In The Gloaming TW *just in case*

do you remember how it started

when you were hiding in the dark

the voices that called you at the end

were they angel, demon....friend?

what if something waits under the bed

creeps out at night 

and lives in your head?

if everything is better when you're dreaming

why are we so afraid to sleep 🐾 

Memphis May Fire - Chaotic

mirrors broken

fractured and shattered 

the face u see, shows chilling imperfections 

kindness is gone, now a sneer

a monster within, drawing near

darkness takes hold

the good that once was, bought and sold

whispers grow louder, the lines blur

a beast awakened 

rage simmers, fires consume

burnt bridges, disobeyed rules

empathy fades to distant memories 

the world a playground for mankind's cruelty

should we fight back? can we regain control?

are we destined for such a hellish role?innocence lost, such a heavy price to pay

for the monsters awakened, on that fateful day

monster roars, only a spark remains

of the light we once held, fighting with our chains

someday maybe we'll find our way back 

for now, we are all monsters walking o

n a desolate path

some times we wonder what's the point

so disappointing we can't control it

we hide it, tuck it away, instead of exposing it

we get pushed past the breaking point

when reality hits, which is something we can't avoid

in sleep, in dreams, picture me with gasoline, 

let's light this place up 

because there's no time to contemplate a better way

even with the lights off

we can't escape the shadows that we saw

we didn't mean to believe in them, 

thought we'd get away but sometimes we get it wrong

stuck in a cycle

see the sh*t that keeps getting clearer 

thought that it might be over 

take another look in the mirror 

despite thinking it, and gravity blinking in 

over your shoulder

demons keep sinking their teeth in

if it keeps us dreaming

of working this sh*t out

and if it's so hard to keep breathing 

maybe its time that you sit down

all you cucks better listen up

give it up, thinking I give a ***

keep chasing the past as though it isn't stuck

it will burn you down and I will wish it luck

while we're waiting

all the memories are fading

and we can't remember, exactly what we're chasing

when you see the world 

crashing down maybe you will realize

that nothing has changed  

every thing fades, everything dies

and you need those shadows to tear you apart

because they're the only thing that's truly alive

😈🐾

Charlie Daniels Simple Man (tw)

Jelly Roll - Liar

Sometimes someone says something that makes absolutely no sense. Today was an internet chat person. The internet has been dropping out every day at the same time. A tech was here on Wednesday and replaced the ONT and supposedly fixed the problem. Noticed that evening it was really slow. Seemed fine the next day. Friday it's iffy. This morning it goes out and came back on and seemed fine. Then we reach that golden hour when lo and behold it drops out completely. Cue a chat with one of their "helpers". Yes, I would rather text than talk on the phone. 

Her: "What lights do you see?" Me: "The power and the LAN." She repeats the same question and I give the same answer. We went through this 4 times. My last reply, (I was frustrated) and I said "I'm not sure how else to explain it to you but it's the power and the LAN." She proceeds to tell me that "I asked what lights you see, not what lights are lit." Now that's a real head scratcher. Because I couldn't see the lights if they're not lit, correct? I'm telling her that the lights that I SEE lit but it's not the right answer? At this point I told her "I'm going to go now" and I turned the phone off. Ironically, it came back on an hour later. 

I've been trying to figure out what I missed. Was this a trick question? Some ancient riddle? Was she following a script and I was supposed to just say "I see 2 lights." To which she would reply, " what 2 lights do you see?" Did my providing a complete answer break protocol? 

(sigh) Internet update. It went out at exactly the same time again today. The word yeet kept coming to mind. Yeet it out of the house and down the mountain. I braved a phone call. Today's gentleman was French. Heavy on the French accent. I understand that everyone needs to work. There's bills to pay and all the good things that come with life. He probably has his own Internet to pay. But where do they find these people? Thank God he was polite because I felt 2 inches tall after the third time I asked him, "could you please repeat that?" Then he tells me he's going to "escalate the situation." What does that mean?! I didn't ask. I don't think I want to know. I'm thinking he meant he's giving it priority. Because he said something about the guy that was just there on Wednesday and it's doing the same thing now again. "There's something not right" Le gasp! You don't say? It hasn't come back on like it did yesterday. You never realize how much the Internet distracts you, until you don't have that distraction.