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Eva’s Crazy Mind

justmeeva January 21st

i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows. 

i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.

best wishes to you. ❤️

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justmeeva OP May 9th

in the bus ok so

we were brought to some museum-ish but also not (how nice of a description) place where we roleplayed basically what it’s like to be a politician. i laughed. i felt good. i felt included most of the time there. seems nice right? no- i know it sounds selfish and weird and doesn’t make any sense and makes me sound ungrateful and ***, but you don’t understand. that’s literally one of the worst things life can do to me. i’m not even gonna explain it all rn. but uh *** you life. 

justmeeva OP May 9th

oh and i also got introduced to some disgusting traumatising things humans do that just prove how *** up this world is,.. hmm..

justmeeva OP May 9th

it’s not fair. it’s not *** fair. 

justmeeva OP May 9th

“oh but life isn’t fair” literally ***. 

justmeeva OP May 9th

breakfast time lmao. 

justmeeva OP May 9th

tw

god she’s talking about my arms again. just- stop-

justmeeva OP May 9th

tw.

i feel like a relapse is gonna happen someday soon. 

justmeeva OP May 9th

it’s like a gut feeling. 

justmeeva OP May 9th

tw.

now that i think about it, there’s so much death in my life lately. not like- in my life, but.. thoughts, dreams, songs, videos, rumours, etc.. hmm. 

a sign?

justmeeva OP May 9th

my chest starts hurting if i laugh too much/hard.