Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
oh wait, there’s more-
i have to write an essay sometime next week, after classes. after the acceptance talks. so i also can’t pretend to be sick and not attend those, and then go to do that essay after school.
that essay. one that i could literally only write a headline to, which was given to us. 45 minutes. nothing. i’m not gonna be able to do that. i’m not.
well too *** bad isn’t it.
i’m really, really uncomfortable now. thanks.
why’s he coming upstairs so much. it’s not the most comfortable thing. he doesn’t even really do anything. i don’t understand.
you couldn’t see the emotional, mental scars i had, until they became physical. you found out about them, and you still didn’t believe me. instead, you blamed me. invalidated anything i ever revealed to you. and you don’t see why i keep myself hidden from you?
it’s funny to think sometimes, how strangers know you much better than the people you live with. how they understand you more than your own family does. how people who you have never even actually met, accept you more than your own mom. funny.
constantly checking the door now, at every faint sound.
