in the wonders of my mind💗.

_{12 weeks.}

…

_{guess what}

_{found my mom.}

_yk-

_{the one that I haven’t seen since I was 3?}

_{the one that ran away from my dad} 

_{and left me.} 

_{knowing what he would do to me.}

_{the one that I was hoping would have a better life now with a better family despite everything.}

_{I think I’m meant to be crying.}

_{found out she’s dead :>}

_{I thought that’d censor.}

_{idk what I’m meant to do. someone normal would freak out or cry or panic. but I give up.}

_{I give up.}

_{I’m not someone normal.} 

and this "symptom" has just become me.

_{I’m just the darkness.}

stay silent and do what you’re told.

_{there’s a whole *** story about her online.}

_{and its- omg. so *** fake.} 

_{so *** fake}

_{my real mom and I were the only ones that knew about..the crimes- my dad committed. with no punishment/consequences/reports. becos we knew we couldn’t say anything.}

_"dad"**

_{but it’s been years.-}

_{I’ve seen some chats between my "dad" and my aunt- his sister}

_{about my mom.}

_{I don’t think I ever looked at those again.} 

_{I *** hate him} 

_{I hate him so much.}

_{he destroyed my whole world. except he was always my world.} 

_{my mom was murdered.}

_{and I have evidence.} 

_{will I contact the police ? *** no.}

I can currently send my "father" to prison for 5 different reasons.

_{I did loads of research. on all of them.}

_{and the time he’d do in prison for each one.}

_{in my country- my dad would have to go through either a life sentence or a death sentence.}

_{my dads dangerous.}

_"dad"**