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iloveyouxx March 17th

hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnā€™t look like mešŸ§makes sense doesnā€™t itšŸ˜›since there can only be one *me*āœØone of a kind now arent IšŸ˜/sar. one out of 8118835999āœØšŸŒ·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youā€™re also one of a kindšŸ’– sorrysorry haha :PšŸ¤im just messing around xDšŸ’žalso itā€™s 2am- but shush no snitchingšŸ¤«Iā€™ll sleep in a whilešŸ˜when Iā€™m feeling a bit more sane :>šŸ˜›šŸ©·

wanted to have my own space.šŸ’œ for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.šŸ’™

to whoever'sĀ coming acrossĀ :'3šŸ’œplease dont lurk here.šŸ©· I know anyone can have access to this forumĀ :')šŸ’™but please be respectfulšŸ©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :PšŸ’› yā€™all get crazy nosy haha- itā€™s alright.šŸ’›nothing too interesting will be here anywayšŸ’›if you would like to come in and be supportive itā€™s completely okiešŸ’›but please donā€™t make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitšŸ’›because Iā€™d still like this to be just my space ^-^šŸ’›)

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iloveyouxx OP May 6th

I thought heā€™d be absent but whatever. he just came in late.

iloveyouxx OP May 6th

I had to go pick up a calculator from a girl in my yeargroup-

i have 21 minutes-

iloveyouxx OP May 6th

I had to go pick up a calculator from a girl in my yeargroup-

i have 21 minutes-

iloveyouxx OP May 6th

school internet-

iloveyouxx OP May 6th

I wish I could give guys something else to physically stare at.

iloveyouxx OP May 6th

ā€¦..

iloveyouxx OP May 6th

I just donā€™t get it :ā€™) I donā€™t understand. I donā€™t get the difference between me and her- what can I do to be enough..? Iā€™m so genuine at this point. because Iā€™ve gave everyone my everything. and now Iā€™ve apparently "lost that spark to my eye". Iā€™m gone. I canā€™t go through stuff and be so perfect but when Iā€™m expected to do something I do it-? I try. I just try. I swear Iā€™m so hurt. I swear it hurts. you hurt me. what does it take to see it. you hate seeing others hurt but you hurt me you literally stole who I used to be. I came here so. not gonna say hopeful because I thought this was something for sewerslide but whatever. innocent? people are actually so fake here. itā€™s insane becauseĀ when im at school I feel like I just canā€™t keep my eyes open because of how mentally draining. being surrounded by friends and friend groups everywhere but youā€™re the only freak. I complimented a couple people today. and I helped some randoms. I like doing it. but now- you just do stuff for how everyone else sees you? literally no one cares. if you want to fit in you canā€™t just be nice. but thatā€™s why I thought itā€™d be different here because almost every time someone would go against a rule or be rude/mean/hurtful in any way everyone would get involved. but what actually happens that hurts people isnā€™t seen. I swear Iā€™m hurt but I donā€™t get the difference. a hurting girl and a "hurting" girl.? the minute you canā€™t be anyoneā€™s pawn anymore you donā€™t even matter. you donā€™t matter. at 2% Iā€™m gonna go.Ā 

you didnā€™t bother. you couldnā€™t bother.

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May 6th

@iloveyouxx

*hugs*

@iloveyouxx *offers safe hugs* I'm sorry someone hurt you here šŸ˜ž This place has changed so much since I first joined. I've watched it slowly get worse and no one does anything šŸ’™

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iloveyouxx OP May 7th

my heart-

iloveyouxx OP May 7th

at school.

iloveyouxx OP May 7th

slt are looking for me.