not comfortable. I hope you enjoyed it and are proud of yourself for going despite the emotions.
It’s good to acknowledge both sides of the situation.
Chocolate milk is great!
Thank you for checking in ❤️
@rebecca947 thank you so much for checking on us, Rebecca! <3
1. How are you today? Is there anything you'd like to talk about?
Actually today I am pretty good, thank you! Just want to share with y'all my positivity since I feel so happy and so extremely relieved <3 I will take today and tomorrow a pretty good day to rest and take selfcare!
2. How has self-harm positively impacted your life? How has self-harm negatively impacted your life?
In all honesty, I can't see any positive impact on my life from selfcare actions, but only negative ones. Though it went by my life pretty unseen (I guess), I was just numb, sad, stressed, crying and so on...It was terrible time, but I am so happy to be strong from the last check (it was so long time ago!)
3. Let's tone the post down a little with a very out-f-the-blue question! What's your favourite breakfast food?
Cinnamon cereals with milk and Belvita cookies, and also tea/juice to drink - give me that and I am good to go!
@inventiveAcai3503
Hey, Açai! So nice to have you back checking in ❤️ I’m so happy you’re happy! That is amazing! Lots and lots of fun activities and self-care activities for you. Anything you want to do today and tomorrow?
Self-harm has shown you how you can reach the bottom and still go up and be where you are now. That’s a positive. It’s proof that you can be in a dark place and come out of it happier. It’s proof you can make a comeback.
Yum, Belvita biscuits!! Never had cinnamon cereal though.
Thank you for checking in. I hope to see you at the next one every week! Have a very fun and relaxed day ❤️