my space
hmmm, my thread is gone, idk why., did i do something wrong?
shaking, don't really know why. have to get to school, but i can tell i'm on the verge of a breakdown. hhhhh
tw caps
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE THEY SAID IM "THE BEST" AND I GOT TO SPEND TIME WITH HIM AND HELP HIM OUT AND YEAH WE'RE BOTH DOING SHITTY BUT EEEEEEEEE SDLKJFDKSLFJSLKDJFKLSDJ I GENUINELY FEEL ALRIGHT AND NOT JUST A "IM SOMEBODY ELSE" TYPE OF FEELING
like. i know that this isn't fully me but right now, even if i may not be a good person, i'm not a bad person either. and i'm alright by myself, but also am able to rely on myself and even if the future may be terrible, i'm here right now and this is enough
mmmmmmmm, gotta love never feeling like myself
@ahhhhelpimalive *sits with you* 💙 Dissociating? Have you tried grounding?
@mytwistedsoul
💙💙💙 Just feeling a little bit off, doing slightly better now. How are you?
@ahhhhelpimalive
Hey alive ❤️ Been a while since seen you around hope you are all well. Yeah just wanted to say that. Sending you lots of love.
:)
@ferventflame
Heyo, Flamsie! Indeed, it's been a while! I hope you're doing alright as well. 💙
Thanks for checking in! I've been taking a small break from Cups, it was taking over my life for a while, so I've been trying to step back and take care of myself. This season is always busy, and my mental health can be kinda ahhhh as well.
How have you been? 💙 Hugs if you want them!
@ahhhhelpimalive
Hello, so glad to hear back from you :))
I understand taking a break from 7 cups, the place can certainly be overwhelming and affect us mentally more. Especially since you often are mostly supporting users here, it can be very draining. I hope the break is helpful and it’s not a self isolation thing(which I often find makes things worse for me) either way we all are here for you whenever you need someone to listen or yeah just want someone to be with. Someone out there does care for you very much ❤️.
I think it’s a winter thing, I often feel down as well, I hope you are able to catch some rest emotionally and physically. I am sorry your mental health has been getting worse, here if you need to talk more about it.
I believe in you and that you will be okay, like a champ *sending you lots of strength* It’s always so inspiring to read how you end your emotional shares on the thread here with a positive uplifting sentence even though you don’t always believe in it. That’s very admirable, something I am trying to learn.
With lots of love ❤️
Flame
@ferventflame
Heyo! Happy to hear from you as well! Adorable new profile picture!
Thank you so so much for your replies, it means so much to me <3 Same goes for you, you've survived so much and yet you're here now. I'm proud of you for trying! You're an awesome friend, even if you don't see it right now.
The break has helped, there's been less pressure, I think, to help others and focus my self worth on how well others feel.
I totally get you, it can be so tough to stay positive, and it's something that I'm working on as well. Something that I find can help is writing down notes about that, when I'm feeling good, in places I know I'll see when I feel down. I have a few messages on 7cups, in a growth path I made. I have notes on Spotify playlists. Stuff like that can help as a reminder that I've felt better in the past, and that I'll feel better in the future as well. I'm here for you, if you ever want to share more
@ahhhhelpimalive
I am so happy your break has been positive for you. It’s good to stay from things for a while and refocus. Wishing you so many best wishes.
Thank you I am alright lol I haven’t gone through a lot. Positive memories and reminders can be very helpful yeah. 💚
I don’t know much but yeah don’t put yourself too much pressure of being strong. It’s okay to open up for a while and break down. Sometimes that’s all what we need, at least for me. It’s okay to be not okay and start all over is what I have learned.
Anyways
Cheering for you, yes you will be out much stronger than before as these months past away. Do be kind to yourself. And a big thank you for being your wonderful self it’s really nice talking with you :)
Lots of love for you
Flame
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head hurts a little. i'm thinking of rebuilding walls, which i dont really want to do, but it's been tough and i feel like i need to be strong to get through it. it's the only way i know to manage right now. but ill figure things out later, when i can really think and feel. have to deal with family and such right now. it smells like smoke and yet there's no smoke or anything of the sorts around. i hate that i cant trust my own body. wellllll thats my life though, and itll pass. at least i have them <3 i s t i l l haven't explained them, but i will at some point. e has joined and honestly, i'm not surprised, but it's nice.
a l s o both jay and mars are planning to get me a gift and told me how good of a friend i was and y e a h that made me feel really nice <3 i had a gift idea for jay, i just hope i can find the motivation to work on it
kinda want to go back to other favorite people.
feel like i'm faking things, making everything up, just because i think i might have bpd. and i hate that i think that because of course im just making things up and im hurting so many people by doing it and i could just stop it. and yet i can't and i'd give anything to make this hell stop, i need to get out of my head. im so so so tired.
on another note, looking forward to things. but also feel like the gift im making for jay isn't enough and i hate how much i care about him and yet also that's okay, because it's okay to get close to people. i'm just not used to it.
just overwhelmed by things, feeling tired, angry. but it will pass, i will feel better 💙
@ahhhhelpimalive Hey 💙 I think we all have times when we think or feel like we're making things up. Good days make it feel like we're just full of BS but the bad days bring reality with it
Its hard caring about people because what if we get hurt? What if we hurt them?
Personally I think made gifts mean more because it's like you're putting a piece of yourself in it but that's just my opinion
I hope you were able to get some rest 💙
