A Space For The Unsaid (Personal Diary)

@GoldenNest2727 your kindness and support mean a lot to me Golden 💕 it really helps on difficult days which is like everyday lmao , thanks for being so sweet 🤗

how are you doing? how's mindfulness exercises going for you in case you're continuing them?😅

I hope the new year is more kind to everyone 💕 thankyou for being such a beautiful part of my 2022, some of you here really made the horrible times feel less horrible and I'm so grateful for you 💕

*hugs 🤗🤗🤗*

@Optimisticempath I hope this year is good to you Opti ❤️ Thank you for being you and thank you for being my friend 😊❤️

*sending hugs and good vibes to you* ❤️

@mytwistedsoul aww this means a lot to me Soul 🥺 thank you more for being my friend ... you've truly made it better for me in many ways and I appreciate you so so much for being you also 💕❤

thankyouu I'm lowkey very scared to hope for things too but I do hope it's better 🥺

I hope you have a good year also, you deserve it so much 🥰

I absolutely luv the gif 🦄 🥰

*sending big huggles* 🤗🤗

how is 2023 treating you so far Soul??

@Optimisticempath I wish I could tell you not to be scared to hope but I know how slippery and fragile hope is. I think you're brave though Opti very brave 😊 ❤️

@mytwistedsoul

Thanks for validating the slipperiness with hope .. it is what scares me, there's just so much risk of getting hurt and disappointed over and over again 😖 I don't see it tbh Soul but I appreciate you for telling that i am 🥺💕

ah I remember you said about preparing for winters, has it been going ok? I'm glad it isn't too cold and hope the weather continues to be in your favor 😮

is it the anxious part of our brain that anticipates something bad to happen ?😅maybe we become so used to being alert that its uneasy when things seem "normal" idk just letting thoughts wander a lil 🥲 I'm happy the year hasn't been horrible so far and I reallly really hope it stays that way 💕 a break from all the horribleness is deffo needed 🤗

it has been rather uneventful and not horrible for me too and I guess that's ok, still taking it one day at a time *hugs you*

yes you too? I love them 💕I am not sure why but I just do!

Lol the apple to balance the sweets I love this 😁 *noms everything* ThankYou for the yummm foods and the super good vibes with peace, strength and love-- I need them all the time I think and have to admit miserably also xD 🥲

me is sending so much love, hugs, strength and peace to you also 🤗💕❤ also lots of sunshine and more warm hugs in case it gets too cold 🥶

@Optimisticempath Tbh - Idk if we can see our own bravery. I think it's kind of something that other people see in us. And it doesn't have to be anything huge or earth shattering. It is scary - taking that risk. Especially if you've been hurt and disappointed over and over. Some people that's all they have to offer - it's them - not you. They probably won't change - especially if they don't see themselves doing it. *my experience is that it's often family that's like that but I know it's not limited to family* There will be people though who won't hurt you. There will be people who will love and cherish you for who you are ❤️❤️

@Optimisticempath

Sending you good vibes and much love Opti ❤️😊

@mytwistedsoul *jumps at hugs right away 🥺🤗🤗 hugs are always needed, thankyou for always sending them Soul ❤

It makes me feel so nice and cared for that you think of me and send your gentle love my way 🤧 *sending lots of love and bestest vibes to you also ❤

how are you doing? we are closer to the weekend D: how has the week been for you?

I missed talking to you ❤ please share anything you want to 😊

@Optimisticempath You're welcome OptiBear. There's allways a hug here for you anytime you need or want one 😊

@mytwistedsoul

aw thanks for the comfiest hugs always, me loves hugging chu 🤗 *huggles*

Other people also right Soul, you are never too much or anything else meanie brain says ... I always love seeing your tags and being hugged by you ❤ you make being at 7 cups better for me I'm not even exaggerating!

*yeets anxiety and depression 😔 yes they horrible and makes us think alot of things that maybe not true ... in this case definitely not true and so they been yeeted D:

ikr so fast ... I relate with you, it's blurry for me too .. idk haha time just seems to go by idk what is even happening around anymore I guess ... no plans 😮 guess just sleeping and more sleeping ... how about you?

I love the gif 😁😁 they strong vibes hahah

thanks for always reminding Soul 😢 silly brain always needs some reminders 🤡 .... "or try to" ❤❤❤ always so kind, gentle and patient 🥰 hope you remind it to you also.. sending powerful vibes filled with kindness and love! 🤗

@Optimisticempath Thank you Opti 😊 ❤️ It would be great if we could just yeet things away. Things that aren't good for us or have no purpose anymore - thoughts and feelings just yeeted away. We need a catapult so we can yeet things super far away 😁 its a bird - a plane - it's super yeeted anxiety lol There is a no yeeting yourself clause too

@mytwistedsoul

yes we need something that helps yeet unhelpful things vvvv far away 😔

how did you know we needed a clause for "no yeeting yourself clause too" 🤣

oh nu does soul have trouble with sleep? me hopes you get enough rest and some nice self care from brainy thoughts... sometimes I sleep to avoid life xD it's self care hack 🤡

dinner sounds good, I get the mixed feelings aww... how did it go? you had fun and some nice things to nom nomm?😁

hmmm yes 🥺 thank you for the reminders ❤

*lots of good vibes to swim in 😄🥰

*hugs tight and continues hugging 🤗🤗🤗

sometimes I can be a little silent 😅 but I always appreciate you here Soul and you always make my day ... so please never think twice before sharing anything you want to or dropping hugs , anything from you is special to me and means a lot to me 💖

@mytwistedsoul

oops haha no loopholes smh 😅 I'm glad there's the clause then 🥺 no yeeting soul ❤

yes 😂 exactly like those tips xD

oh no people are rude everywhere it's just sad like let one eat in peace smh ... glad the food was delicious and yum ice cream with strawberries 🥰 ... you managed with so many people Soul .. I'm proud of you 🤗 ... people are usually a no, so many people are certainly a no xD

aw why no talk much? 😕 is something bothering you? you can always count on me 🤗

funny you say 'invade'... I say it Soul being kind, being thoughtful and letting people know they in someone's thoughts... the hugs always make it more magical 💕 so please continue "invading" I love having you here *tight hugs* 🤗

Is it still cold at your place? hope the snow is not being very bothersome :(

@Optimisticempath Hey you 😊 ❤️ yep definitely need to make sure all the loopholes are covered

@Optimisticempath ive never said quite a few things myself, so i will be sharing a few here every now and then if you dont mind. My first is: i never actually felt better when i said i did. I simply decided its better for everyone around me if i just 'get better'. Just bc i got clean doesnt mean im no longer depressed or anxious. But i act like it and its exhausting. I feel like a lot of people dont realise that moderate anxiety and depression can be present in high functioning people too. So nobody even bothers to question things when you lie and say you are fine. Ive been doing it for 6 months now. And im tired.

hi @Blueberry102

I'm happy you felt comfortable enough to share here today, it is ok but as NoneTheWiser suggested if you would like more people to reply or talk to and a more comfortable space all to yourself then it may help to have your own personal diary like this in the forums 💕

you said what i feel too... it is very relatable 😅 only thing in my case sometimes I rather not let some people see how broken I really am ... some caring people might feel bad and I don't want to cause any unnecessary stress to anyone .... everyone's got something of their own I guess, don't want to add more :/ and some not caring people would just make it worse so it feels better to stay shush sometimes :') .. a lot of times tho i blank out when someone asks how i am or whatever... like I don't know either so it is also ok? just existing idk 🤡

you're right tho it gets exhausting after a while.. lying and having to pretend that all is good or things are getting better 😔 I wish you could have some comfy space where you can be honest about your feelings and don't have to pretend to be better

I agree with Jess and hope too that you find that support in 7 cups , so many of us here feel safer... as compared to off cups life / people certainly.. and you deserve that kind company also 💕

@NoneTheWiser always the most kind and helpful 💛 you worded it so nicely 🤗

feeling empty .... idk it's so hard lately to figure what's worse ... feeling overwhelmed or feeling empty and struggling to understand emotions let alone manage it or whatever

I thought I'd feel more calmer on the opposite side of feeling anxious, overwhelmed or on edge but this almost numbing thing is not calming either ... it's sort of scary even ... I never wanted to find the darkness feel so comfortable ... but I guess I'm just stuck for now and idk what to do :')

@Optimisticempath *sits with you* Don't mean to pounce ❤️ I was actually sitting here to begin with contemplating dropping off a hug :)

*no reply needed ok? Was just thinking of you* ❤️

@mytwistedsoul awww Soul 🥺 thankyou! you might not realise how much this means to me ..... thankyou for being so so kind always and for keeping me in your thoughts... it feels nice to belong somewhere without being a bother 💕

*huggles tight❤ you in my thoughts also 🥺

@Optimisticempath *hugs tight* You're welcome Opti and Thank you too ❤️
You're never ever a bother Opti - never. You have my word on that 😊

@mytwistedsoul

*hugs tight* 💕💕💕

you really are ❤ best treasure ever and I wish all the love and nice things in world for you always Soul 🤗

@Optimisticempath

I think that you are the treasure Opti ❤️ and I wish so many good things for you ❤️

@mytwistedsoul Soul 🥺🥺 always so sweet 💕

It's only tuesday but how is your week going?🤗🤗

@Optimisticempath It's going. Now it's Wednesday lol

How is OptiBear? ❤️

@mytwistedsoul lmao yep just going xD soon jan is over too ...😮😮

idk how I'm doing tbh, just doing 😅

how are you Soul? 💕 *huggles*

@Optimisticempath It's snowing Opti I hear you there - just doing - not really doing good but still doing it lol and I laugh because if I don't I'll just cry. So I don't mean to make light of anything ❤️

ok xD

Jess me worried ..me hope you ok 😔 hugs you @nonethewiser 💕

@Optimisticempath Hey Opti - I'm sorry but she deleted her account and anything affiliated with it 😞

@mytwistedsoul I.. idk what to say 🥺 I miss her and hope she oki 😔

Thanks for telling me Soul 🥺💕 *hugs

@Optimisticempath I'm sorry I had to tell you 😞

@mytwistedsoul why sorry 😮 it is sad to hear about it but not knowing was kind of more worrying idk how to explain 😅 I worry about my few friends here (that includes you Soul 💕) I don't have many xD so I have you people in my thoughts very often and you are my safest space... specially you and Jess always have been really supportive and kind to me .... hearing about one of you poof makes me vv sad 😔 idk what I am blabbering at this point but I just want to say that I really appreciate you telling me 🥺 and I really hope she is doing ok and could somehow know that we care for her 💕

@Optimisticempath You sound alittle like me. The friends I have are here. The family I have is here. The people I talk to regularly here - you too of course - you all mean alot to me so you all pop into my thoughts pretty often too ❤️

@mytwistedsoul *hugs tight 🤗 I know you do Soul ... you think of many people and so often... always really heart warming to see you dropping off kindness around ❤ my only wish is that it comes your way too 🤗

how was your week? anything nice during the weekend?

@Optimisticempath Hey you :) you pop into my notifications with hugs when I need one most - that is the ultimate kindness ❤️

@Optimisticempath

Just cuz ❤️😊

@mytwistedsoul always here at the right time Soul 🥺🥺

*huggles tight 🤗🤗❤