Pay her back?(Reach out)?

@toughPapaya1551 Try to separate paying her back from wanting her back. Seriously, after two years she is not coming back. If you want to repay her because you promised her, then do that. Your note should say, “Here’s the money I promised to pay back.” Nothing more. But seriously, move on. Life is too short. Be good to yourself. 

I've been seeing a lot of posts and stuff who got back with hexs years later. But they were both 2 different people

@toughPapaya1551 It’s my impression that you wanted a different answer. Let us know what course of action you decided on and how it went. Best of luck my friend.

I just want to know if there's a reason why I ABSOLUTELY SHOULD NOT EVER reach out?

@toughPapaya1551 If you want absolute certainty then ask 10 psychics. If 9 of them say “don’t do it” then you can conclude they were phony psychics and the one that said “go for it” is a genuine psychic. 

@PineTreeTree Sorry we are no better than psychics in answering your question but on the plus side we don’t charge much 😂

Oh lmfao, I just don't wanna wonder "what if" when I'm old

@toughPapaya1551,

let it be, stop looking for lame excuses to contact her, and move on. Life is too precious to hold on to the past. Remember, they call it the past because it past. 

So I'm not allowed to contact her and do what I feel is right based on my feelings?

@toughPapaya1551,

you act on emotions, you just can't let it be. But do whatever you want, it's your life.

I say go for it! Life is too short to always be hung up on one person, and it sounds like if you dont reach out you will always wonder. Id rather my ex reach out to me and me tell him that it cant happen than for him to always wonder. You never know how it will go, just be prepared for any outcome. Right person wrong time is definitely a thing, idk that it was for yall but its better to get closure if you truly need it. Best of luck! And please keep us updated, i cant wait to see how it goes for you ❤️

I was dead broke, in school, a pandemic, was lucky if I saw her 2x a week for 2 years, she was always the one picking me up etc. now her new bf works at some odd job at a bank, and it's like the person her parents said I was .....is this new guy. But he has the one thing I couldn't give her. My time. He also has already bought her more then 2 flowers over the course of their relationship, which is more then I did. I couldn't even afford the gaslmey to go and see her. But I know she isn't stupid. She knows the long term outcome of people who don't get their act together, even if they look like they're ok.

I really think it was wrong for me to be in a relationship at that time considering the world, and my commitment to school. It wasn't fair on her, or anyone

@toughPapaya1551

It sounds like you have a lot of emotions wrapped up in this situation, and it's commendable that you're seeking advice on how to approach it. Here are a few thoughts to consider:

Down below is the message I have. I also have attached a itemized list of what I owe her, but I didn't post it here (F&A means forever and always, and the space number is a term we used to say how much we loved each other. It was a from a space YouTube video lol):

Promised I'd pay you back when I wasn't a broke college student. It's everything I couldn't afford to show/give how I feel about you. I messed up, badly. Regardless of others involved. I'm sorry for all of it, and for how long it took to see it. I hope you're ok. PT school sucks; you probably "get it" now, the never-ending stress. Time moves by so slowly. But time can do so much. It's the best thing you'll ever do. You'll pass. You got this.

In every universe,

F & A,

Space number (the brown one)

@toughPapaya1551,

if you feel you need to pay her back (which you don't have to) then just pay her back. No messages. Let it be and leave her alone.

I'm scared I'll get told to Eff off.....get no response....or she sends it back