I am back (TW)
I left because I thought I was good.
I thought I was better.
I haven't logged on in almost 2 years.
Kinda hurting. Pride wise.
I know it's ok to need help!
But at least I am here.
At least THIS is an option!
[Edited by @QuietMagic 11/20/21 to add TW to title since multiple posts in this thread contain potentially triggering content related to EDs and suicidal ideation]
Welcome back! You show your strength and wisdom plus humility
You got this!!
@juliak1968
Thank you.
I hope you have had a good day
@ClassicAnonymous17
Thanks, yes today is one of the better days ive had. Sometimes we must learn how to make ourselves comfortable (food, shower, good tv, ect.) I got it right today 😊
🎉Happy New Year! 2021🎈
@juliak1968
Thank you & Happy New Year to you as well
💖 If you are okay with that👍🏻
However you choose to celebrate be sure to be safe I hope to hear from you soon.
I'm not going to lie today thinking of you just messaging you alone that was a highlight point of my day. _ thank you!😊
@ClassicAnonymous17
Thank you, Im honored! I'm spending New Years Eve on 7cups while watching tv, so no drinking, but i have a license for flowers, so ill take a few puffs
Happy New Years eve! 🎉🎈🎊
@juliak1968
A few license to flowers
__ what do you know what that means?__
I was distracted with that last post. I'm sorry.
I don't know what you mean?
I don't understand.
@ClassicAnonymous17
Oh, sorry, I have a medical marajauna lisence, and another word the use now is flowers because the flower is the same as the buds. 🖐
Im not too high 👌
@juliak1968
OOHHH!
Gotcha!
I hope medical wise you are/will be okay!!
@ClassicAnonymous17
The medical type I smoke helps with anxiety and pain. Thank you, im gratefull for the new treatments, it really does help me.
I hope we all have a happy and safe new year and that we find everything in life we are looking for.
Blessings, Day
@juliak1968
AWESOME!!! Well put 👏🏻👏🏻👍🏻
@ClassicAnonymous17
HAPPY NEW YEAR🎉
@juliak1968
Happy New Year!!!🙂♥️
@ClassicAnonymous17
😄Link ---> WRITE 2021 1st on 7Cups "HERE"
@ClassicAnonymous17
Just saw you wrote 2021 on the link.
I hope it is popular for a while today 🤗
@juliak1968
Popular? Why
@ClassicAnonymous17
How does flowers make you feel?
@turquoiseSea8074
Me I don't smoke.
The only thing I do.
I drink I only drink 3 times a year.
I don't take pills I don't take any drugs I don't take medication.
When I was younger and I was prescribed different medication for depression and PTSD and sleeping issues my my mother was not a sober person she would take my medication. and accuse me of being a horrible person because I was prescribed ____ this.
I couldn't even tell you the names I was on so many all the time.
my mother told me I was like 13 she's like you're a drug addict and an alcoholic the alcoholic part she was 100% right on I started drinking when I was 11 and whenever I started working I would burn up through $400 of alcohol in 3 days.
I would have just enough money to make it to work for gas then full circle and start it all over again the following week.
the only time all I was sober when I was a teenager was whenever I got prescribed some depression medicine and they told me not to drink with it the first time I drink with that.
I remember laying on the floor crying to my boyfriend at the time that I couldn't breathe because my chest feel like there was so much pressure on it.
@ClassicAnonymous17
I'm sorry to hear that you tried alcohol at such an early age. I wouldn't take your mother's words seriously, she probably wasn't under the influence of alcohol and wasn't herself. At least you made it to work at the time. I've seen one guy who could fall out of reality for a week. Good to hear that you are trying to put your addiction under control. You've probably seen so much ugliness in life because of alcohol and drugs. Wish you love, patience, and all the best.
@turquoiseSea8074
Thank you I appreciate it !!!
*_*_ changing the topic.
How long have you been a member of 7cups?
How'd you hear about 7 cups??
@ClassicAnonymous17
I've been here for about a year or so now, I was looking for something like a therapist, to work through everyday things, mostly managing emotions, so I stop by occasionally here when I feel lonely. Some amateur listeners are helpful, I feel a little better. )
@turquoiseSea8074 I've seen 7 cups probably on Google play)
@turquoiseSea8074
I am member Not a listener but we could msg one another if you'd like 😊
@ClassicAnonymous17 sure ) I come here every couple of days or so, you can write to me if you want to)
@turquoiseSea8074
Don't laugh I can't get your new to pop up in the chat option🤦♂️
@ClassicAnonymous17
I'm back here through notifications in my profile only. I wish they had a private chat or something like this here.
@ClassicAnonymous17
Popular = More people startong off the new year optimistically🎉 2021
@juliak1968
GOTCHA 👍🏻🙂👌🏻
Hows your Friday going??
@ClassicAnonymous17
I took a 2 hour nap lol
Im just waking back up now. Its a good friday :-)
@juliak1968
___ JEALOUS!!
Nap sounds great!!!
@ClassicAnonymous17
Napping and snacking are side effects to smoking weed lol
I ate 3 hostess cup cakes then slept
😄
@juliak1968
Do not wanna be _that_ person.
I don't talk about food.
I have an eating disorder.
everytime I look at
food/think about food
immediately my brain turns it all into numbers.
But that does sound good!
@ClassicAnonymous17
Sorry you have that challenge! Im food challenged as ill often eat the wrong foods, im living in a Veterans program in a room with a small refrigerator and a microwave; no kitchen, no safe food storage other than that. They helped me find a decent apartment and save for a nice car. Hoping my new move into 2021 is smooth. Hoping you find peace in the present through 2021!!
@juliak1968
Do you like your apartment? Does it feel _ homey_ are you still adjusting?
* Thank you for the Wsihes/blessings😊
@ClassicAnonymous17
I dont move from this small room into my apartment for about 10-12 days or so, ive been invited to view a nice one and to fill out the application. Its reserved for me because i waited 10 months in this room on a list for my name to come up.
👌
@juliak1968
OH LORDY!!! 10 MONTHS!!!
you are very patient 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
CONGRATULATIONS!!! on going for the visit
@ClassicAnonymous17
Thank you, its a great program for Veterans, its rent free so we can save money while waiting. I managed to buy a very nice Nitro 4x4, and save 2k, now when i move, my rent amount is based on 30% of my income which will leave me with 50% more money left per month than i paid for the last 8 years in my old apartment.
A good helping hand program
@juliak1968 * Thank You For Your Service!!!!
@ClassicAnonymous17
Thank you so much!!🖐👀
@juliak1968
Sorry I was slow to catch on.
_ not the brightest light bulb
_ April 2021 my husband gets approved for his housing Grantsuper excited!!!
my husband did 14 years 4 years in the Marines 8 years in the Army and was discharged because his son passed away / FIRST marriage not my kid.
@ClassicAnonymous17
Im so sorry he knows that pain of loosing a child, we share that! It is hard to move on from that, very challenging on many levels 🖐
@juliak1968
I'm sorry to hear that you had to go through that 💔💔💔
my husband said after him and his wife lost their son everything between them changed and they couldn't go back to the way things were before that time of hardship
@ClassicAnonymous17
I felt part of myself pass-away inside and never recover. Its best to try to only remember good memories, but its one of those unsolvable puzzles smh
@juliak1968
Good morning!😊
How was your night?
Do you have plans for the day?
@ClassicAnonymous17
Good morning, its an uneventful day, no plans, just getting lunch on now. Hope youre doing well.
@juliak1968
_ uneventful here as well.
Washing all the bed blankets.
Hubby had the thermostat on 85 when I woke up this morning !!
Extremely unnecessarily HOT
Little one and I just did 10 min of yoga.
@ClassicAnonymous17
He wanted to make sure you both were warm :-)
Thats cute! You have a fun little yoga partner!
@juliak1968
I love the fact that it actually has adult poses and then on the side it's like little dancing bears that give kids options to do the easier like jumping jacks or stand up straight and spread your arms 😂
@juliak1968
Happy Thursday 🎉😊
_ how'd you sleep?
_any plans for the day?
@ClassicAnonymous17
Happy Thursday, I slept well and got a couple appointments done. Ive got on more at 2:00 then i can relax. How are you today?😊
@juliak1968
Today is just a lazy Thursday.
Little one said she wants her space and shut her door so I'm sure whenever she decides to be friendly and nice all that will change and it won't be so lazy anymore 😂
@ClassicAnonymous17
They are such little people lol
@juliak1968
Can you start a new thread post for us to chat. Back and forth on?
All day I've been trying to access the thread post to create a new one but my app isn't giving me that option
@ClassicAnonymous17
What do you want the new thread to be called?
@juliak1968
Chit chat between Juliak & CA17 😊
@ClassicAnonymous17
I think threads should be for anybody and everybody. Ive created 17 threads so far. We can chit chat anywhere on any threads. Pick one and tag me there.
In 2021 i resolve to listen to my therapist, look ahead, focus, and over come challenges 😄
SENSING YOU LOVE
💌💌💌💌
_ what are you up to?
@ClassicAnonymous17
Thank you ♥️
@juliak1968
Msg you later.
✌🏻👍🏻😊 * HAVE A GOOD NIGHT!!!
STAY Safe & healthy
@ClassicAnonymous17
Ok, take good care. Enjoy! 🎵😁
Link -->> My Poem Diary
@juliak1968
_ how are you?
_ any plans for the day?
@ClassicAnonymous17
Hello,
I had a nice quietly relaxing day with a 2 hour nap. I'm watching football yay! How are you today? Whatcha up too?
@juliak1968
Toddler is making me suffer through SpongeBob SquarePants _AGAIN_
We've been watching all DDDAAAYYY
Outside it's super cold muddy and raining
* What football team do you root for??
@ClassicAnonymous17
Awe, so cute, i remember those days watching lambchop lol . Right now im watching Green bay packers play the Chicago bears, i hope green bay wins. I have picked all the games and the person with the most wins gets a coffee and an apple fritter from duncon donuts.
@juliak1968
What's lambchop??😲
Never heard of it
@ClassicAnonymous17
Lamb Chops Play Along TV Show song that doesn't end - YouTube
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=LZ0KNI18Udc
@juliak1968
Ooohhhh NO!!
I KNOW IT!!
My husband used to play that damn song when I was pregnant!!!😲🤦♂️
Super annoying
@ClassicAnonymous17
Lol yes indeed it can wera down any parents ha ha
Remember the tele tubbies? Lol my kids are all grown up now
@ClassicAnonymous17
Teletubbies: 3 HOURS Full Episode Compilation | Cartoons ... - YouTube
@juliak1968
During covid I introduced my daughter to Teletubbies
shelllllooovveeessss it!!!
I grew up on teletubbies!!!
I was LaLa for one halloHall when I was little
@ClassicAnonymous17
Raising my kids (4) was really great, lots of good memories! :-)
@juliak1968
I only have one kiddo.
I have two steps kids.
I've never meant.
They've voiced their opinions about me on Facebook and instagram. Breaks my heart but I can't change how they feel and I will not stoop as low as bribery.
Birthdays and Christmas time is about the time they start *branching out & for the past two years they'll make request for big amounts of money 5 days before my birthday
@ClassicAnonymous17
Wow! Youve got to stay on your game over there huh? GB Packers won today, there was 16 games today, last one plays at 8:20, its a good distraction. I decided to drink 3 beers and smoked. Its nice finding a way to relax without over doing it. How old, boy or girl? I had 4 step 1 half and 5 natural brothers and sisters; my dad was married 5 times
Smh
@juliak1968
👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
Happy your team won!!!
My father and mother are like that too.
And I was in and out of foster homes.
My husband's son is 8 years younger than me his daughter is 15 years younger than me.
My husband and my mother are the same age.
___ my family hates my husband for ALOT of reasons main 3.
-age
- I am his second wife
- & my husband is black
My siblings I have
One biological sister.
5 step Brothers.
3 step sisters.
By time I was 16 my mother had married three times.
My father has married 4 times.
@juliak1968
_ when I met my husband I was 19
We met at work.
We started the same day.
@ClassicAnonymous17
Blessings for happiness in your marrage
@juliak1968
Thank you !!!
_ what are you up to now??
@ClassicAnonymous17
Its the last nfl game of 16 played today. washington vs philly
@juliak1968
I don't follow football but I am happy for you 🙂
@ClassicAnonymous17 Thank you, its a good distraction on an otherwise boring kind of snowy night, were expecting about 5 inches, i like how clean everything looks!
@juliak1968
Football is a good distraction.
I just don't follow it.
Tonight here is clear skies 28°
I LOOOVVEEE the cold!
But I hate Icy roads
@ClassicAnonymous17 ive been putting on warm jacket hat n gloves and sitting outside on the front porch. The room i live in feels to small sometimes, i just need the fresh air :-)
@juliak1968
My cell is on 6%
✌🏻👋🏻😉 ___ Have a good night!!
@ClassicAnonymous17
Good night
@ClassicAnonymous17
Ttyt 😄😁🤗
Good morning 😊
@juliak1968
Good morning sweetie my morning has been anything but the average normal Monday.
Last night I placed an order for grocery pickup this morning I set my alarm 40 minutes early I'm going to do my makeup I don't have to do my hair cuz I shaved all my hair off my hair was falling out because I used to dye it three times every month _for 8 months. well I got up got dressed and everything I'm supposed to do to be a good responsible human being and my husband pulled up in the car I went to go get in the car the car shut off it would not start
_ continue
Okay car would not start contacting AAA the first customer service I spoke to he was really sweet whenever I get annoyed I look at things humorously he asked me okay sweetie are you in the safe location I said yes sir I'm safe hahaha I wasn't able to leave my house because my car battery is dead is okay at least you're safe and warm like I said it's 11° hear everything is snowy and icy. he said ma'am I see that your membership has ended let me transfer you heat transfer me over and the lady I got she was rude Beyond rude she she asked me what is your state in your ZIP code I told her what she asked and she left it said I don't work for them and hung up the phone. I looked at my phone as they went to the home screen I was like this lady just hung up on me. Now here it is 3 hours later I got off the phone with a customer service representative about 15 minutes ago he provided me all the information I needed to go ahead and pay for a new membership and I paid it I paid it up for a year and because I paid it up within the first week of the New Year I'm covered until March 2022 😉 🎉🎉🎉
then I contacted the grocery people told them that II ha a grocery order for early this morning but I wasn't able to leave do to a dead battery if you are an employee can drive the food to me I'll give you a $20 bill on the spot he said no ma'am we cannot do that you have to make an appointment and everything is filled up for today we have options for tomorrow. But hey you know what I'm happy I'm safe
__continue
I'm safe I'm happy in the house I have a little bit of food here.
I have food about my 4 year old toddler eat we're not going to starve we're all good.
How are you doing sweetie??
How'd you sleep??
@ClassicAnonymous17
Im good, just had 1 appointment this morning and that got cut short so now im looking around on 7cups. Its a good day over all, ill betcha you and your child are enjoying eachothers company today, whats on tv for you both to enjoy? i enjoyed raising my kids :-)
My buddy just gave me an ice cold budweiser mmmm it was very good. I won the nfl football bet for most wins yesterday yay! Its going to be a relaxing day today flowers for everybody 🎈🎉
@juliak1968
🌷🌸🌹🌺🌻🌼🌻🌺🌹🌸🌷
All of the flowers for you!!!
my daughter and I we just made it home we have been dealing with this car issues since about 7 this morning it's now 2:01
Literally as I pulled in the driveway and my check engine light came on ☹️🤦♂️😓
I can't deal with anymore today I haven't eaten today on the way home I did stop for a spicy chicken patty just the Patty
My daughter was good given the fact we've been out all day at the mechanic shop
She did not like the sound of the mechanic shop that was a bit much for her.
A Budweiser sounds good but I'm more of a whiskey person
_Woodford Reserve ♥️♥️
**
How was your appointment???
@ClassicAnonymous17 ♥️🥀
My appointment was nothing more than trying to log in on a site with no luck and we ended it lol
We're in the same time zone, its 2:15 now here.
Paranoia Agent is a cartoon i think..... i googled it, ive never heard of it though. I hope you enjoy it!!
@ClassicAnonymous17
Same, I'm here after 3 years, possibly the best 3 years of my life. And now I'm back to the start.
I'm not that worried though, I feel like I'm stronger than the last time. And I'm sure you are stronger too. Always keep in mind that you felt good for 2 years and there's no reason why it shouldn't happen again. Bad times come back, but so do the good things. Stay strong!
@ClassicAnonymous17
Welcome back..
It's very good you take this decision when you know you need to be here ,this because you still have a chance to be better again.
. 😴 Keep going you are in the right place
Good morning to all members on this thread!! I read some nice conversations going on, very supportive! Today is the 29th day in a row ive worked on my path so i should get the 30 day badge tomorrow. I hope your day is off to a good start.
Blessings, Day
😄Yay!
Hi so I am new here I have recently been diagnosed with BPD and I am feeling very lost and unsure of what is me and what's not I've been doing a lot of research on it and everything seems to tell me what it is not what I can do to help myself.. so I am here stuck in a rut. Any replies, or advice is so appreciated Reading this thread has made me feel comfortable about posting here so if I am in the wrong place sorry in advance 🤦