A place for my thoughts (and yours) as I cycle through life
I think I will use this spot as a brain dump when needed....I'm having a hard time navigating the forums. I'm not sure where to put things, don't know if there is a way to be notified if someone comments back on my threads but I'm sure I'm missing somebfood stuff, and when it tells me I'm tagged get lost trying to find it....I find I do better navigating the site from my laptop on the web than I do from the android app on the phone so most of my thought dumps will be from the computer, when I actually have time to log in amd type.... I also hate trying to type on my phone....I have the fat finger issue and a lot of times my words are wrong or spell check puts some crazy crap in there that I don't catch and it comes out as nonsense....anyway...if anyone else reads this and wants to be part of my brain dumps, feel free...I'm always open to, but don't always listen to advice, comments and constructive criticism....sooooo to anyone reading, welcome to my world....
Friday 4 Oct 2024 0330hrs
Slept terribly. I tossed and turned and looked at the clock all night. After the last two days of busy I should have slept like a baby but my mind wouldn't turn off. My mind wouldnt turn off. All the things I wasn't thinking about at work were running through my brain while in bed. I'm tired and I'm miserable....I hope the day goes smooth...
Saturday Oct 5 2024
Ever have day where you were just "off"? I feel that way today. It's a struggle just to bring myself to do easy tasks, things I normally do seem harder than usual amd it's like every time I open my mouth, I cannot articulate the thoughts I want to get out. It has caused misunderstandings and grief within the household and frustration for me, making the whole situation worse. I hope whatever this is works it's way out of my universe soon as we are leaving for a 2.5 hr drive to an event and the conditions of my life today would make for a very awkward and unpleasant drive and event.
Tuesday 8 October 2024 1709 hrs
I haven't said much here because I've been pretty active in other forums. When you are talking about your stuff in other places, the place you created to put your thoughts down gets neglected because, well, you are getting them out somewhere else....lol.....
Anyway....I am back to the ole status quo here in my life.....
I am working on being more positive in my own attitude and life, and sharing positivity with others throughout this forum.....I have been told over and over that I'm extremely negative in a lot of aspects of my life....I just say "it comes with the job" and leave it at that....I do believe I'd be more happy if I was more positive and grateful about a lot of things....but I either don't know how to get out of this negative, cynical, sarcastic, world that my mind lives in or somewhere deep down inside I don't want to because I've been this way so long that its comfortable and going back to "normal" would mean being uncomfortable and possibly vulnerable in life....I think I went deep with that thought process.....lol
@CyclingThroughLife Work on it if you must. I'm inclined to say that while all humans have biases, cynicism is the attitude that gets you closest to seeing humanity as it is because it leaves no room for starry-eyed idealism. The latter is inherently naïve; thus anyone who goes through daily life believing people are better than they really are is destined to be disappointed (to say nothing of being stolen from, used, ripped off/burnt, etc.).
But then I'm a confirmed cynic, as well as just one more ambulatory meat-puppet of genetic & environmental influences. So take my answers for whatever you think they're worth. 😏
@slowdecline48
"thus anyone who goes through daily life believing people are better than they really are is destined to be disappointed (to say nothing of being stolen from, used, ripped off/burnt, etc.)."
Unfortunately, I have been burned and disappointed too many times in life by people that I've let in or gotten too close to...including family......This is why my circle is small and trust towards people is even smaller....I also think the job has a lot to do with it...I feel its better to be a loner and not have to worry about the drama and disappointment.....its exactly this attitude that I keep hearing from people that I need to change...be more positive and grateful.....its hard...I don't want to...but I will try....that is why I like it here on 7Cups.....I can support people in a positive way without getting too personal or vulnerable, and I can just leave the thread if it gets to be too much.....
"ambulatory meat-puppet of genetic & environmental influences"
I know you are referring to yourself, but this is the best description that I've heard in a long time of how I feel sometimes.....I may steal this phrase for use in other forums and social media sites, with your permission of course.....
"So take my
answers for whatever you think they're worth. 😏"
I feel like you have some great comments and advice in all of your postings when you have contributed to my threads.....thank you.....
If anything I've posted in here has helped you, great. If I believed in karma then I'd figure it's a bit less likely that I will return in my next life as a used car salesman...or maybe a typical councilman in a municipal gov't of a very small southern town...
But seriously, one thing occurred to me: it may be possible to be grateful--& even "positive", if we must use that word--without remaining naïve as a lamb with unstained wool & damaged frontal lobes. It may be possible. Perhaps that is something we both need to learn. Re the "meat puppet" line: I have long been a determinist, though not an extreme one. The idea of free will just doesn't make sense once you really examine it closely. People make decisions, sure...we have personal agency to an extent. But that agency is not limitless. There are always influencing factors in this world.
@CyclingThroughLife
I enjoy seeing you in other forums and thanks for your personal support too.
There really is just enogh time for a bit but we need to get back to our own stuff sometimes.
Positive energy is important but protecting our soft underbellies is natural. Finding a balance can be ongoing but it's worth the results. Just here alone, you... same troubles but a more positive aura is nice to see. That doesn't mean things ain't tough, I know that... but we try when we can and hopefully it helps.
You're doing awesome man!
Wednesday October 9 2024
Today's thoughts go to "why do we have to do things we don't want to do"....I mean we really don't...we can do anything we want....walk away from any situation that doesn't suit you, change the road we are going down....cut friends and family out for your own peace of mind.......there are a million and one "motivational quotes" out there about doing this.....but lets face it....in the real world, we wouldn't make it in life if we "just walked away" or "decided I'm not doing that today"...I'm sure there are people who have done this and things turned out very well for them, but.....I mean, there are consequences for those actions....and usually the consequences are larger than we realize.....and sometimes we realize that when its too late.....those consequences may involve financial instability.....or hurting another person very deeply, intentional or unintentional.....yes, you may get your peace, things may be good for a little bit...but in my opinion, those types of situations cause instant gratification.....and more grief in the long term....for me its easier to just do it, hate it at the time and deal with what I know, than the consequences of the unknown if I chose a different path....maybe this is why I'm so miserable and unhappy all the time....I don't know......
Not sure why I posted this today....probably because I have to do something this evening that I really am not wanting to do....its nothing major....small in fact....yet its one of those societal thing that you are "expected to do or attend"....again...influenced by society.....
Anyway.....I just needed to get those thoughts out of my head.....
10 Oct 2024 Thursday 1645 hrs
I actually had a halfway decent day at work. First time in a long time. I came home, went to the garage gym, and had a great lifting session...I feel good and it's a strange feeling....in the back of my mind, I'm waiting for the hammer to drop....it is what it is I guess....
Friday 11 October 2024 0720hrs
Some of you who follow my posts here and on other forums may see that some of my daily entries are quite similar. Copy and Paste is a great thing when you want to say the same thing in different forums lol.....anyay....I am checking in this morning because I'm working this afternoon....not my normal shift....these last two weeks have been hectic and strange for work. I'll be glad when I can get back on a "normal" schedule of my regular shift and regular routine at home after work.....with that said, my workout routine is a mess....I'm still getting it done but its not my normal scheduled routine and this is driving me nuts....I think I'm going to take this opportunity with workouts being out of wack, and with the winter months coming up, meaning I won't get to ride outside, to come up with a different routine and schedule for my workouts.....we are also starting a team distance challenge again for my online spin group I am a part of. That will be fun, but it will mean more seat time and less weight lifting...so changing up my lifting routine will definitely have to happen. I will take this weekend to dig into how I want to do that and still maintain the progress I have made.....
I'm hoping that yesterdays positive energy of the day carries over to today....second shift at work can be a craps shoot.....like I said yesterday, in the back of my mind, I'm still waiting for the hammer to drop....it is what it is....
@CyclingThroughLife
Glad to hear the hammer didn't drop yesterday.... Keep the Flo Bro hehe.
On your last spin cycle challenge. Did the group make thier Quota?.... Whats the Quota this time?
have a great day... or at least good and manageble at work 😀
@IsayUncle
Last challenge my team did made the quota....I don't remember what it was mileage wise....this time around, we are shooting for 13,000 combined team miles in 20 weeks....there are 15 people on the team, so the math equals out to about 44 miles a week on the spin bike.....I'm not sure how many teams there are at this point, I think 18 or 20, but the total mileage for all the teams combined is about 250,000 miles I think........that is a very doable thing if everyone does their part.....its more about the team and competition group chats......forming comradery, and being around a group of like minded people to support and motivate each other to reach a goal.....
@CyclingThroughLife
Yea, for real.... what a great group activity alighning with personal motivation. Thanks for letting me know about the last time..... I was curious if it just diluted into nothing. I'm really glad it didn't! 👍
Do It Again!
“There is no harm in
repeating a good thing.” Plato
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Been a few days since I wrote here....still putting my thoughts and things in other threads....some of this will be just a copy and paste from other threads but I feel like my personal 7cups space needs an update....I'm cutting back on my caffeine...I've not had any of my pre-workout in over a week. Thats 100mg of caffeine each day I'm not having....well, not necessarily, I've replaced it with green tea which has less caffeine....I also substituted the regular green tea with a caffeine free green tea a couple times this past week to see how I would manage.....with that said, I think I did ok....I did have a couple of headache days within the period that I've cut back, but I cannot specifically say if they were caused by lack of caffeine or other environmental factors because my migraine tracker showed other triggers on those days also(this is usually the case with my headaches....multiple triggers on headache days so I can never narrow it down to just one for that headache)......Anyway....long story short, I feel like I'm doing the thing and making progress......
As for life in general.....This week has been "status quo" for me in work and life......I guess that is a good thing.....I'm making steady progress on my online CPT class...I'm learning things that I can apply not just to my new certification, but to my life as it is right now.......While things in life are "status quo", I am struggling to getting back into my regular routine after the last two or three weeks being busy and out of routine......life keeps throwing things in there preventing me from doing my "regular" day to day things at the times I usually do them....this has been going on for a few weeks now and I'm wondering if my universe is telling me that my "routine" needs to be changed up.....but being stubborn like I am, I want to go back to my usual, comfortable, routine that has kept me happy for years.....Things to think about moving forward.....
I also want to say to the regular readers and commenters, thanks for following along in this thing called my life....
@CyclingThroughLife I didn't know you had migraines.... Yeah, chronic health issues are a b***h.
It is possible my condition is a form of migraine too, but the current ENT doc doesn't know for sure.
You use an app for it? I haven't done that due to concern for what little privacy I have left. (Apps gather data & send it somewhere, & health info is quite personal)
@slowdecline48
"You use an app for it? I haven't done that due to concern for what little privacy I have left. (Apps gather data & send it somewhere, & health info is quite personal)"
I do use an app....a paid version.....its quite convenient.....I preload my triggers in the app(examples: lack of caffeine, processed foods, msg's, poor sleep, dehydration and stress are a few I have in there)....then each morning, I open the app, download the weather, barometric pressure, and pollen forecast from my phone to the app because those are environmental triggers for me.....then I just tap on the preloaded triggers that I think could cause a headache that day based on how life is going....When/if I get a headache, there is preloaded data it uses to track the headache itself, I fill in things such as pain scale, medication and relief methods tried, and if the reliefs associated with them worked, it uses the weather for that day, among other things to compile this data.....at the end of the month it automatically creates a report for the month that I can access to tell me the most common triggers, what reliefs worked the best, yada yada....anyway....I've been using this for a couple of years now and I have successfully narrowed most of my headaches down to being weather related.....mostly pollen and barometric pressure...which means all I can do is prepare for them by knowing when they will probably come.....I do get other headaches like most people, but my worst ones are weather related....and based on the data, I can usually tell when the pressure is going to be between certain numbers, I will most likely get a headache...the severity depends on how fast the change is in the pressure....sounds crazy....maybe its all in my head(no pun intended lol)but that is how I have learned to get a handle on my headaches....
As far as the data collection and where it goes....I don't care at this point....if someone wants to know I get headaches from pollen and pressures, so be it.......I feel it has helped me get a handle on this....my doctor would only give me relief medication....wouldn't really try to get to the root of the problem....I got this app to try that and I feel like it worked for me.....I'm not sure if there is any scientific mumbo jumbo linking migraines to weather but I know what I have found out in my own research....
I hate to say it but you've almost convinced me to download the app. 🤦🏼♂️ Not sure if my condition is migraines but it could be related to it...all I know is there is no cure for it, except maybe removing the malfunctioning part of my brain (if that is indeed the cause) & no surgeon will do it just because a patient demands it.
More than once I've thought of having my eardrums & other inner ear parts removed. Destructive surgery. It would mean permanent deafness but at this point, if that takes away the pain & vertigo too then why the h*ll not?...
Maybe you're right & a tracking app would help...will have to decide on that.
@CyclingThroughLife Also, ditto on barometric pressure changes. I've never used an app but after enough flareups prior to rain or a spell of overcast humidity, by now I know that I'm a walking barometer. If it drops enough, I do too. 😏
I had a whole two long paragraphs typed out as to what I wanted to talk about today and somehow I accidentally deleted the whole thing.....I'm going to take that as my sign that the universe doesn't want me to put it out to 7 cups....because I'm surly not retyping all that.....just know that I'm a little more stressed than usual this week due to some possible changes at work....I'll know more tomorrow or Friday how they will effect me.....
Thursday 24 October 2024
I have decided that since I am putting a lot of things that could/should go here into other forum threads that are more specific so that they reach more people, I will start posting the link to that thread here, rather than having it here and there taking up bandwidth......
here is the link to todays thread......
https://www.7cups.com/forum/healthyliving/SleepingWell_1142/Keepingmybrainturnedoff_339094/
The link above didn't take....lets try again
https://www.7cups.com/forum/healthyliving/SleepingWell_1142/Keepingmybrainturnedoff_339094/
@CyclingThroughLife Wish I had advice for ya...not this time. As a lifelong nocturnal creature & more recently, someone without a real circadian rhythm, I am in no position to make suggestions for how you should get more sleep.
