Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
@LoveMyMoonflowers @unassumingEyes
i gotta do last classes of school but i’ll come back later oke? love you both 🩷
lol the way i wrote a long *** vent (like 400 words or smt.) just for it to apparently “sound like i’m in crisis”. l o l.
@justmeeva
sometimes cupsies is a bit of a meanie and says things like that about posts ): it not fun when cups does that T^T
i guess it doesn’t matter then afterall.
@justmeeva
*sits with you* 💙
it does matter. 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
eh, it’s fine. thank you though. 🩷
@justmeeva
*hugs if okay*
is evabuddybean… safes…? 🥺
@LoveMyMoonflowers
mhm, she is. *hugs nibuddy tight*
@justmeeva
promise…? *keeps hugging* 💜
ik it hard to talkie about things oftentimes 💙 but ni is here if you need… okie? even if eva friend just needs someone to sit here in silence. that okie too 💜 me here.
love you friend
@LoveMyMoonflowers
promise. i really really do appreciate it, but.. i can see you’re going through a rough time yourself, i can’t make you deal with me on top of everything. i’m just being dumb and overthinking everything and it’s not important. i love you too much, i can’t do this to you lovely. 🩷
@justmeeva
*huggie wuggies* me sorry for the late-ish reply 🤧 ni friend sort of hopping back and forth from forums to rooms and on top of that trying/thinking of sleeping :P
your not being dumb at all 💙 it not your fault. overthinking is… painful :') and thoughts can be so vvv mean to us tbh, especially at nighttime. 😞 it’s hard. *keeps hugging* i think we both might be having a rough time :') we can be here for each other. 💜 evabuddybean has helped ni friend so much even when things weren’t so okie in your world :')
your not doing anything to me… 🥺 me promise.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i don’t wanna make anything worse for you.. it’s fine. i can manage. i always do. 🩷
@justmeeva
you never make anything worse… 🥺 nuu buddy :') *huggies* me just worried about you… :')
@justmeeva
sitting with you, and sending vvvvv big comforting hugs and tons of love your way… okie, evabuddybeanie? 💜
there’s a little something, a site that has a blog 💙 that has helped me a little, evabuddy. 💜 me not sure if it would be helpful for everyone but it’s just comforting to scroll through and to read some posts and pieces there 💙 me not sure if you’ve heard of it before :o it called to write love on her arms 💜 (twloha)
@justmeeva
your not stupid at all 💙 but i do understand the feeling. :') *hugs* 💜 me will still be here for an hour or so lol 🤧 can’t really sleep. :P me just a tag away okie? 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*keeps hugging for the longest time* 🩷🫂
@justmeeva
💜💜💜
it’s only getting worse ***..
gonna go. it’s too much. but i’ll be fine.
@justmeeva
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*hugs tight* goodnight, and thank you. 🩷
wanting to be alone more than anything but with someone is uh.. a different kind of feeling. knowing it’s not possible is a different kind of pain.
now i’m just crying basically numb. i know i’m sad and i know i’m supposed to be feeling sadness right now but i’m just numb and empty, my mind’s like nonexistent, i know i’m in mental pain atm but i cant feel it, there’s always a *** problem with me
