in the wonders of my mind💗.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didn’t look like me🧐makes sense doesn’t it😛since there can only be one *me*✨one of a kind now arent I😁/sar. one out of 8118835999✨🌷can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss you’re also one of a kind💖 sorrysorry haha :P🤍im just messing around xD💞also it’s 2am- but shush no snitching🤫I’ll sleep in a while😁when I’m feeling a bit more sane :>😛🩷
wanted to have my own space.💜 for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.💙
to whoever's coming across :'3💜please dont lurk here.🩷 I know anyone can have access to this forum :')💙but please be respectful🩷.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :P💛 y’all get crazy nosy haha- it’s alright.💛nothing too interesting will be here anyway💛if you would like to come in and be supportive it’s completely okie💛but please don’t make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limit💛because I’d still like this to be just my space ^-^💛)
I notice how. others do small things without making it obvious and I always try to adjust myself for that
I remember when I was 11 years old I said that anyone who ever said what mattered was our happiness lied because really we live to try and live up be good enough and reach the standards of the judgemental strangers that we'd never see again. and really we just either add onto all that's happening or get insecure and change everything about ourselves making others insecure.
I disagree with it now I guess. not everyone's the same but it does still affect others. standards and expectations. just not the way I thought it did
I used to be really positively sad :') I'd just say such horrible things and I'd smile sweetly after as if it was all okay
I feel like I'm just hard to care for.
I make everything worse. I come up with something sad in every situation. I talk about myself way too much. I have nothing to offer. you can't talk to me I'm just not easy to talk to. I'm so insanely dumb it's hard to believe like I thought I was smart due a while and this week I've just been learning so many basic stuff. I feel like anyone would just look at me and think ew. I hate myself so much.