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@AvyIsKing
Woooooo. My head is doing the swervies, one minute I'm fine, on top of the world then I feel like ***. Argggh
School sucks, my hardest classes assigned homework on the same day, I literally cried over both of them.
@Iamspoons
damn
sorry i just woke up ive been getting these horrible dizzy spells randomly
@iamspoons
im really tired and im sick of waking up dizzy and this past week has drained me in ways i cannot explain and yesterday was a poop day for me just like trigger wise and crap and like i just wanna loaf in bed
but noooo gotta be happy gotta be cheery gotta be the bubbly *** nevaeh i don't wanna be right now, i wanna loaf and be frustrated and angry but if i feel anything but joy they pump me full of more drugs and i don't want that.
imma skip them again, use the clarity to think my way through some stuff.
@AvyIsKing
Oh I'm really sorry you're getting dizzy spells, that feeling really sucks.
It *** sucks that you had a triggering day yesterday.
I understand the feeling of just wanting to be in bed, like completely messed up, but having to get up and put on a *** happy face. It's really draining.
It can be really harmful to skip meds, but one or two days shouldn't be terrible.
And I can understand not wanting to be on so much meds, the last one I was on was making my ideations worse, and I want to get off my current one too cus I'm not feeling any difference. I'm still as mood swingy as I was not on them.
Ilysm sending hugs and gentle affectionate headbutts.
@Iamspoons
ilytttt
last time i skipped my meds i got crisisy but like i felt smthn and thats good i need a clear head yk
gotta be smart :D
*nuzzles*
@AvyIsKing
Oh nuuu not crisisy, you've had enough of those lately
If you're gonna do that you gotta have a sleep over with me in the rainbow room.
*Noms ear*
Bestie ilysfm you don't even know.
@Iamspoons
im not crisisy today i need to work on my plan for what im doing when i get out of here.
i cant live alone so im tryna figure stuff out.
@iamspoons
Remember when I said it was a good idea to not take my pills?
Well now I'm having crisis revenge thoughts and death seems funny so like we need our pills
@AvyIsKing
Mhm
What'd I say.
I'm doing my math homework and I got the wrong answer and idk where I went wrong. I'll ask mom later
@Iamspoons
Want help? Im dizzy as heck
@AvyIsKing
Nah it's not the sort of thing that I can get help with online. Mom pointed out my error tho.
Do you want to hang out in rainbow room
@AvyIsKing
Hehe Spotify just gave me two Mily cryus adds in a row, but I've blocked her. So it was just radio silence till " you're listening to*I forget the title* by Mily cryus. " and I'm like not I'm not, lol, you're wasting your advertisement.
@Iamspoons
I like Miley Cyrus
I got my pocket scrunchies from girl scouts and it is such a drug thing I can't
Wait what baker do you guys sell for
@AvyIsKing
I'm not sure.
I think I got sunburnt and I was only outside like 5 more mins than usual. And picture day is tomorrow. I also have a large red spot on my nose from a massive blackhead. Woohoo. I'm going to wear a dress. Q. Sorry I'm overloading info here but.? 乁 ( ⁰͡ Ĺ̯ ⁰͡ ) ㄏ
I had clay on my *** upper arm when I left school today, like above my elbow. Vibe,
I have to put on dnd tonight so the notifs don't notify my parents too, so I probably won't respond for a bit. I'm also kinda tired so I'll pretend to go to bed at midnight.
@iamspoons sorry just got out of the shower
I sprained my ankle n it h u r t s s s
@AvyIsKing
I'm apparently *** slow in math. I had just finished writing the problem down and then this *** raises her hand and is done with the *** problem. *** I just started
Sorry bout your ankle
, I gtg
@Iamspoons
ewwwww math
yk what that lady can shove her answer in her ***
@AvyIsKing
I have ela now.
I haven't had a good ela class since 8th grade. Last year she treated us like elementary kids and this year our new teacher does the same. I hate this
@Iamspoons
Ew
Sorry my mom made me leave my phone here when I ran errands
@AvyIsKing
Hi
Sorry I'm *** exhausted. Idk which night *** me up but it was one this week. Lol. I don't regret it. My shoulders hurt. And I'm wearing a shirt that we got for my dad, but it's too small for him. It looks like the stereotype "boyfriend shirt" but it's spike spegil from cowboy bebop. Amazing.
@iamspoons
I think my friend is alive imma cry
@iamspoons
Homeschool pe. I was forced to participate even tho I have an ankle brace on rn. And I really screwed it up. My mom fat shamed me for wearing leggings so I had to change. I'm just in alot of pain and I feel like poo and I'm dissociating so bad. But I'm nuzzling my dog
@AvyIsKing
Omg I'm so sorry, I've been at school then busy with homework.
How does pe even work for home? And that sounds like some person is *** at their job, making you do that with your ankle.
*** your mom, she's a ***.
Dog is good.
How're you doing now?
*Sending hugs and snuggles* ily bestie
@Iamspoons
My friend came over it's ok.
My mom made me participate lol.
And you don't you go to a rec center and hang out with a bunch of 10 year olds
@AvyIsKing
Ok I'm glad you had someone there.
Refer to y previous statement "*** your mom she's a ***"
Also nope, I go to a gym that smells like axe and perfume and bo, and hangout with a bunch of seniors, and *** kids
@Iamspoons
Ew
My mom made me adult and I can't rn and I just wanna cry because it's alot of dang pressure and my foot hurts and I'm hungry because idk when I last ate but I didn't eat lunch because she told me I was fat and I didn't eat breakfast because I wasn't hungry so I guess I haven't eaten since last night
@iamspoons
ill prolly have dinner im really not hungry, i was craving a grilled cheese but idek
i just don't wanna anymore lol
@AvyIsKing
Sorry I'm really checked out RN and cannot process anything. I'm *** tired, and you should sleep. Don't test how long you can go without sleeping, that's right I was lurking.
Lol o think I dissoated while rewatching yhew Loki serio
Gn ilysfm my eyes tichs
@Iamspoons
*clings hugs*
@AvyIsKing
I feel speedy. I'm doing notes and this at the same time.
I sent a couple of emails, one of them was "I need to get out of this class RN or I'm *** skipping" and the other one was " I don't trust my friends to get me information on events, will u please let me know"
Lol
*Hugs*
@Iamspoons
*hugs* had a rough night. Im so drained it isn't even funny. I don't even have the energy to dress hot for band.
Dropped a heavy af trashcan on my foot last night it hurts worse now
@AvyIsKing
I'm sorry I wasn't on last night I had a mood swing and couldn't pick up my phone cuz I was sad and tired.
I want to ask how tf you dropped a trashcan on your foot, but I dropped a tire on mine.
Ohhhh band, I'm in pep band I play the bass drum at football games. I went to the band teachers room this morning and asked if I could do pep band even though I can't do normal band, and he said yes and gave me a jersey. My friend that had been there with me told me to put it on but I didn't want to, cuz yk imposter syndrome, but then I saw my other friend wearing hers and I kinda went ok fine, and put it on.
Sorry for the rant.
My socks are wet. I hate this, if I wear wet socks for too long my feet do weird things.
@iamspoons
Forum update I hate it
Yayyy pep band
I got coffee all over my pants so I need to change em
@AvyIsKing
Yee I dislike the forum setup.
I literally have my first game tonight, ahhh
Oh nuu the pants.
Also I'm vibing in the corner of tcr
@AvyIsKing
Also I love your outfit and your hair
Lol I am feeling... O_O
@AvyIsKing
I hope your mom stops being a ***
@Iamspoons
Ty. I had coffee and I'm back in the skinny jeans and maroon shirt I just don't even care anymore I'm just so done it's not even funny I don't even wanna go to band
@AvyIsKing
Carrying a bass drum makes me feel *** powerful. And I'm like *** yeah, I'm a very powerful lady.
Lol
I'll talk more in a bit
@iamspoons
I'm having a breakdown and a panic attack and like everything all at once.
So u get vent I'm sorry.
the band kids didn't ask if I was oki today they made fun of me for not wearing makeup n my hair was a mess but it was the best I could do
my bsf in band ignored me n I feel ***
tmr I gotta call my brother because answers are always better
my ex ish bf texted me n I'm scared cause I made him mad breaking up with him...
very very scared...
and my old friend who could give 2 damns about me texted me with a book recommendation. cant pick up the phone when I'm freaking out but ohhhhh I should read a book now. i just want her to *** off.
last night literally I got so excited because I thought my friend I thought was dead was alive then I realized its not him then I got excited again for like an hour and its not him and it hurts because he's dead. loki he's *** dead. he promised hed never leave and he's *** dead and I cant handle that.
my mom keeps fat shaming me and calling me a w.hore and she asked me when I was just gonna d!e already today and I said what and she said oh I asked when are u gonna dye ur hair next.
and Im so *** done.
just so done. so so so so so so done.
i barely ate today and what i did eat i threw up
i got throw up on my glasses.
my ankle hurts.
i wish i could cry but i cant.
idk
sorry
@AvyIsKing
You never have to be sorry about vents, that's what friends are there for
Idk what to say to make you feel better, so I won't try and end up making it worse. I'll just be here for you.
*Hugs* so many hugs.
Ilysm.
@Iamspoons
*hugs*
my mom thinks i ate too many donuts
@AvyIsKing
Well *** your mom, she's still a ***.
I'm in tcr if you wanna hang out
