In The Gloaming TW *just in case*
With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
Sometimes I wish that good fairy would come down and bop this field mouse on the head
Kind of depressed
Having trouble with some words - either leaving them out or adding them in where they don't belong
H*ll some of them just don't look right.
Problems with concentration and focus
Urges yesterday
Idk - now I feel kind of anxious lol
Our mirage - Unseen
Alec Benjamin - Mind is a Prison
Thrice - Beyond the Pines
The Hu - Wolf Totem (w/ Jacoby Shaddix)
*place your mind right next to mine -
soon you'll see who lies inside.
Then you will know just what it's like-
to live as though you're cursed.*
Kind of funny - this post has been sitting here since 6 am this morning - waiting for me to hit the big blue button
@mytwistedsoul
Thank you for sharing this music here. I can see you in each song— like you should, with music. Wonderful choices, I love all of these (last one especially reminds me of R)
@ThePizza Thanks M - I'm glad you like them too. The last one is the best in my opinion.
@mytwistedsoul
I really like the instruments they used too
@ThePizza They looked real neat didn't they? Half of them I have no idea what they were but they looked amazing. I liked too that Jacoby Shaddix looked like he was really having a blast hanging out with them - didn't he?
@mytwistedsoul
Yeah I noticed that too, he did look like he was enjoying himself— there
Whiskey taste is on my breath
Part of me is scared to death
What if I told you the truth
But I chased it down with 90 proof.
One more sip for the tortured soul -
I don't understand why some people don't realize that they should tread alittle lighter around the teens. Why some people seems to find the people who are at their lowest and just push against their wounds harder. Bring it to someones attention and days pass and nothing is done. Seems cruel and lacks - compassion and concern.
Alittle emotional today - feeling sad - I feel like I'm looking for something but I have no idea what it is or where to find it. I hold in my hands a blank map and a broken compass and I'm a directional idiot
Twenty One Pilots - Ode to Sleep
Twenty One Pilots - Addict with a Pen
Shinedown - Monsters
Ded - Hate Me
@mytwistedsoul
I hope you found some water--- and that the sand turned to solid ground
Supposedly this is the translation to The Hu - Wolf Totem
There was another translation but it involved blue manure so - LOL!
I'm seriously hoping this is right
They're Mongolian - Just a really awesome song -
The lion is in a bloody battle to the death
The tiger overcomes the leopard in a match
The elephant thrashes the leopard in a contest
Man intensely struggles with a leopard to contend
We, the lions slaughter the leopards in a match
The tiger beats the leopard in a contest
The elephant trounces the leopard in a fight
Man strenuously strains with a leopard in contention
An instigator, the jealousy of a snake it could be
And Khan Garuda leaps up above into the air
A growl, the jealousy of a tiger it could be
The blue wolf comes too from far away
Hu – hu – hu – hu…
Hu – hu – hu – hu…
Provoked, the snow leopard competes with its rivals
Ten thunderbolts strike at the same time
A hundred hearts energized in the thundering roar
Simultaneously a thousand colliding thunderbolts
And too, ten thousand lightning strikes in the heavens
Hu – hu – hu – hu…
Hu – hu – hu – hu…
This deluge is the leopard battling in a deadly fight
The surges of the leopard scuffling in competion
The awesome leopard swats, blows to overthrow
The glistening leopard slashes in the scramble
Hu – hu – hu – hu…
Hu – hu – hu – hu…
With the speed of the falcon advancing
The wolfs courage at times flaring up
The strength of horses hooves, their paces pounding
The mark of Genghis Khan, an overwhelming impression
@mytwistedsoul
Wow, that's such a cool thing they've written. Haha, yeah blue manure doesn't really fit here does it?
I hold in my hands - my soul and my heart. Both fragile - both wounded and scarred
woven out of gossamer strands of glass - waiting to shatter
I feel I shouldn't have shared something here last night - I didn't think before I wrote - I just wanted it out
Now there's some regret for sharing that pain and I'm fighting the urge to withdraw
Cue the hoodie and sunglasses
Imminence - Erase
Imminence - A Mark On My Soul
Imminence - Scars
Return to the scene - was anxious tbh - felt kind of surreal - A kid waiting for the monster to pop out
Got alittle emotional - felt alittle sick
Idk - did I do the right thing?
Kind of Idk - feel like I'm hitting my head against a wall - or should be
What are you the f*cking morality police J? What do you know about morals jacka**?
Feeling alittle angry - at myself - energy is - HOSTILE - put your teeth away
Idk - this is going to sound weird - but sometimes I feel like I'm trapped inside myself and I would chew my own arm or leg off to get out
It always feels like I'm just not handling things the right way - kind of like - hang on and give me a minute - I can f*ck this up worse.
On my mind - Headache - tired
Don't remember much of yesterday - I think there was alot of dissociation going on
Automatic portable crepe makers - because apprently - you never know when you might want one
The light at the end of the tunnel is a train - just saying
Torn and undecided - seems kind of childish and stupid - should I or shouldn't I?
Get Scared - Sarcasm
Speech Patterns - Another Mess
Catch Your Breath - Fade
@mytwistedsoul
Sometimes the light at the end of the tunnel is just your friend shining a light torch in your eyes😊🤗
Call me Atlas
At the moment it feels as though
The weight of the world is on my shoulders
There is no god
No angels
No heaven
This is my own private hell
@mytwistedsoul
I know that weight...😔😔😔 one friend Soul once told me to call on him when I'm in need so I know he takes the weight of the world on his shoulders...and his end saying always stays with me and strengthens me in times of need...😔😔 I thank you...