In The Gloaming TW *just in case*
With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
do you remember how it started
when you were hiding in the dark
the voices that called you at the end
were they angel, demon....friend?
what if something waits under the bed
creeps out at night
and lives in your head?
if everything is better when you're dreaming
why are we so afraid to sleep 🐾
@mytwistedsoul Some interesting short verse...
It kinda reminds me of this.
They go heavy on the chorus...
mirrors broken
fractured and shattered
the face u see, shows chilling imperfections
kindness is gone, now a sneer
a monster within, drawing near
darkness takes hold
the good that once was, bought and sold
whispers grow louder, the lines blur
a beast awakened
rage simmers, fires consume
burnt bridges, disobeyed rules
empathy fades to distant memories
the world a playground for mankind's cruelty
should we fight back? can we regain control?
are we destined for such a hellish role?innocence lost, such a heavy price to pay
for the monsters awakened, on that fateful day
monster roars, only a spark remains
of the light we once held, fighting with our chains
someday maybe we'll find our way back
for now, we are all monsters walking o
n a desolate path
@mytwistedsoul A good commentary on the human condition. 👍🏼
@mytwistedsoul
your writing is always so eloquent soul 💙 thank you for sharing this soul! its always lovely reading your writing!
@LoveMyMoonflowers Aww thank you Moon Pie! 💙 It's nice to see you 😊
@mytwistedsoul
it's nice to see you too Soul. ❤️ you've been in my thoughts a lot.
@LoveMyMoonflowers And you've been in mine 💙 *offers safe hugs* 💙 I've missed you
@mytwistedsoul i've missed you too. *hugs* how have you been soul ❤️ how's your health? *no pressure*
@LoveMyMoonflowers I'm idk? Trying to be productive. Health is about the same - just learning to manage some things better. Thank you for asking 💙
How is Moon? *no pressure either* 💙
@mytwistedsoul I didn't realise it's been so long… you posted this literally 9 days ago. :') time is so weird. i'm so sorry for the late reply :/
Yeah… i get that, i guess sometimes when we try to be productive it’s easier to distract ourselves from… stuff. lol. *hugs for soul if okay* I'm glad your managing some things better. 💜 but health is so weird isn't it… :/ and is so stressful. :')
i'm kind of the same, trying to be productive. Keeping myself busy with school work and writing. other than that… it's a mystery 😭 Let's go with 'fine.' *shrug*
💜 *Sends lots of love*
@LoveMyMoonflowers Hey that's alright. No worries and no need to be sorry ok? 💙 Time is fluid. Health is definitely weird and what works for one person doesn't always work for someone else. Stress?! What stress ?! 😅 I'm glad you're keeping busy although having to do school work would really suck tbh lol. Sometimes being productive seems over rated doesn't it? If it's ok to ask - You writing for purpose or for pleasure? I'm fine doesn't really sound fine. *offers safe hugs 💙* You know you can always talk with me right? No pressure of course *lots of love to you Moon Pie 💙*
@mytwistedsoul hi, sorry for the late reply again. i almost read that as health is fluid and time is definitely weird lmao. 😭 my eyes working weird at 5 am.
yep. i wish it was the same for everyone but that just ain’t how it works. it would be much easier tho if everyone was the same health wise. :')
yeah, it’s ok though. what is weird is that i basically have to work on school stuff throughout the week even on weekends, cause its obvi more work than last year and on top of that… i'm slow aha. i'm good at getting behind lol
soul idek what productivity is 💀 that’s why i said, trying to be. i know what overworking is, i know procrastination… but what is real productivity 😭
both i think. idk. and don’t worry about me, I'm ok. *hugs for you too* thank you Soul.
💜 sorry.
@LoveMyMoonflowers No worries. There never a timeline to reply Moon Pie 💙 There's nothing to be sorry for ok?
some times we wonder what's the point
so disappointing we can't control it
we hide it, tuck it away, instead of exposing it
we get pushed past the breaking point
when reality hits, which is something we can't avoid
in sleep, in dreams, picture me with gasoline,
let's light this place up
because there's no time to contemplate a better way
even with the lights off
we can't escape the shadows that we saw
we didn't mean to believe in them,
thought we'd get away but sometimes we get it wrong
stuck in a cycle
see the sh*t that keeps getting clearer
thought that it might be over
take another look in the mirror
despite thinking it, and gravity blinking in
over your shoulder
demons keep sinking their teeth in
if it keeps us dreaming
of working this sh*t out
and if it's so hard to keep breathing
maybe its time that you sit down
all you cucks better listen up
give it up, thinking I give a ***
keep chasing the past as though it isn't stuck
it will burn you down and I will wish it luck
while we're waiting
all the memories are fading
and we can't remember, exactly what we're chasing
when you see the world
crashing down maybe you will realize
that nothing has changed
every thing fades, everything dies
and you need those shadows to tear you apart
because they're the only thing that's truly alive
😈🐾
We're spreading my father's ashes this weekend. I'm not looking forward to this.
@mytwistedsoul Sorry I didn't see this earlier, Twist...been a bit occupied over here.
May your father rest in peace, wherever he is (assuming an afterlife, of course).
@slowdecline48 It's alright Slow. I probably should have just kept it to myself anyway. Apparently now that that bit is done everything is magically all better now according to some people 😐 Thanks though
@mytwistedsoul In this case the only person who can decide if it's "all better" or not is you. Besides, what is your journal for if not for heavy posts?
Quite a song...perfect for silencing the "merciless inner critic" voice. It isn't the kind of music I normally listen to, but I dig it anyway.
Didn't know who Jelly Roll was until now. Prior to tonight, all I knew about him was that testimony in Congress about fen.tanyl.
Sometimes someone says something that makes absolutely no sense. Today was an internet chat person. The internet has been dropping out every day at the same time. A tech was here on Wednesday and replaced the ONT and supposedly fixed the problem. Noticed that evening it was really slow. Seemed fine the next day. Friday it's iffy. This morning it goes out and came back on and seemed fine. Then we reach that golden hour when lo and behold it drops out completely. Cue a chat with one of their "helpers". Yes, I would rather text than talk on the phone.
Her: "What lights do you see?" Me: "The power and the LAN." She repeats the same question and I give the same answer. We went through this 4 times. My last reply, (I was frustrated) and I said "I'm not sure how else to explain it to you but it's the power and the LAN." She proceeds to tell me that "I asked what lights you see, not what lights are lit." Now that's a real head scratcher. Because I couldn't see the lights if they're not lit, correct? I'm telling her that the lights that I SEE lit but it's not the right answer? At this point I told her "I'm going to go now" and I turned the phone off. Ironically, it came back on an hour later.
I've been trying to figure out what I missed. Was this a trick question? Some ancient riddle? Was she following a script and I was supposed to just say "I see 2 lights." To which she would reply, " what 2 lights do you see?" Did my providing a complete answer break protocol?
@mytwistedsoul jesus christ of nazareth. that sounds so frustrating 😭 ☹️ bro i don’t understand chat support sometimes.
or people in general. 🙄
@LoveMyMoonflowers It didn't really seem all that supportive in all honesty. (Smh) People!
@mytwistedsoul @LoveMyMoonflowers Now multiply this finding by however many people over the next decade or two &, depending on your disposition, you may well arrive at misanthropy. I certainly did...sometimes I still do.
This is probably paranoia on my part, but I'm also wondering if the point of her repetitive obliviousness was to make you hang up in frustration so she wouldn't have to actually do her job. Very lazy people can sometimes be clever in figuring out ways to shirk their tasks.
@slowdecline48 I had toyed with this idea but I guess I was hopeful that her employment might mean something. Although it is a Saturday and it would suck to be stuck in a building guiding people to whatever lights they're supposed to see lol
@mytwistedsoul it might suck, but they could be a little nice and help like they’re supposed to 😭
😂 Good point!...I hadn't thought of that. If I had to do tech support on weekends, I'd probably show up drunk 🤣
@slowdecline48 ugh yes, these people exist. 🙄 My sister worked a call centre/chat support type job once and she had colleagues like this.
@mytwistedsoul I just saw this thread pop up on my homepage! I hope you don’t mind if I join the discussion!
Lights that you see but are not lit. 🤔 You accidentally contacted the hotline for the bridge troll from the 3 Billy Goats Gruff story. I want to tell her all about the constellations in the sky that I don’t see during the day, the lamp that’s off in my living room, the lights I see behind my eyelids when I close my eyes, these little stars that dance in front of my eyes when I stand up too fast. Then she’d know how to fix your internet.
I think you gave her too smart of an answer. Her sheet probably wanted you to say something like 2 pretty blinky things.
(sigh) Internet update. It went out at exactly the same time again today. The word yeet kept coming to mind. Yeet it out of the house and down the mountain. I braved a phone call. Today's gentleman was French. Heavy on the French accent. I understand that everyone needs to work. There's bills to pay and all the good things that come with life. He probably has his own Internet to pay. But where do they find these people? Thank God he was polite because I felt 2 inches tall after the third time I asked him, "could you please repeat that?" Then he tells me he's going to "escalate the situation." What does that mean?! I didn't ask. I don't think I want to know. I'm thinking he meant he's giving it priority. Because he said something about the guy that was just there on Wednesday and it's doing the same thing now again. "There's something not right" Le gasp! You don't say? It hasn't come back on like it did yesterday. You never realize how much the Internet distracts you, until you don't have that distraction.
@mytwistedsoul
this story has become very interesting soul 😄 As much as I feel bad for you its the most enjoyable thing to read. I hope the internet gets fixed soon! good luck lol.
escalate the situation? what does that mean? lol. thanks for making my day with such a funny and enoyable, and sad story. 🤣
Bunny :)
@mytwistedsoul Le gasp! 😂😂
@mytwistedsoul Two things come to mind:
- May I have permission to use your first "tech support idi0t" post for calligraphy practice? I think it's comedy gold...it will withstand the test of time.
- You probably need a few more interesting books. Keep a few around for when Net access goes down...you can catch up on your reading. It's one of the ways I deal with it.
