In the Corner
Sometimes, the thoughts in my head repeat over and over and over again until I need to tell them to someone, even if noone's listening. So, this is my little corner to do that. Thoughts and thoughts and thoughts. Trigger warnings, just incase. And, @LoveMyMoonflowers, @justmeeva @DarkerPlaces and @iloveyouxx are welcome to replies. Not really comfortable with anyone else. Sorry for tagging. Be safe everyone <3
Whys everyone against teenie side all of a sudden like i saw the arguments but still theres no place in the world with a 100% peace whys everyone acting like the adult side is perfect
@unassumingEyes @iloveyouxx @justmeeva
hi.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii 🩷
@justmeeva
hehe. hello eva buddy beanie <3
@justmeeva (and others if ur on cups rn <3) me feel like moms getting tense now so m gonna sleep ❤️ hope night goes easy for all of us. Ill be waiting on here (cups) tmrrw either way ❤️
@unassumingEyes
goodnight eyes friend sleep well. 🩷
@unassumingEyes
take care eyes buddy <3 sleep well. 🥺💜 if your mom needs yeeting just lemme know lol
@LoveMyMoonflowers thanks for the offer ❤️ no yeeting needed tho ❤️ one thing was weird but im probably overthinking 🤔 might mention it..
@unassumingEyes
okay friend :’) 💜
Sooooo TW :0
Um so at my relatives house theres one big bed and one mattress for us. So sis sleeps in mattress and i unfortunately sleep with mom on the bed. :0 There’d been no trouble with sharing with her- till last night, i guess. I mean, it wasnt big. Im probably overthinking it. Basically, mom usually faces the side away frm me- her back towards me. Last night she lay down facing me, and then suddenly her knee moved forward to touch mine. And im like “nope” and moved my knee away…and her knee followed it :0 and this happened like 4 times :0 i was like whats going on- cuz i slept with my sis several times and we hv an unspoken rule- if one of us accidentally touches the other and the other moves away, just stay in that position or move back again for the other. But mom’s knee was practically chasing mine. The 5th time i moved away a larger distance and stared at her knee really hard.
She didnt move, then. After a while of me feeling uneasy, she turned again, back facing me, and i finally calmed down enough to sleep.
It’s not a big deal- but 4 times? Feels kinda purposeful- idek
Tw
u know how i mention the fanfiction obsession thing every now and then? So uh theres this one fic. Um, its written well and stuff but it’s dark. Really, sickeningly, dark. And it’s not like- magical or horror dark. It’s realistically dark. And really long. And uh i read it last year- 6 chaoters in i was interested, 9 chapters in i felt wrong, halfway through i wanted to stop reading really bad but needed a happy ending so it wld stop plaguing my thoughts. I read it through with a ton of breaks, and a lot of nausea and need to just punch someone. It was awful and yet so realistic. Ive read dark stuff before but this was on a whole new level. I decided i was never re reading the thing again- it had been so hard to finish. And the happy ending wasnt fully happy either- it still promised troubles in the future for the mc. It was so real.
I dont regret reading it- but i also do. Bcz it was rlly hard to read and i felt awful the whole time. It was not good for me, tho it taught me a few lessons.
But…ive been getting the urge to read it again. Which, okay isnt as bad an urge as some…others ive been getting but i know this is bad for me too. But idk. So far ive been coming here to stop myself from searching the awful fic again- but i might. I really really might.
Oh god, i hate that fic.
@justmeeva @LoveMyMoonflowers @unassumingEyes
any of the friens online ? :0💕 yes I feel like a waste of space and burden but right now me is missing yous :'3 how’re you all?/nfta🤍
@iloveyouxx
hi nadia friend 💙 i don’t think i’ve been very active in this space lately :o i’m sorry about that :') ooft. 💙 what makes you think your a waste of space/burden, buddy…? 🥺💙 i don’t think you are and me vvv sure eyes buddy and evabuddybeanie would agree with me. 💙 *hugs if okay*
mm i’m… idk, lol. hru? :’) me taking a short break from studying hehe 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers
aw yay you still call me nadia friend🥺💜 me got scared after not talking in chatrooms in a while (probably didn’t notice but it’s oki heh :P) you wouldn’t consider me your friend anymore🤧 or that none of you would🥺 scary :P
its oki i haven’t been active at all :'3 dw about it friend :0🤍
idk. :'3 life was being really mean again :'3 and I tried really hard to still make everyone happy and have enough time for everyone at the same time >: and by the time I could come back here me saw you all chatting and thought I didn’t matter :'3 like- you’d be fine without me >: and if I came back it’d be annoying because you were all already bonding so well :'3🤍
*hugs nibuddy tight*💜
aw :'3 it’s oki. and yes breaks are very needed do that💜
@iloveyouxx
awwe of course buddy you’ll always be our friend 🥺💕 smh :') *hugs vv tight if okay* 💕
i hear you :( life can really be such a meanie 😞 it’s not fun at all. our brains can be such meanies too :( sounds like your brain’s been a bit of a meanie, buddy :') by saying that you don’t matter, or that we would be fine without you… nuuuuu… 🥺 not true at all friend *huggie wuggies* 💙 even though we were chatting and we were bonding it doesn’t mean we didn’t want you around 💕 we did miss nadia friend and we love and appreciate nadia friend always 💕 and yes, you are nadia *friend* 💙 always.🥺
love you friend 💙 keep being you 🥺💕
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*hugs ni vv tight and refuses to let go*🥺💕 mhmhm brain was being a meanie :') *huggie wuggies ni buddy*💜 I know :') me kind of just feels bad that yous have to put up with me :'3 tho me doesn’t actually know why yous wouldn’t like me >: brain doesn’t like me- thats for sure :'3 brain doesn’t like having me believe the good things :'3
aw ni buddy🥺 me loves being nadia friend🩷 it’s better than anything in the whole world🤧💜
loves you more :'3💕 you’re the bestest friend ever🥺💖
and you don’t have to reply hehe <3
@iloveyouxx
awwe no buddy we aren’t ‘putting up’ with you at all :') but yeah me understand how brainie can make us think and believe such things about ourselves… 😞 mmm, it’s not fun. :’) *hugs* love you friend 💖 we never see you as someone we have to ‘put up’ with, okie…? 🥺💕 we love nadia friend 💖
@iloveyouxx me glad ur reaching out ❤️ i dont think ur a waste of space either. Missed you soooo much ❤️ im hving a mix day- and i gtg rn, which oof is not nice. But ill be here tmrrw morning 💓 mayb ill drop by once tonight if i can <3 Super grateful to see ur post love 🤍🙃
@unassumingEyes
sending hugs for eyes buddy if okie 💕
@unassumingEyes
aw💕 I missed you too🩷 dw its oki :'3 I’ll be waiting :>🩷🪑
@iloveyouxx
happy to see you nadia fren 🥺💕
@justmeeva
aw so vv happy to see you too🥺💖 was about to summon you hehe :P cause I got the notifications from you heart lurking💕 how’s the eva fren ? 💕
@iloveyouxx
*hugs you if oke* 💕 eva fren’s fine hehe. how’s de nadia fren? :0
@justmeeva
*hugs you tight* ofc it’s oki💕 sure ? :0 and you can guess for me hehe :'3 but it’s oki :P🤍
@iloveyouxx @LoveMyMoonflowers @justmeeva for yall
I can't convince you
Of how amazing you are, everyday
So I'll tell you, you could be your worst
And I'd love you, and wanna be with you anyway
@unassumingEyes
awwe smh eyes that’s so sweet 🥺 i’m not amazing at all lmao, but thank you friend 💙 *huggies if okay*
@LoveMyMoonflowers *hugs* knew i cldnt convince you smh/lh
I think you are tho <3
@unassumingEyes
*keeps hugging*
hehe nuuuu i’m actually garbage lol 🥲 it’s just a fact 🥲
@LoveMyMoonflowers but *i* dont think you are frnd
Also @justmeeva @iloveyouxx and flowers- gotta sleep :( tcc hope the night goes easy <3 and- ill be here in the morning ❤️
@unassumingEyes
take care eyes 💖 be safe and sleep well 🌈
@unassumingEyes
goodnight eyes frenn :0 *gives you a goodnight hug* 💕
@iloveyouxx @LoveMyMoonflowers @unassumingEyes
all the frens are here yippee :0 :D 💕
@justmeeva
whoop whoop 💖 *happy dance* 😛
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*happy dance*💖🐛🐛🐛🐛:P
@iloveyouxx
caterpillar moves! :o interesting 🌈 *keeps dancing* 💃
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yesss hehehe *dances too*🪿🪿🪿🪿🪿🪿
ni buddy :0 what do you think of my catwalk :P😛
✨🐈🐈🐈🐈🐈🐈🐈🐈🐈✨
@iloveyouxx
lmao nadia 😭🤣 the catwalk 😛
@unassumingEyes @justmeeva @iloveyouxx
i need help 😭
i need to get back to studying 😭 but my motivation now… it’s just… ✨ nonexistent ✨
@LoveMyMoonflowers i feel that. Didnt study a word today. Uhhh i hv cake for u if u do sm 🎂
Srsly tho if u need a break its oki <3
Id give u motivation but i barely hv any 🥺 if u study u wont hv to study later tonight :p thats all i hv lol
Good luck ❤️
@unassumingEyes
if i don’t study now 🤔 and don’t study later tonight 🤔 then i won’t study at all (: lmao. and i can do it in the wonderful mysterious magical land of
✨ tomorrow ✨
@LoveMyMoonflowers nooooo lol tho i’d probably submit to that reasoning 😅 did you get anything done? *pretends im not supposed to be studying rn*
@unassumingEyes
mmm yeah i got ✨ something ✨ done 😅