Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
no but it’s not so bad. i know many others who have it much worse. what am i complaining about. just my own stupidity. everything’s stupid. stupid stupid stupid.
i’m just living in a loop. waking up. school. hating myself when i’m around any human being. pretending i’m okay. nighttime. a little sleep. only difference is, things are getting worse loop by loop. maybe one day the loop will get to end afterall.
it’s so *** ironic that night is supposed to be the time of peace and rest and silence and then there’s my head full of screams wars and loudness.
lol another vent i’m not able to post for whatever reason. l o l. thanks cups.
@justmeeva
*sits with eva friend if okie*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*sits and hugs ni fren* happy to see you still here 🩷
basically, my school day started at 9am and i left school past 8pm. coming home, i had a moment to eat and now getting straight to homework. *sigh*.
buuutt since we’ve been so busy today, we’ll give ourselves a longer break because we gotta take care of our needs ✨ (jk there’s not a thing called self care in eva world) and we’ll see what relatable we can find on pinterest that will definitely help us be motivated to study 😃✨ (we’ll probably end up having a little cry session (if we’re lucky enough to be able to do that)) (also idk why i’m saying “we” let’s not question it) isn’t that such a great idea :D