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@AvyIsKing
Woooooo. My head is doing the swervies, one minute I'm fine, on top of the world then I feel like ***. Argggh
School sucks, my hardest classes assigned homework on the same day, I literally cried over both of them.
@Iamspoons
damn
sorry i just woke up ive been getting these horrible dizzy spells randomly
@iamspoons
im really tired and im sick of waking up dizzy and this past week has drained me in ways i cannot explain and yesterday was a poop day for me just like trigger wise and crap and like i just wanna loaf in bed
but noooo gotta be happy gotta be cheery gotta be the bubbly *** nevaeh i don't wanna be right now, i wanna loaf and be frustrated and angry but if i feel anything but joy they pump me full of more drugs and i don't want that.
imma skip them again, use the clarity to think my way through some stuff.
@AvyIsKing
Oh I'm really sorry you're getting dizzy spells, that feeling really sucks.
It *** sucks that you had a triggering day yesterday.
I understand the feeling of just wanting to be in bed, like completely messed up, but having to get up and put on a *** happy face. It's really draining.
It can be really harmful to skip meds, but one or two days shouldn't be terrible.
And I can understand not wanting to be on so much meds, the last one I was on was making my ideations worse, and I want to get off my current one too cus I'm not feeling any difference. I'm still as mood swingy as I was not on them.
Ilysm sending hugs and gentle affectionate headbutts.
@Iamspoons
ilytttt
last time i skipped my meds i got crisisy but like i felt smthn and thats good i need a clear head yk
gotta be smart :D
*nuzzles*
@AvyIsKing
Oh nuuu not crisisy, you've had enough of those lately
If you're gonna do that you gotta have a sleep over with me in the rainbow room.
*Noms ear*
Bestie ilysfm you don't even know.
@Iamspoons
im not crisisy today i need to work on my plan for what im doing when i get out of here.
i cant live alone so im tryna figure stuff out.
@iamspoons
Remember when I said it was a good idea to not take my pills?
Well now I'm having crisis revenge thoughts and death seems funny so like we need our pills
@AvyIsKing
Mhm
What'd I say.
I'm doing my math homework and I got the wrong answer and idk where I went wrong. I'll ask mom later
@Iamspoons
Want help? Im dizzy as heck
@AvyIsKing
Nah it's not the sort of thing that I can get help with online. Mom pointed out my error tho.
Do you want to hang out in rainbow room
@AvyIsKing
Hehe Spotify just gave me two Mily cryus adds in a row, but I've blocked her. So it was just radio silence till " you're listening to*I forget the title* by Mily cryus. " and I'm like not I'm not, lol, you're wasting your advertisement.
@Iamspoons
I like Miley Cyrus
I got my pocket scrunchies from girl scouts and it is such a drug thing I can't
Wait what baker do you guys sell for
@AvyIsKing
I'm not sure.
I think I got sunburnt and I was only outside like 5 more mins than usual. And picture day is tomorrow. I also have a large red spot on my nose from a massive blackhead. Woohoo. I'm going to wear a dress. Q. Sorry I'm overloading info here but.? 乁 ( ⁰͡ Ĺ̯ ⁰͡ ) ㄏ
I had clay on my *** upper arm when I left school today, like above my elbow. Vibe,
I have to put on dnd tonight so the notifs don't notify my parents too, so I probably won't respond for a bit. I'm also kinda tired so I'll pretend to go to bed at midnight.
@Iamspoons
ouuuuu picture day
@AvyIsKing
Mhm.
I'm *** tired, and just-
My social battery ran out before I left the house, my mom braided my hair too right and my one friend has started really bugging me, texting "I'm in the hall, where are you" "I'm gonna be at school at 7:20, what time are you gonna get here" and I have shut off all emotions except annoyance, which is not the one that i want but it will get me through the day. Until EPAC, lol.
Love you bestie
@iamspoons sorry just got out of the shower
I sprained my ankle n it h u r t s s s
@AvyIsKing
I'm apparently *** slow in math. I had just finished writing the problem down and then this *** raises her hand and is done with the *** problem. *** I just started
Sorry bout your ankle
, I gtg
@Iamspoons
ewwwww math
yk what that lady can shove her answer in her ***
@AvyIsKing
I have ela now.
I haven't had a good ela class since 8th grade. Last year she treated us like elementary kids and this year our new teacher does the same. I hate this
@Iamspoons
Ew
Sorry my mom made me leave my phone here when I ran errands
@AvyIsKing
Hi
Sorry I'm *** exhausted. Idk which night *** me up but it was one this week. Lol. I don't regret it. My shoulders hurt. And I'm wearing a shirt that we got for my dad, but it's too small for him. It looks like the stereotype "boyfriend shirt" but it's spike spegil from cowboy bebop. Amazing.
@iamspoons
I think my friend is alive imma cry
@iamspoons
Homeschool pe. I was forced to participate even tho I have an ankle brace on rn. And I really screwed it up. My mom fat shamed me for wearing leggings so I had to change. I'm just in alot of pain and I feel like poo and I'm dissociating so bad. But I'm nuzzling my dog
@AvyIsKing
Omg I'm so sorry, I've been at school then busy with homework.
How does pe even work for home? And that sounds like some person is *** at their job, making you do that with your ankle.
*** your mom, she's a ***.
Dog is good.
How're you doing now?
*Sending hugs and snuggles* ily bestie
@Iamspoons
My friend came over it's ok.
My mom made me participate lol.
And you don't you go to a rec center and hang out with a bunch of 10 year olds
@AvyIsKing
Ok I'm glad you had someone there.
Refer to y previous statement "*** your mom she's a ***"
Also nope, I go to a gym that smells like axe and perfume and bo, and hangout with a bunch of seniors, and *** kids
@Iamspoons
Ew
My mom made me adult and I can't rn and I just wanna cry because it's alot of dang pressure and my foot hurts and I'm hungry because idk when I last ate but I didn't eat lunch because she told me I was fat and I didn't eat breakfast because I wasn't hungry so I guess I haven't eaten since last night
@iamspoons
ill prolly have dinner im really not hungry, i was craving a grilled cheese but idek
i just don't wanna anymore lol
@AvyIsKing
Sorry I'm really checked out RN and cannot process anything. I'm *** tired, and you should sleep. Don't test how long you can go without sleeping, that's right I was lurking.
Lol o think I dissoated while rewatching yhew Loki serio
Gn ilysfm my eyes tichs
@Iamspoons
*clings hugs*
@AvyIsKing
I feel speedy. I'm doing notes and this at the same time.
I sent a couple of emails, one of them was "I need to get out of this class RN or I'm *** skipping" and the other one was " I don't trust my friends to get me information on events, will u please let me know"
Lol
*Hugs*
@Iamspoons
*hugs* had a rough night. Im so drained it isn't even funny. I don't even have the energy to dress hot for band.
Dropped a heavy af trashcan on my foot last night it hurts worse now
@AvyIsKing
I'm sorry I wasn't on last night I had a mood swing and couldn't pick up my phone cuz I was sad and tired.
I want to ask how tf you dropped a trashcan on your foot, but I dropped a tire on mine.
Ohhhh band, I'm in pep band I play the bass drum at football games. I went to the band teachers room this morning and asked if I could do pep band even though I can't do normal band, and he said yes and gave me a jersey. My friend that had been there with me told me to put it on but I didn't want to, cuz yk imposter syndrome, but then I saw my other friend wearing hers and I kinda went ok fine, and put it on.
Sorry for the rant.
My socks are wet. I hate this, if I wear wet socks for too long my feet do weird things.
@iamspoons
Forum update I hate it
Yayyy pep band
I got coffee all over my pants so I need to change em
@AvyIsKing
Yee I dislike the forum setup.
I literally have my first game tonight, ahhh
Oh nuu the pants.
Also I'm vibing in the corner of tcr
@AvyIsKing
Also I love your outfit and your hair
Lol I am feeling... O_O
@AvyIsKing
I hope your mom stops being a ***
@Iamspoons
Ty. I had coffee and I'm back in the skinny jeans and maroon shirt I just don't even care anymore I'm just so done it's not even funny I don't even wanna go to band
@iamspoons
I'm having a breakdown and a panic attack and like everything all at once.
So u get vent I'm sorry.
the band kids didn't ask if I was oki today they made fun of me for not wearing makeup n my hair was a mess but it was the best I could do
my bsf in band ignored me n I feel ***
tmr I gotta call my brother because answers are always better
my ex ish bf texted me n I'm scared cause I made him mad breaking up with him...
very very scared...
and my old friend who could give 2 damns about me texted me with a book recommendation. cant pick up the phone when I'm freaking out but ohhhhh I should read a book now. i just want her to *** off.
last night literally I got so excited because I thought my friend I thought was dead was alive then I realized its not him then I got excited again for like an hour and its not him and it hurts because he's dead. loki he's *** dead. he promised hed never leave and he's *** dead and I cant handle that.
my mom keeps fat shaming me and calling me a w.hore and she asked me when I was just gonna d!e already today and I said what and she said oh I asked when are u gonna dye ur hair next.
and Im so *** done.
just so done. so so so so so so done.
i barely ate today and what i did eat i threw up
i got throw up on my glasses.
my ankle hurts.
i wish i could cry but i cant.
idk
sorry
@AvyIsKing
You never have to be sorry about vents, that's what friends are there for
Idk what to say to make you feel better, so I won't try and end up making it worse. I'll just be here for you.
*Hugs* so many hugs.
Ilysm.
@Iamspoons
*hugs*
my mom thinks i ate too many donuts
@AvyIsKing
Well *** your mom, she's still a ***.
I'm in tcr if you wanna hang out