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Modal0154 June 10th, 2023

Following after

https://www.7cups.com/forum/generalsupport/DiaryEntries_1597/THETAJFTOJSII_303933/

Less unwieldy a title than the last stream of diary entries. It has an origin, I might one day explain. I might do the Vocoroo links on here more often for which it'll mean all the more to me if they get feedback.

Still will be typing as typical on here as well.

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Modal0154 OP July 5th, 2023

A sorrowful video of a puma induced fatality to a house cat which I saw weeks ago, makes me think of how when it comes to 'the big cats' I can only imagine how wearisome it'd be in certain parts of Africa and India to be in a situation where some kind of animal control has to be contacted b/c of a leopard hidden say in the trees of an urban area. >_< The idea of a creature so amply sized among the trees gives me the willies.

'_' `_` I keep coming across stuff having to do with dire leopard and human overlap in India but I think to myself jaguars in Latin American cities..deforestation presence in too dissimilar from what's done in say India and hence not as much worry 'give or take' Brazil ?.

Modal0154 OP July 5th, 2023

That I might 'think straight' , more clearly if I actually slept in a healthy pattern might well mean that for a 'better reason' I wouldn't be here.

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Modal0154 OP July 9th, 2023

*sigh* Last Thursday my higher-ups sent out a msg about how they'll have a schedule draft for the rest of the year set down by the end of this week.. `_` '_' and I don't know whether that'll effect me being able to schedule my remaining days off. I at least had November 6th specifically in mind to be off on.

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Modal0154 OP July 5th, 2023

I worry about arriving at the ‘right moment’ to karaoke ‘Bright eyes’ by Simon & Garfunkel in the interest of it maybe relieving me of the past memory of someone.

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Modal0154 OP July 6th, 2023

Hecho ;)

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Modal0154 OP July 6th, 2023

-'s: this moment

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Modal0154 OP July 6th, 2023

Online naturopathy pursuit

Make appointment w/phone provider b/c I'm really not too trusting of how they charge for data

`_` Both those tasks are the kind of tediousness but 'small important step' calibre stuff which feels like it entails hours of stuff beforehand that's actually fun and/or encouraging to do before you do tedious chores like that in what scant non-wage labouring time you have where you also actually feel functional

Pest control like reps arrive in the late morning.

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Modal0154 OP July 8th, 2023

I at least set out a message for a possible naturopathy appointment.

The slog of a support centre call to my cell data provider can wait on this weekend..going to see how not disappointing this platform is in a search for a listener =-= .

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Modal0154 OP July 10th, 2023

The kiosk of new provider on my mind is conveniently barely several paces across from the kiosk of my current provider but >_< ._. f--k !, I'm not looking forward to interacting w/the reps. b/c it's f--g Jackson Square and the jaded cs which 'comes with the turf' of the unappealing locale et al.

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`_` '_' Am I really so fortunate as to nigh-always avoided laundry room drama with my timing of when I do laundry or is it truly that most ppl here don't actively do laundry all that often or that since the employment situation is so variable that a fair amount don't opt for doing it until mid-day ?. 45 minutes on the washing machine and drying machines which can go for 1 hr 45 minutes if you so let them is a fair chunk for which otherwise outside chores can be undertaken. So it still puzzles me deeply.

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Modal0154 OP July 6th, 2023

Imo Oasis's 'Live forever' covered by an Elvis AI would be cool

Modal0154 OP July 8th, 2023

There is a value to karaoke. This can be said even if we're at a point now where even the most vocally unprofessional among us can have an AI made wherein we'll sing whatsoever.

Modal0154 OP July 9th, 2023

Still waiting for my dad's friend to pop by to pick up the things in the garage which only I can open.

-_- Partly today's reason for having spent it indoor at my parent's .

Modal0154 OP July 9th, 2023

Now herein is a part wherein it'd be key to look up data on say whether nightshift work became much more prevalent after the 80's or after the 90's. I'm sure a fair amount of us by now know of say 'blue collar' tradesppl born btw the 40's-70's who've had the heaviness of their work impact their physicality more conspicuously impact them more than other on the basis of how often they took 'the preventative measure' of exerting themselves, 'working out' in a more recreational light during their off-hours..

Feel free to correct me but methinks that most mentions of ppl who consistently were awake from near midnight to near dawn in the past might more likely come from celebrities and/or ppl with more 'indulgent' lifestyles than those who had menial nightshift jobs.

I say that since I'd think that such ppl are more likely to bring it up as 'wild' and memorable (enough) stuff might've happened for them during those hours with much more likelihood than say someone who was a factory labourer or cleaning " ". Those celebs might well've been wealthy enough to avert certain elements of senescence from hitting them hard, superficially or beyond. With those other ppl..not so much.

I feel that a lot of us post-1990 arrivals are due to have senescence at the least impact us like those non-celeb pre-90's might shift workers in terms of our appearances and health as senescence gets to us, even with the variable leeway consistent exercise habits make for us. It's not only that we might do nightshift work but our screen use and media consumption habits that make us all the more susceptible. I'll agree with a memory of a line from a video I watched which I regret not to be able to link: in a sense phone, computer, internet, screen based use overall is the addiction that our contemporary world nigh-obligates us to have.

Even I'm afraid in a sense of what practically unavoidable senescence in terms of not only my appearance but functioning anatomically and physiologically ( ._. grief, the overlap of stress, hormonal activity, heart functioning being key to me >_< ), I'm due for as the seeming 'liberation' of ostensible retirement looms. How many will still be braggarts about how aging didn't impact that while underscoring how wealthy they were b/c they 'networked' or succeeded through those d--n labour market based adult popularity contests during the mid 00's-the initial lockdown era epoch..

._. >_< and I still dread screen based radiation.


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Modal0154 OP July 9th, 2023

Looking for a new cell phone provider is never fun

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Modal0154 OP July 9th, 2023

=_= Finding time to make time to make a playlist for sporadic slogs like that is tedious on it's own.

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Modal0154 OP July 10th, 2023

Were 'wokeness' to achieve in a near future and we fully express the previously swept under the rug experiences of the marginalized, minorities with our emancipatory like expressions etc, the next trend in media imo will be highlightings of how the environment played a heavily taken for granted role in the past along with highlightings of how it was screwed over and the few who confronted for it.

Modal0154 OP July 11th, 2023

I might not be much into fiction, since I kind of understand how the way the irl mind often works is in a narrative way so in a way that suffice. I might not be much into drama (mediocre improv class experience comes to mind "^_^) since I've realized for much longer how so much of the behaviour I have to pull off on a mundane basis, how I 'present myself' and 'give presentation' is already a performance and unappealingly tedious one at that, so to add a layer of more broadly recognized performance, with it's own nuances for expression and performance often in the interest of a narrative and to master that learning curve is not much appealing to me*.

* unless we're talking (pun not intended) solely in terms of the voice, AI aside

Sure the narrative is a rather unstimulating one of going through the motions of mastering the 'barely not underemployed' job and job tasks I do even before getting into tedious schlock like whether I'll learn to or how much driving I can do or pain of sublimating the desire for something akin to intimacy..but it's useful for me at the least.