@peacefulforest75 thank you so much for the responding, with you being a women and being on the receiving end of this type of situation, I would love to hear all your thoughts and how it made you feel. I have told her this already but she tells me its to late. Shes happy,independent, strong and being the best her and mommy possible and I couldnt be more proud or happier . I do wish I could be there in those moments picking her up and help bring her to highest points hand n hand side by side in all the ways I didnt before. I dont just the relationship back, I want her back but I want a relationship thats new free from old restrictions and ideas, a relationship where were more than just two people together but equals top to bottom and giving 100 percent on both sides not just 50. I want understand how she felt then I want know how she feels now and I want to be the first person she talks to after work and hear about her day. While I may see now how awful it was and how to be better and do things the right way, it doesnt mean that I get a free pass back to the special all in kind love and affection she gave me. There was hurt there were times I let her down by not changing, I dont want to give up AT ALL, shes the women I love thats that! But also want her to experience her joy and happiness I just wish I knew then what now. Like they always say hind sight is 20/20 Her love is where I want to be and patient is what Ill be for her just like she was for me.💙