Efforts & Progress beyond Survival

August 1 2024.

Fill out vendor applications

Leave house by 8:00am

@IsayUncle will just be in your corner rooting for you ❤ and cheering you on 😁

@Tinywhisper11 me as well 

Thursday 8:00 PM. I'm just getting home from work. I made a good day's pay but all my personal stuff is way behind and I never did the vendor paperwork I wanted to do today.

I know I'm drinking too much lately. Not getting drunk stupid or drinking on the job. But when I'm not on a job or as soon as I get off the job a drink is calming me down, two or three of them is good.

I have a long history with alcohol as my entire family does but I never felt the need for it. From high school, into the service, single life, married life times 2, I've always drank and through all these stages they were large variations of the way that I drink. I've only drank beer. Of course on occasion the mixed drinks and the shots and stuff like that but basically beer was what I drank and other than a hot summer day and a hard day's work I never really craved to drink. I drank to party I drank to get drunk I drank to play cards but it was just a thing to do.

At this late stage in my life, I have discovered mixed drinks Oh my God they are so good. Tom Collins screwdrivers the mule drinks. Especially in these hot summer days and with ice cubes and I find myself really craving them everyday.

I did drink late this afternoon into the evening and I know it's making me tired and dehydrating me I should drink water and be eating salads or something..... 

This is the first time in my life that I felt the need to have a drink to move forward. I don't think that's a good development. At the same time I do deserve the relief. I have been working so freaking hard without a break.

8/02/2004 Friday: I got another paying job today. Leave house by 7am.

Everything else... clean kitchen... fold laundry.... redo dog beds.... Do the vendor form

Do the vendor form..... Get ready for work and try to make time for the vendor form.

8/02/2004 Friday: 

Everything else... clean kitchen... fold laundry.... redo dog beds.... Do the vendor form

More stuff..... Prepare foods from fridge before spoilage.... Restraw dog houses and kennels..... Repair hot water heater.... Repair brakes on truck..... Prepare for Nephew  visit..... More than weed-eat, De-jungle yard.... Download windows 11..... 

I have a rain day today so I'm home I just feel like going to bed. I have to make today count. I must! i'm gonna get a load of laundry and then work on the vendor report.

Laundry started, dishes soaking...... Review vendor application

I am absolutely overwhwelmed. Face it! Own it! Beat it!

DO SOMETHING TONIGHT!

8/2/24 

@IsayUncle Just reading through your posts has helped me. Thank you.

@Spruce7179

That's great. I'm glad. Unexpected good benefits happens sometimes when we just keep trying. You being helped is a good thing. Thanks for sharing.

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@IsayUncle I'm v envsioning helping you with your work load. That's the best I can do to help ❤ if you like we can record my voice with some motivation phrases😁 you can play it on repeat in the background😂😂😂

"Do it now!! Go faster!!! I believe in you!!!! Want a hug? Well clean that first!!! Go to bed!!! You missed a spot!! 😁

@Tinywhisper11

I LOVE IT! That would be so awesome! AND YES, thanx for the hugs!

@IsayUncle @Tinywhisper11

Websearch "Vocaroo"...you find it & you can record your speech, then send the link to someone.

@IsayUncle I can relate to how that image-list built up through the last few entries...recently kicked off what will be a major change in my life. Now the real work begins.

8/3/24 -1

Spot the differences from previous post 😁

@IsayUncle yaaaay! You did the dog beds😁 well done uncle ❤❤ 

@Tinywhisper11

Hi..... YEP but yoUUUUU missed one 🤣

Good to see you 💖

@IsayUncle You folded the laundry but added sorting the guest room?  Do you actually put the laundry away after you fold it? 

@mytwistedsoul

yes haha

@IsayUncle

ps.... btw... good eye.👀 🤣. I hope you're having a great day!

8/3/24 -2

Spot the differences from previous post 😁

@IsayUncle The more you get done the more there is to do, it seems. C'est la vie. That's why we prioritize tasks.

May I ask what kind of business you're in?...it's great that it is succeeding.

@slowdecline48

I was able to get some used equipment very cheap and started doing some back-*** work, septic systems and hauling gravel. Of course the equipment that I bought needs a lot of maintenance. But I'm getting the customers and getting the business so that is an awesome starting point I'm very thankful for. 😀.

@IsayUncle That's good fortune indeed. Rough work but it's the kind that is always in demand somewhere. Best of all, you deal with clients as equals instead of having to please a boss all the time.

@slowdecline48

True.... but Soooome people sometimes.... lol 😁 🤣. Still better than a boss everyday for sure!

@IsayUncle hmm guest room's been sorted with folded laundry ('-' ) 

Hope you are taking care of yourself and taking breaks whenever needed ^^

@BlueDarkAurora

Good catch.😁Thanks Blue. Brain dead determine breaktimes, which is much more than any company would pay for. plenty of downtime sometimes.... hahahaha

@IsayUncle @_@ are you going on autopilot? Please know that you're already doing so much ^^ sometimes no matter how much we get done it never feels enough to make a dent when there's so much to do x_x so go easy on yourself :) You've got this! 

@BlueDarkAurora

Thank You, You're Awesome! 😀

I feel you, man. I've also started over at midlife, been in a chronic state of survival for years, and it becomes the norm. Things are looking better, and I find it hard to feel safe and "normal". I told my partner I need to ease into being home more and not working 16 hour days.

@Tommy1971

Thanks, I'm really glad things are looking better for you too. 16 hour days take it out of us and it would be really nice if you could ease into some more time at home. That would be awesome. I wish you the best, you can do it.

@IsayUncle here you deserve this

@Tinywhisper11

Oh No.... our threads are morphing together. thanks and Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!... oh yeaaaa.