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Eva’s Crazy Mind
justmeeva January 21st

i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows. 

i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.

best wishes to you. ❤️

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justmeeva OP July 11th

i’ve been clean about 45 days. it sounds kind of a lot but doesn’t feel like it. 
justmeeva OP July 11th

but um.. i think i’m gonna let myself relapse before i uh.. doonespecificthing.
justmeeva OP July 11th

not yet tho. sometime after my birthday. after my birthday, nothing will matter anymore. 
justmeeva OP July 11th

i should probably start writing that letter. 
justmeeva OP July 11th

because last time i seriously thought about doing it, i left the letter for too late and i wouldn’t have gotten to finish it in time. 

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mytwistedsoul July 11th

@justmeeva Is this the type of letter that I think it might be? You don't have to answer of course. Maybe it's just me that my mind always jumps to that one "specific"  thing 

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justmeeva OP July 12th

@mytwistedsoul 

maybe

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justmeeva OP July 12th

i *** hate nightmares. 
justmeeva OP July 12th

my vision is blurry. 
justmeeva OP July 12th

i don’t think i’m gonna sleep anymore.
justmeeva OP July 12th

it’s 5am 
justmeeva OP July 12th

gonna go find distractions. getting nightmares out of your head is always torture.

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