In the Corner
Sometimes, the thoughts in my head repeat over and over and over again until I need to tell them to someone, even if noone's listening. So, this is my little corner to do that. Thoughts and thoughts and thoughts. Trigger warnings, just incase. And, @LoveMyMoonflowers, @justmeeva @DarkerPlaces and @iloveyouxx are welcome to replies. Not really comfortable with anyone else. Sorry for tagging. Be safe everyone <3
Worse and worse
I feel awful
mayb this is meant to be a tragedy
big Tw :’3
okay.. not gonna lie- cause I’m tired of lying ( for the sake of others ) :’3 I’ve still been getting notified when you/ meeva/ ni would post something on here- and I’d watch :’3 because my brain just- turned off.. :P I’m just.. someone that’s not okay telling others that aren’t okay that it’s gonna be okay :’3 I’m just- watching everything fall apart :’3 like standing next to fire :’3 I feel like everywhere I look there’s something and I can’t escape it- I’m just so trapped and scared :’3 I feel like I can’t breathe.. but yeah I wanted to apologize for not being there for you- again T^T I’ve been dealing with so many people and I’m trying so hard to make everyone happy and I can’t- but yeah :’3 I’m gonna make this text really small and white :0 so that it’s there and I didn’t write this for no reason- but also no one has to deal w me being annoying because no one can see it :P “yippeee” :’3 heh :’3 * does a lil dance to brighten up the mood * :P
hi sorry I haven’t been online a lot :0 howre you all ? :0🤍 ( sorry not tagging because of that thing where you click a tag and the post changes color :P idk how to explain it or maybe that’s just me :’3 )
*hands out cookies 🥛🍪;3*
@iloveyouxx
i love how it still did that either way :DD /sar :’3 if there’s a blob of text just ignore it :P I’m so depressing T^T..
Tw
My chemistry lab sir is just…no
he just focuses on me so much during lab classes
he asks me questions and how i am etc
he asked me if the devil possessed me once
it was so random
we had a test in the lab once and he sat next to me and ranted to me bout how students dont take lab classes seriously
idk i dont like it
i dont like that he focuses on me specifically
its just weird
i dont want to give the exam on sunday
hes gonna be breathing down my neck the whole time and asking me distracting qs and stuff
idk
@unassumingEyes
ew teacher D: /j but what is that tho :’3 I wouldn’t like it either T^T
@iloveyouxx yea and like he only does it for me its so weird :0 and he calls me short, which is true, but he’s also short so- :0
@unassumingEyes
..how’s a teacher allowed to do that😭 I mean my schools pretty strict so even if it was a joke it’d be taken seriously :P
@iloveyouxx :0 wow-
lol our school is not very good at being a school
@unassumingEyes
tw just in case :P
:’3 people here have such different school experiences :0 like mine is basically like- really really uncomfy uniform that you have to have each part of at all times or it wouldn’t be reaching the standards, standards cards ( if you don’t reach a standard a teacher has to sign your standards card- if you get 5 signatures that’s after school detention for an hour and if you get 10 that’s after school detention for an hour every Wednesday etc etc ), teachers that are ✨the worst✨ at teaching, sooooo muchhhhh dramaaaaaa :00T^T, people obsessed w drama :P , gossip, bullying ( a lot :0), screaming :P, really really reallyyy noisy, reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy crowded :0 ( every time I have to get to a class I just have to either stand still and cover my face or push everyone aside :P ), fights, etc etc :0 something happens every day :P my school lives off drama :0
o and sorry for the late reply :0 btw can you look at my bio :’3 I was updating it and I think I wrote too much and now every time I click on my profile the writings all over the place and the text on the screen is in pink etc ( cause some writing in my bio was pink ). soo idk what it looks like to others now :0 can you check what the last section is ? cause for me it deleted everything but like it’s still there in settings but on my profile ( actual bio ) I can’t see anything anymore :’3 just tell me what it looks like pls :0 I’d appreciate it :0 @unassumingEyes
@iloveyouxx I can see till the sentence “I have BPD” and the texts all in purple
@unassumingEyes
.. :’3
@unassumingEyes
i think I fixed it omg :0 can you check again pls ?
@iloveyouxx
it should now end w “💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞” after the quotes
@iloveyouxx i didnt read all of it yet, but i can see till the quotes and hearts
@iloveyouxx
its similar for us- minus the bullying. We hv less of that
tw we hv an unsafe roof where we go for sports and break
and there hv been accidents and if we hv one more accident the school will be shut down
also 2 families are suing the school atm :0
@unassumingEyes also sorry fr late response im trynna connect to a listener and stuffs and every few seconds cups is giving me a msg “you have been connected to a listener” and my response here gets deleted :0
@unassumingEyes
its oki don’t worry about it :0 I wish I had a listener account and you could finally get proper support :’3
@iloveyouxx :0 that is such a nice thing to say- :0
especially since i cnt find a good listener anywhere 😭
@iloveyouxx nadia i love ur bio-
me was literally gonna ask when i read the nicknames part if “love” was okay and then i read the next sentence-
i myt not listen to the songs (family doesnt approve of music and i dont hv headphones rn) but ill read the lyrics lol
@unassumingEyes
yippee someone appreciates my effort ! :>
some people ask for permission or call everyone that unless they think they aren’t comfy with it-so I added it incase anyone was wondering :0 and you were :D
reading the lyrics without listening to the song sounds- T^T but it’s oki cause I broke my headphones so now we both don’t currently have headphones :’D I broke it trying to plug it in my piano.. such big brain work right there :P🧠
