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Eva’s Crazy Mind

justmeeva January 21st

i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows. 

i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.

best wishes to you. ❤️

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justmeeva OP March 26th

“just be yourself”

“……?”

justmeeva OP March 26th

don’t know how to explain it but i have no.. self. 

justmeeva OP March 26th

my brain just told me things i’d include in a goodbye letter. 

..?

justmeeva OP March 26th

also why are goodbyes called ‘goodbye’s. there are literally no *** good byes. 

justmeeva OP March 26th

funny how my mom has more plans for my future than i do. 

justmeeva OP March 26th

if i even have a future..

justmeeva OP March 26th

i can literally feel being drained.

justmeeva OP March 26th

like all life was simply just drained out of me. 

justmeeva OP March 26th

ever feel like.. guilty? about going to sleep too early? i mean 1:30am isn’t that early and i’m not going to sleep just yet, but it also.. is..? 

justmeeva OP March 26th

if you ever think i’m selfish, just know that i haven’t left yet because i’m not heartless. how do i leave my little siblings without a big sister or my parents without their first child or my friends without a friend?