In The Gloaming TW *just in case*

I wanna crawl out of my skin tonight. Panic attack on the way and idk what set it off

They did it again 😕

For Rinny and Karu ❤️

@mytwistedsoul

Thank you, Soul! Your post was so unexpected, beautiful and thoughtful that it brought tears to my eyes. The blossoms are gorgeous! I haven't been much of a friend but you still keep giving, no matter what. I don't deserve it. So much time had gone by without me saying a word that it eventually became embarrassing and I quietly hoped that you will forget me. I'm so sorry. I'm not sure if I should ask how you are doing. I've read your posts here and there so I have some idea. I'm sorry about everything, Soul. Life really súcks sometimes. Well, most of the time tbh, but then there are also little pieces of joy to be found, like Lilies and raindrops and chocolate chip cookies and a message from a long lost friend. :) I find the courage to send a warm hug your way. Catch it if you like it or watch it float by. Its a fluffy white thing with green polka dots today. :p Karu and I miss you dearly and you have been in our thoughts often. ❤

@intelligentWheel627 Omgosh Hey you! ❤️ This is a wonderful surprise. How are you? You'd be surprised how often you would pop into my thoughts. 🙂 Seeing a picture of an elephant or finding a scarf in the closet. And I remembered you hiding under an invisibility cloak knitting a scarf

@mytwistedsoul

* eagerly grabs one of the purple polka dot hugs for herself * ❤ The other one has to float further coz Karu is on another continent! I'm travelling and haven't seen him for a month. 😔

One day I saw deer running across the field and I remembered your blissful surroundings. You must be seeing them often? Its interesting how I don't really know you so well and yet I feel like we have been friends forever. Maybe its because you spend a lot of time in my head. 😜

You ask how am I. It feels wrong to say I'm OK coz the struggles and challenges never end and sometimes I find myself free falling towards the rock bottom again but overall I can definitely say that I'm better since the last time we talked. I'm off the meds and docs and feeling more like myself again. More in control of my life. Unless I'm not. 😂

Hey, I read your latest post. And then I read it again. And again. It is so sad and beautiful and brutally true. It clicks with me. I have always admired your talent with words. Have you thought of publishing? 👀

Ah, such a long post. The invisibility cloak must be losing its powers. Either that or I ran out of yarn for the scarves, haha! I'm sorry for spamming your space with my nonsense! 😁

@intelligentWheel627 Hey ❤️ I think it's so great that you're feeling more like yourself! And more in control of your life is awesome! I'm really proud of you Rinny ❤️

@mytwistedsoul

OMG they are so cute looking at you, lol! It would be awesome to pet them some day but eating the wrong leaves is not cool. Tell them not to behave like goats. 🤭 Thank you for sharing Soul, it was so good to see. Thanks for more hugs too. * holds the purple polka dot fluff gently for a really long time *. Yellow fluffy hug with white stripes right back at you! ❤

Have you seen the moon recently? Its huge and bright! I was awake at 3 am staring at its beauty. I thought how wonderful it is that Soul and I are so far apart but we can still look at the same moon. But then it somehow occured to me that we are not far apart at all, we are very much together on this tiny speck of dust called Earth, floating in the universal ocean. Too philosophical perhaps, lol. I almost heard the wolves howl. 🐺

@intelligentWheel627 They don't seem to care if they behave like goats lol. They'll stare right at me as they nibble on the things they shouldn't. Very rude. I've had to fence off certain plants because they'll eat them until there's nothing left. They did that to a mimosa tree I planted last year 😐. They've got the whole woods to munch but yet they prefer what I plant *smh*

@mytwistedsoul

flowers

when memories are more alive than you are

and you're haunted by your own mind

you try to walk forward, but you're not

cause your back is facing the front

can you remember

try to recall it so hard

what was it that fueled your heart?

a story that never ends?

Or one that never starts? 🐾

I keep trying to find words to help you feel better but there aren't any. So I just sit here with you quietly. ❤

Question: who is the most beautiful Soul in the entire universe?

Answer: @mytwistedsoul ❤

*perfect score for Optibear*🥳

Thanks for making me win this one Soul ❤ 

@Optimisticempath Woot woot! You win! 😁 You're too sweet *big squeezies* Thank you for the fly by ❤️❤️

Tunes 😈

Citizen Soldier - Wired for Worthless

Lowlife - Yungblud

Too cute 😊

https://youtube.com/shorts/V7md_b49b8A?si=VFWzdS1fE2oF1a2A

@mytwistedsoul

aww! That’s so adorable! 🥺😭😭😭💖🐶

@LoveMyMoonflowers Boo! 👻 I thought it was too cute not to share 😊

😅😂🤪😐

@mytwistedsoul

And sometimes life is messy. It's hard to pick up everything or put anything back together 💙 we feel lost and confused and often overwhelmed 💙 and I know we want to breakdown. I know it's hard to keep standing 💙 but your here and I'm so flipping proud of you. 💙 you are still standing among this chaos. We hear you. We see you. And if you need to hold anyone's hand in all this pain, it's okay 💙 thank you for being a blessing. Your kindness and constant support is beautiful. I don't know what your going through but your one of the most beautiful people I know! 💙

Bunny 

@amiableBunny4016 Bunny Do you have any idea how awesome you are? Thank you for reminding me that despite the mess and feeling lost and confused and overwhelmed I am still standing

I'd like to say how proud I am of you too. I know you're dealing with alot in your world. I know it's hard but I admire your strength. I admire that you keep trying and despite everything you are still such a warm and caring wonderful person *hugs* Thank you for being you 💙💙

@mytwistedsoul

me agrees wholeheartedly 💙

@LoveMyMoonflowers *hugs* I see you around the forums being your wonderful amazing self too Moon 💙 I know you have things you're dealing with and struggling with too. I'm so proud of you too for trying so hard and for being the awesome person you are 💙

@mytwistedsoul

💜

@mytwistedsoul

*hugs if okay* 💙 you got this and im so so proud of you soul. Keep being your awesome and beautiful self!💙

@mytwistedsoul- hoping you are having a better day --

Happy Halloween 👻🎃

Bought a pumpkin

And carved it

@mytwistedsoul

Wow, that's impressive! You are so talented! 😍

Happy Halloween! 👻🍬🍫🍭

@intelligentWheel627 Aww Thank you :) ❤️

@mytwistedsoul

Ouh soul buddy that’s seriously good! :0 

@LoveMyMoonflowers  Thank you! 💙

@mytwistedsoul. That’s really good!

@adventurousBranch3786. *The pumpkin 🎃 carving.

@adventurousBranch3786 Thank you! ❤️

just an annoying little bear (me😁) sending their favorite person (you🤗) big hugs and reminder that they are vvvv awesome and they are luvvveddd and so special and they are valid and worthy and they matter even if their brain sometimes tells them differently and that they are the sweetest blessing on earth and their kindness is a gift and they are doing really amazing by trying their best and they have an army of huggerrrsss when they need.🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗

thinking of chu @mytwistedsoul 💕💕💕

@Optimisticempath OptiBear ❤️ annoying has never been a word that comes to mind when I think of you. Sweet - kind - thoughtful - caring. Thank you so much for this reminder ❤️ and for the hugs. I know you have a mean brain too 😞 You are special and worthy and loved very much - not just by me - there's a lot of other people here who see how awesome and wonderful you are. *sending you bunches of big squeezies and lots of love* ❤️❤️❤️

@mytwistedsoul

we gotta plot against our meanie brains and throw them away for good for once Soul .... it's high time, they can't be plotting against us and being meanie to us always now😭 😤 mine's of no use anyway 🤧 so better off in a far away dumpster 😅 

Soul could you be any more amazingly you?😭 idk what did I do to deserve such an awesome friend like you. no kidding, you make life a lil more bearable for me 🥺 and I can never thank you enough for it ❤ *big squeeezieee hugs and lots of love back to you ❤

winter months seem more difficult soul...I think you mentioned about them before :( things feel a lot more gloomy and weird this time? me is a tag away for you okeee🤗 be vvv kind and gentle with my sweetest friend please ❤ they are vv precious and deserve all the kindness.

@mytwistedsoul

Deep... touched something within

@LilMsSunflower Hey :) It's nice to meet you

Nice to meet you too!!!