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xelimious December 4th, 2020

Reflections. I've come to realize the value of a journal in that you write down what you're thinking about, and in a sort of way you write, or in this case, type it out and as a result process what you're thinking about, or try to process it at least, and as a result, it'll be my best effort to update this diary of whatever I'm thinking about whenever it may be happening, in order to have some clarity of thought, I suppose. Perhaps relating to potential goals I may have, or literally anything on my mind. Trigger warning is up to be better safe than sorry, generally shouldn't be posting anything really explicit here. Let's see how long this lasts.

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xelimious OP December 24th, 2020

Constant direct beratement and criticism behind my back, surprisingly, doesn't put me in the best of moods. I get the message.

xelimious OP December 25th, 2020

How can you express hugs over the internet? Seriously, when people say that I'm clueless as to what I should reply back, thanks? Okay? Hugs back? I really don't know, although I suppose I have difficulty with normal displays of empathy even in person, it's definitely exacerbated over the internet. I have no feelings of gratitude, because it seems like such a sort of mindless and generic response to any problems someone may have, and as a result leaves me feeling simply uncomfortable. A puzzle piece that doesn't fit into the puzzle.

xelimious OP December 27th, 2020

Great schools.

xelimious OP December 28th, 2020

Let people know, and they don't care, nor make an attempt to do so.

So be it.

xelimious OP December 29th, 2020

Never found what I was looking for. Perhaps I shall once I leave, or perhaps that is the fantasy of leaving.

xelimious OP December 29th, 2020

Sometimes I'm alright, sometimes I don't know.

xelimious OP December 29th, 2020

Sleeping on the floor, I don't need a bed anyways I guess.

xelimious OP December 30th, 2020

Forsaken and forlorn. What have I done?

xelimious OP December 31st, 2020

Wipe the blood of your hands.

xelimious OP January 1st, 2021

Sua Sponte

Of one's own accord.