Hall of Fame (TW)
Reflections. I've come to realize the value of a journal in that you write down what you're thinking about, and in a sort of way you write, or in this case, type it out and as a result process what you're thinking about, or try to process it at least, and as a result, it'll be my best effort to update this diary of whatever I'm thinking about whenever it may be happening, in order to have some clarity of thought, I suppose. Perhaps relating to potential goals I may have, or literally anything on my mind. Trigger warning is up to be better safe than sorry, generally shouldn't be posting anything really explicit here. Let's see how long this lasts.
I did it. I successfully ran away to NYC, and after about a year of living in psychiatric wards and foster homes I'm now in a group home, and it's all right. I'm 18 now but still under the child protection agency, when I first came here I experienced a sexual assault and hence all the mental issues the past year. I feel better now although I've only been out of the hospital and in the group home for a week now, I applied for a few jobs and applied to volunteer at a few local hospitals.
Looking over this thread I can see how my mindset has changed over time. It is surreal to be able to recognize this and I never thought having a diary would bring such reward. I will now use it to give life updates and possibly other miscellaneous topics.
Sometimes I feel like somewhat of a failure, seeing as I have so much free time on my hands and I'm not doing anything with that time. I have recently tried to rectify this by applying to volunteer at two local hospitals and applied for a job, now I just have to await a response.
One of the hospitals have reached out asking for my employment/volunteer experience and once I told them they didn't contact me back, either they're reviewing or they don't want me. Time will tell I suppose.
I have the opportunity to speak with a Rabbi tomorrow and on the 7th regarding my conversion.
Looking forward to moving forward.