Out of The Corner/In The World
Hi! Some of you might know of my other space here, In the corner. Or just, "the corner" in my head. This is the world! I.e this is me learning to "adult" (what?), get out of my comfort zone, accept my flaws, seek the positives in life, etc etc! My journey out of the comfort zone, basically. And it's going to be rocky, it's going to be real hard, and I'm going to end up in the corner venting about something more times than not, probably, but it's a step, I think.
Let's get out of the corner! (That was kinda cheesy!)
Moms mad at dad. Thats new. Rare. Hm. Is he calm? I cant tell - shes on the phone with him- but i think calmer than her. He better stay calm, hes the only one who can calm her down-
Anyways, ignoring mom glaring at and scolding the phone-
Gave physics exam today. Next is urdu on Sunday and im
Ok
Moms mad mad
Okay woah there noone talks to dad like that 😭
Ok she was loud enough that i just got a headache like just this second
Dad changed the topic very firmly
*** my head
Kay bye
Kay im fine my head just kinda felt like it burst for a minute there-
We dont have eletricity today till 4pm. The helpline for the area isnt picking up any calls. How nice. Theres no net either, im using my sisters data. There is hwoever gas and water so i shall not complain (much)
Actually most of my complaints till monday will be about urdu. God help me.
My goal for other subjects: 90% above
My goal for urdu: pass, for gods sake
Its actually doubtful i will for this one. Im serious. Its a 60 marks exam and only 10 marks for mcq. If grammer questions come, ill pass. If no grammer comes- insert skull emoji here
Its not finals or even midterms tho. Just kinda there. For our prep. Some girls who failed the last exams have to regive those (those were imp) so theyre missing this one. (Lucky.)
Ive only done 2 pages of urdu so far and its like 1. Help.
Imran Khan has sent another open letter to the chief of army staff. The risks this man takes astounds me
Screeches in urdu
Yall i give up on urdu. Im sorry mate but nope nope nope. I am not well at all and this is not helping. This ugly stupid subject
So what if i fail it these exams arent important this *** doesnt matter but nooo. Seriously if i fail mom will whip out a gazillion different punishment ideas and it wont physically hurt but the *** man im in a permanent state of near burn-out since two years and mom taking away the few things that connect me to actual real life every time i mess up isnt helping
@unassumingEyes Well...I won't ask you to try to talk to your mom about it because we both know the old battle-axe doesn't listen.
Can definitely relate re burnout. As a chronic guy, I've reached that point far more often than I would ever want...or more than healthy people do. When you rarely get sufficient sleep & always have a base level of pain from somewhere, you're never a proverbial ball of fire...
Not sure what to tell you other than that if you have to repeat a year, then you'll have to repeat a year. 🤷🏼♂️ This world turns as it wants; sometimes things don't work out like we hope.
@slowdecline48 wouldnt even have to redo the year if i fail, its not finals 🤷♀️
Its like 6am
I told meta ai all my urdu syllabus and asked it to make a schedule from 9am to 10pm i kid you not even meta couldnt fit breaks in there
Okokok we dont need to be healthy for one day right? Just one day? Just spend one day working and no breaks and nothing and then pass the exam and then we can be healthy
Im so worried. Ill get like 20 out of 60. And then what. I gkt 56 out of 100 in the last one. But that was passing. 20 is not passing
Idek the paper pattern or else id do enough from the syllabus to make sure i pass but now i have to do everything because if i do half syllabus the other half could come
I have done 3 out of 15 things so far.
Okay not entirely true. Ive done 3 out of 15 *super hard* things so far. I also did 4 other *lesser hard* things
@unassumingEyes That's better than nothing. Give credit where it's due, girl!...
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