Eva’s Crazy Mind

@justmeeva

okay friend. ni friend be watching something now too. me loves you too friend 🥺❤️ *one last huggie before you go* 🫂

@LoveMyMoonflowers 

*hugs as long as i can before going* 🩷

anyways. 

“28.04.2024 eva. got it?” 

“…”

”..got it?”

“*sigh* got it.”

i’m not going back to school. 

nothing matters. 

but like- fr. 

there she goes again. better turn that music up. 

tw don’t ask. 

“let’s play ‘kiss marry kill’.

oh look, that’s me! 

kill.”

in my defence i’ve had much worse thoughts and scenarios :D

hehe..~ he.

brain’s telling me i’m the worst person and friend ever. it’s not wrong..

for once i agree with my brain. 

all alone in the darkness. except, i’m never really alone. one way or another.

the way i just googled “why does my teen daughter hold down her sleeves” to see if my mom could find out about my uh coping ways if she wanted to xD

my “i’m tired” doesn’t mean i need sleep, it means i need help. or a hug. or a g**.

4:30am. hmm. 

5am. 

5:30am. it’s pretty light outside. and the birds are chirping. 

6am. the sky’s light blue. 

6:30am. time for sleep lmao. 

i’ll have to wake up in about 1,5h.

*sigh*.

aren’t you just awesome eva 

nnoo why’d you have to bring him here..

now i can’t leave this room before they’re done which is hours and hours later..

oh for ***’s sake did you really have to

this feeling. i can’t explain where it is. i can’t explain what it feels like. it’s like something striking through me. i don’t know how i feel about it. it’s not painful, but it’s odd. 

@justmeeva

some feelings can be hard to decipher ❤️ :') 

the feeling of hunger lol. fun. and my throat hurts too. but only a few more hours. or a couple. not sure. 

just don’t come in this room and everything will be fine

or even better - leave entirely lol

they’re so close tho- 

ok like right behind the door kind of close. 

eughh this sound is killing my ears

ok i think they moved somewhere further away now. 

and that’s how easily it works. 

tw

damn she couldn’t spend 2 minutes at home without finding things to shout about. 

@justmeeva

😞 *offers safe hugs*