bro is my mom only regretting what she done now. na...... this is a lie. *** off. 

what does she expect.... to ruin her kids life and then for her kid to just get over it.

at this point....... why am i here.... why are they letting me live artificially..... for gods sake

@amiableBunny4016 I wish I knew what to say or had an answer - something. Sometimes things just - are. There's no rhyme or reason

*Sending you lots of love Bunny and strength and healing and hope* 💙

@mytwistedsoul

i'm just so exhausted soul. its like i'm fighting myself in here. even breathing is suffoccating. *hugs if okay*

@amiableBunny4016 Life can be exhausting. I think it IS because we're always fighting - something. We fight ourselves and our demons daily. We fight our thoughts and our feelings. We fight to live and fight not to. Maybe we're always fighting because that's all we've ever known. Where you are now - maybe let the doctors and nurses help you fight - let whatever meds or assistance they have for you do the brunt of the work and let yourself rest? Let your mind rest knowing that you're physically safe and not at home

@mytwistedsoul

I want to go back home. I don't wanna be here. I just want to go back and tell my brother that I'm there and I will be there forever. I just wanna be a child. I don't want to be in this stupid place anymore. I don't care if something happens to me Im getting out of here. I can't stay here 

@amiableBunny4016 You've a great deal of loyalty to your brother. I respect that alot. The problem with the thought of not caring what happens to you is that it affects your ability to be there for him ya know? 

@mytwistedsoul @amiableBunny4016

*Hugs you both tight if okay, but not too tight* 💜💜 :')

@LoveMyMoonflowers *bear hugs you* 💙

@amiablebunny4016 

bestbunny,

violet I love you so much. I literally just love you so much. I am so sorry I took a break, my health has also been failing as of recently, and I am just so sorry. I wish I could heal you. I wish I could make it better. I need you to know I'm always here. my pms are always open, any time of day ok?

@AvyIsKing

hi avy. its okay. no need to apologise, i understand health issues can be difficult to deal with. i hope your getting better bestavy (: don't wish my friend, don't wish anything for me. I'm just nearing the time of life where you realise that there was no way out of the trap we were locked into and trying to escape most of our life. thank you friend. i appreciate you checking in here. *sends hugs if okay* 

Isn't it weird that when you come near to the end of this life you realise all the things you leave behind. 

oof. im bored. is anyone here?

10 days until my birthday..... on the 7th of may..... and lord knows how miserable thats going to be

@amiableBunny4016

*offers a hug* 

@amiableBunny4016 Kind of a weak and pathetic suggestion but maybe we can make it a little better here? 

@mytwistedsoul

Idk how to make it better here but okay. ✨ Don't worry about it anyways don't feel the need to do anything special. No pressure. 

@amiableBunny4016 Sometimes it's nice just to receive the Happy Birthday wishes from everyone and there's cards. I'm mean maybe it's kind of silly but I always think that's pretty nice myself when someone makes a little fuss over us on birthday's 😊💙

@mytwistedsoul

Yeah I know what you mean. It's nice to feel like.. your existence meant something to someone. I just don't want anyone to feel pressured or feel like they have to do it. 

@amiableBunny4016 I know I don't feel pressured or like I have to do it. I'm sure others won't feel that way either. Anything we do is because we want to 💙

did he actually ask to visit me in this place? 

🤣 He has no common sense. 

@amiableBunny4016

He really doesn’t :/ 

She sat here for the past hour and told me that she was sorry... 

And that she would change. 

... Idk what to do ... I've just been crying and staring at a ceiling since she left . Idk what to do with my life .. 

Oof. 

Idk what to do. 

your life pulled apart. 

your home burned down.

your people can't protect you.

your a child. 

but mentally a adult.

i guess growing up quicker was just the way to life. 

where do you go?

if anyone wants to read a poem i posted just now here is the link click here

mom,

If I was you and you were me, would you forgive me? 

it hurts to know that you came to this world to exist and be, but the world treated you like you didnt even exist and was not even worth a penny.

...........fun fact: i am human. 

yeah.... no..... i wasnt really treated that way most of the time..

Thinking of you 💙

@mytwistedsoul

um..... hi.

@amiableBunny4016 Hey Little Bunny 💙 How are things? How are you? 

@mytwistedsoul

things are going. i'm fine. i'm hanging in there. just giving myself more time to feel my presence and take time for my thoughts and feelings to come and go.  how are you? 💙

@amiableBunny4016 I'm glad you're taking time for yourself to feel and process things. I have a hard time doing that 

I'm - idk - in a mood I guess. Today is a physical pain day so I'm alittle grumpy. Thank you for asking tho 💙

@mytwistedsoul

thank you friend. 💙 I am sorry your in physical pain :( that sounds difficult! did something happend to cause it? (no pressure or obligation to answer). *sends healing beams if okay* 

@amiableBunny4016 Just old war wounds from childhood. There's always something to remind us of the past

@mytwistedsoul

oh soul! bless you 💙 i hear you :( hope you feel better soon buddy!

@amiableBunny4016 Thank you Little Bunny 💙 

*sending good vibes to you* 

he came to visit me yesterday..... to do a fake apology or some ***... idek....he was just waffling about stuff he did and how much he did or didnt regret it. 

some people just need to *** off