@amiableBunny4016 space
Hi everyone,
Im gonna be posting here every week. So.. you may or may not have seen my poems across 7cups or my writing. Anyways, if you have not then thats okay.
Let me introduce myself. You can call me Bunny/Violet/Bun Bun. I am from the UK and I am 13 years old. So I came here to inspire, to love, to show kindness and to be respected. The biggest power on this planet is love and kindness. Humanity is in a state of disaster. Panic. Hatred. But hate never beats love. Because love has more power than hate.
I was bullied for over 6 years. I learnt alot across the years. I learnt to overcome. Learnt to love. Learnt to forgive. I am human. I am not a robot. I am not a stranger anymore. I am me. And if people wanna judge me for who I am then I say.... I forgive them. And I know that they can change.
Like Martin Luther King once said, “Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that.”
Humanity is changing. The world is awakening. And more and more people are realising the reality. The reality of social media. The reality of trauma. The reality of life. This is who we are. And together we form as 1.
We live in a big world. Scary. Isn't it? But its to beautiful. Its so beautiful how the sun rises. How then stars glimmer every night. How the wind howls. Isn't it? and we dont realise how beautiful it really is until..... we think about it. Think deeply about it and you will find how beautiful it is.
If your feeling alone right now. just know that.....
Your strong. Even if you dont believe it.
Your worthy. Even if you dont believe it.
You can get through this.
I am here for you.
We are here for you.
Thanks for reading, This is me, Bunny and this is my world.
Take care,
Bunny
@amiableBunny4016
…i miss you, bunny. 💜 :')
thinking of you and mmm worrying about you friend 🥺 me sending all the huggle wuggles your way :') 💕
@amiableBunny4016 Hey Bunny 💙 Um - I'm sorry if my taking an impromptu (is that really a real word?) break caught you off guard or left you feeling abandoned or anything. That was not my intention. I should have gave more warning - I see that now. I was selfish in that moment and I am really really sorry if my disappearing hurt you in anyway
I hope that you're ok and just busy with school work and stuff. Sending you lot of love Bunny 💙
guys, look....i'm alive. i'm fine. i'm here. i'm human just like you. i breathe the oxygen into my lungs, don't even know how i managed to make it alive or make it this far. i suffered and screamed and yelled and played this game, you know it didnt even give me fame, it just gave me more and more pain. i had nightmares and didn't know who to blame. this trauma drowned me every minute. every second. i had visions of children playing in a playground, a kid that could follow her dreams and become the person she wanted to be, the one that people could see so she didnt have to sit at the back of the class unoticed. unseen. i had a vision of a kid who could just be herself somehow, to shine a light on other people's lives, i get messages till this day that about how kind and honest i am, i get messages by people who miss me or feel me or think they might understand me. so you see.... please leave me be. life won't feel so crazy when death comes around. but you see... my life is coming to a close. i don't have much time left in this hospital. but just know.... i love you all and i hope your all okay. and i tried to be the best little bunny you ever wanted me to be. the little bunny that you wanted me to be. the little bunny you called for and asked for. the little bunny who fell and got right back up. the one who loves you just as much as she loves herself.
bunny
@amiableBunny4016
we love you too bunny 💜 seeing you again brought a smile to my face. *hugs if okay*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i don't have that much time left of me Ni. this smile won't last forever. i'm scared.
@amiableBunny4016 Bunny? What happened? Why don't you have much time left?
@mytwistedsoul
i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry they said i might not have much time left. i'm sorry.
@amiableBunny4016 no no there's nothing to be sorry for Bunny. Do they know what's wrong?
@mytwistedsoul
i've just had so many health issues since i was younger. and with all the abuse and ***, its got even worse. getting into drugs and *** and watching myself starve. it all lead to this. watching myself get hurt all lead to this. and i had an attempt whilst you were gone. so i'm just not physically okay. but i dont wanna go into detail about whats wrong with my body and *** and with the weird stuff.
@amiableBunny4016 Oh man 😔 I am so so sorry to hear about the attempt Bunny. Hopefully being there helps and you're in a safe place right now - so that's definitely a good thing. Plus they can give you things to help give you nutrients to help build your body back up
@mytwistedsoul
......yeah no whatever. i've lost hope in my body anyways.
@amiableBunny4016 Yeah bodies do tend to let us down. You never realize how delicate they actually are until they start to fall apart
@mytwistedsoul
oh well... enjoy my existence for now. when i'm gone, then thats a different thing.
@amiableBunny4016 @mytwistedsoul
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@amiableBunny4016 I do enjoy that you exist - I've always like talking with you but it makes me sad to think that it might not be for much longer 😔 I suck at goodbye Bunny
@mytwistedsoul
i can’t say goodbye.……
i-…..
@LoveMyMoonflowers
none of us can say goodbye. or like it. weirdly enough, its just human nature. i understand ni. <3
relax. deep breaths. i'm here okay?
@amiableBunny4016
im crying
@LoveMyMoonflowers
no, no no. don't cry. i'm here ni. i'm here. its okay. i'm here. see? look..... i can go rawrrrr! and partyyy! and do bunny shuffle dance hehehe. just take it slowly Ni. i know everything some things i said might have made you a bit upset, but its just the truth and i wish i could change it somehow. <3 i love you okay? *hugs if okay* i will try to be here with you as long as i can okay? i'm trying ni. i'm trying. you keep being you.
@amiableBunny4016
hugs very tight and doesn’t let you go ever ever ever ever ever
this oxygen is barely keeping me alive.
diagnosis' and health issues from when i was younger have come back. wohoooo! god save me somehow because i really just cant do this anymore. either take me with you or let me live peacefully.
bro is my mom only regretting what she done now. na...... this is a lie. *** off.
what does she expect.... to ruin her kids life and then for her kid to just get over it.
at this point....... why am i here.... why are they letting me live artificially..... for gods sake
@amiableBunny4016 I wish I knew what to say or had an answer - something. Sometimes things just - are. There's no rhyme or reason
*Sending you lots of love Bunny and strength and healing and hope* 💙
@mytwistedsoul
i'm just so exhausted soul. its like i'm fighting myself in here. even breathing is suffoccating. *hugs if okay*
@amiableBunny4016 Life can be exhausting. I think it IS because we're always fighting - something. We fight ourselves and our demons daily. We fight our thoughts and our feelings. We fight to live and fight not to. Maybe we're always fighting because that's all we've ever known. Where you are now - maybe let the doctors and nurses help you fight - let whatever meds or assistance they have for you do the brunt of the work and let yourself rest? Let your mind rest knowing that you're physically safe and not at home
@mytwistedsoul
I want to go back home. I don't wanna be here. I just want to go back and tell my brother that I'm there and I will be there forever. I just wanna be a child. I don't want to be in this stupid place anymore. I don't care if something happens to me Im getting out of here. I can't stay here
@amiableBunny4016 You've a great deal of loyalty to your brother. I respect that alot. The problem with the thought of not caring what happens to you is that it affects your ability to be there for him ya know?
@mytwistedsoul @amiableBunny4016
*Hugs you both tight if okay, but not too tight* 💜💜 :')
@LoveMyMoonflowers *bear hugs you* 💙
@amiablebunny4016
bestbunny,
violet I love you so much. I literally just love you so much. I am so sorry I took a break, my health has also been failing as of recently, and I am just so sorry. I wish I could heal you. I wish I could make it better. I need you to know I'm always here. my pms are always open, any time of day ok?
@AvyIsKing
hi avy. its okay. no need to apologise, i understand health issues can be difficult to deal with. i hope your getting better bestavy (: don't wish my friend, don't wish anything for me. I'm just nearing the time of life where you realise that there was no way out of the trap we were locked into and trying to escape most of our life. thank you friend. i appreciate you checking in here. *sends hugs if okay*
Isn't it weird that when you come near to the end of this life you realise all the things you leave behind.
10 days until my birthday..... on the 7th of may..... and lord knows how miserable thats going to be
@amiableBunny4016
*offers a hug*
@amiableBunny4016 Kind of a weak and pathetic suggestion but maybe we can make it a little better here?
@mytwistedsoul
Idk how to make it better here but okay. ✨ Don't worry about it anyways don't feel the need to do anything special. No pressure.
@amiableBunny4016 Sometimes it's nice just to receive the Happy Birthday wishes from everyone and there's cards. I'm mean maybe it's kind of silly but I always think that's pretty nice myself when someone makes a little fuss over us on birthday's 😊💙
@mytwistedsoul
Yeah I know what you mean. It's nice to feel like.. your existence meant something to someone. I just don't want anyone to feel pressured or feel like they have to do it.
@amiableBunny4016 I know I don't feel pressured or like I have to do it. I'm sure others won't feel that way either. Anything we do is because we want to 💙
