@LoveMyMoonflowers

hi Ni.. 

@amiableBunny4016

Me is sorry if me is invading your safe space 💜

*offers safe hugs if okay* 💙 how is bunny bean feeling now? 💜

@LoveMyMoonflowers

I don't want you to apologise for this ever again 💙 you no invading my space you is being kind and wonderful 💕.

Idk. Slightly anxious but I'm fine. Hru? 

@amiableBunny4016

okays hehe :'3 i have this weird thing about… apologising too much. 

aww :'3 it’s okies to feel anxious sometimesies 💜 here for you. we’re in this together 💙 me believes in bunny bean. 

i’m doing… meh tbh :'3 idk. 

@LoveMyMoonflower

Hehe. Sometimes we all do apologising habits 💕

Idk Ni. I just feel helpless today . Idk it's just constant anxiety something bad will happend any second. 

💙 *Sending hugs if okie* always here for you 

@amiableBunny4016

yeah that’s true :'3 

i hear you 💜 constant anxiety can be really tough to deal with 😞 and just feeling like anything could happen anytime :< we can hop into SR, if you want 💙

*accepts hugs* owlways okay. thank you :'3 i appreciate you so much 💜 

a bit of a random question but how did your physics studies go buddy? :'3 *no pressure to answer* 💙

@amiableBunny4016

keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, bunny bean. 💜 please be safe. 💙 

@amiableBunny4016

bunny bean… 💜 me just wanted to check on you… 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

💙Heyy im fine Ni. I know last night was very stressful in sr but I'm alright 💕 I'm safe. Hru? 

@amiableBunny4016

aww i’m so glad to hear your safe bunny 💜 I’m fine :’3 *hugs if ok* <3 

Idk what to do anymore . 

Anxiety is great (: /sar 

😶😶😶😶😶😶 I'm stuck inside my own head and it sucks 

Sometimes you wonder why you ever exist, other times you wonder why people die 😶

My eyes hurt from sleep deprivation 

I could sit here all day and complain but I would rather not 

I've lost faith in myself 

When you reach to 49 pages of your diary thread : 😶 what the *** am I doing with my life 

This thread is the celebration of my stupidity 

I'm officially crazy. 😶

*keeps some hugs just in case a special bunny needs any*

@Sunisshiningandsoareyou

Haha love the bit 'also here if you do not want to talk' 💕💜🥺

@Sunisshiningandsoareyou @amiableBunny4016 

i love this sun buddy 💙 bunny bean they are even dinosaurs 🦕 

When you grew up being told:

Depression isn't real.

Depression and anxiety are for stupid people.

Your not depressed your just a coward.

Depressed people can't face the world.

And then one day .

You fall into depression. 

You feel anxious.

You feel the weight of the world.

You feel like your done.

Your tired.

@amiableBunny4016

I feel you 💜 

@amiableBunny4016

very valid to feel that way

..  I wanna talk to someone. But everyone's gone 

@amiableBunny4016

im here…

Everything's going wrong 

Everyone leaves so don't put your faith in anyone. That's the only way to get hurt 

some wounds arent meant to heal. some words weren't supposed to be said. some lives weren't meant to be lost

anyone hereeeeee?

@amiableBunny4016

me… but i might be slow. 

my heart is beating as fast as heck

@amiableBunny4016 sounds a lil worrying Bunny, how's youu feeling? *sitting with you* ❤

@Sunisshiningandsoareyou

i feel stressed out, lightheaded. and my heart is about to shatter out of my chest. this anxiety is gonna kill me

@amiableBunny4016

oh noes, what's making you feel anxious currently, Bunny, if you're feeling comfy to share? No worries if not. <3 I'm here with you. Right across the screen. <3 

What helps you cope with the anxious thoughts and stress usually? 

@Sunisshiningandsoareyou

like ... nothing makes sense. school is actually ***. and like i have 100 emails from school about my mental health and all that and then they pretend they believe me and then leave me in the dust. 

and like i cant cope with this constant anxiety and depression. there is a workload. and *** so much to deal with all at once. and things arent going okay... ive been in a crisis last night. idek man. im just lost.

@amiableBunny4016

Ah that's a lot on your plate, Bunny, understandable to feel overwhelmed and confused with everything happening at once and feeling stressed about it. :/ 

Is there some decent teacher/ mentor at school you feel more comfortable talking with? You deserve to be heard, understood and believed. <3 

About the workload, it sure adds to the stress, with leaving less room for your self-care. :( Would breaking your workload in smaller chunks, prioritizing it based on how sooner/ urgent you need to get it done, taking it one thing at a time be helpful here? 

Sometimes when we are looking at everything together at once, it gets extra confusing and stressful, not knowing where to start from and what to do, also of course, the drive to carry out things when we're struggling emotionally and mentally can be quite the challenge itself. However yes, when it's all together, it feels (because it is) a lot and you don't need to deal with it, all at once. You're allowed to pace yourself and try your best. And yes, as always, your best counts, even when it may feel it doesn't. 

Crisis, mhm :( did brave Bunny reach out for kind people for some support? For the kindness, compassion, space and support Bunny deserves. *offers hugs* you try being a lil gentle with yourself, mhm? <3 

@Sunisshiningandsoareyou

sorry for late reply. i read this and then it poofed out of my brain . its fine. <3  i dont need to reach out to people. people will tear me apart, just like everyone else did (; take care of yourself okay? love you. thank you for being so supportive