A Space For The Unsaid (Personal Diary)

Things on my end are getting better, i got my license last week! Exciting huh :3 also thats okay to not know how you’re feeling, that happens at times <3 i truly hope you’re feeling super okay right now <3 it’s really good to see you again as well 🥺💛

@KrystalRose01

Your so sweet always 🥺 thankyou so much ❤

license is exciting fr I'm happy for you , did you get to go on any drives yet? 😃

@ArtemisStormWolf

Arteee ❤ we can sit here together for as much needed 🥺

@Optimisticempath

*hides here for a while 👀*

@ArtemisStormWolf Arteeee 🤗

Same ya buddy i have so many things saved that one day I'll share it with someone

@modestFriend3998

It does feel nice that someone can relate but I'm sorry you do, I know it is difficult 😕

You can share with me if you want to or you can also make a thread like this and share there if you find it comfortable ❤

Thought to jump here and leave cookies 👀🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪

@ArtemisStormWolf Arteee hugs you 🤗

Thankyou for cookies 🥰

@Optimisticempath

@Mscooper2789 thankyou for sharing this positive message 😊

-hides-

I feel soooo done with everything nothing seems to have changed and yet everything seems different, I am so different I dont recognize myself sometimes it feels I am faking or something or idk being an imposter

Seems like I'm living on standby for the longest time ..... crazy but I just dont know anything anymore.... I just want to dis-appear 😖😖😖

Grateful for memes because they put my feelings in words or pictures 🤡🤡🤡🤡

@Optimisticempath

Aww thanks for posting this 🥺🥺❤️

So relatable (':

@ArtemisStormWolf

Np artee 🥺

I'm sorry you relate also 😣 hugs artee ❤

How's you? @ArtemisStormWolf

@Optimisticempath

*wolf that slept too long *

I'm okay 😅 just decided to check my notifications. 👀 Ty. How are you

@ArtemisStormWolf sleep is ok lol

Good to see you <3 glad you been okay

Idk how to answer this tbh I guess I'm ok too 💕

Personal attac 🤭

Thoughts won't leave 😣😣😣😣

@Optimisticempath Hey :) may I sit with you? Bad thoughts?

@mytwistedsoul oki you can if it no bother 🥺

Yes bad thoughts... 😖

@Optimisticempath It's no bother at all :)

Are the thoughts about your name and pfp? I saw your comment after I posted

I don't mean to assume either if it's something else

@mytwistedsoul

Thankyou :)

Not prominently about that .... thoughts about irl stuff mainly .... but you know how brain works ☹ one bad thought leads to another and then another and then it's just a trap

everytime I look too closely at the name or pfp I remember what they said lol .... it is a unnecessary reminder for all the lack of optimism or hope or whatever in life ...

too many thoughts to even be sure what it is exactly .... I'm sorry if this sounds confusing... honestly idk either :')

@Optimisticempath Oh yeah I know to well how brain likes to set those traps and we fight so hard to get out them and it happens again 😕

@mytwistedsoul

I'm going to cry smh

my message poofed the one I typed earlier and have to retype again 😕

Anyways.....

yes it is so exhausting with the same thing again and again , traps are not nice 🙁

oh that's a good way to see these, as avatars and picking it for ourselves, so it is important that it makes sense to us 😅 thankyou for reminding this .... I'm not sure if I'm working on it tho (i don't know if i want to even....) .... yeah idk why they pointed it also out of the blue smh :')

I'm so sorry you can relate with this, it's just terrible and i wouldn't want anyone dealing but i guess life gets in the way for everyone ..... good to know it helps to sit and write and make thoughts feel acknowledged , I always find it to be quite overwhelming being alone with my thoughts... some of them are so scary to me :( but I agree letting them not consume too much space can be helpful, I shall try it again thankyouu, and thankyou for saying "or try to" it really is about trying for me, I'm never sure how it works for me , so trying is all I can do 😅

Thankyou for being so kind 🥺 *sends lots of kindness back to you*

also sorry for not asking earlier ... how are you doing?

@Optimisticempath On no! I get so frustrated when something I wrote poofs like that. It feels like I've missed or lost something on the second try

@mytwistedsoul

I feel the same it doesn't feel as authentic (idk if it's the right word lol) to retype things

thankyou for being so patient and kind to me, I really appreciate your time ❤ maybe I will share in more detail here sometime ...... wording feelings and expressing myself has never come easy 🙁

Awww 🥺 thankyou so much 🥺 it really means alot to me 🥺

I see you in many places too and you are always kind to everyone 🥺 world needs more people like you who have the biggest heart ever ❤ *casts a protection spell for your heart*

Yes it makes sense that things aren't going too well inside your world and that around you but I'm glad you're doing your best, I'm sure you are!

You don't have to deal with it alone either 😊 here for you if you want to talk or share anything

@Optimisticempath Authentic is the perfect word for it!

@mytwistedsoul

haha glad we got it :D

aw it does feel nice to know I'm not alone , memes are really helpful and make us laugh too which is nice 😁

thankyou for your support , your kindness came in the right time exactly when I needed it 🥺 and I cannot be more grateful to you ❤ bless your kind heart always

Awww that's so nice *feeling fuzzy hehe 😭🥰 (kindness makes me cry happy tears 🥺)

sending many good and safe vibes to you

How was your day?

@Optimisticempath You're welcome - I'm just glad I came across your thread when I did

@mytwistedsoul

good vibes are vv nice 🥺 sending more to you *hugs back*

I'm glad your day wasn't terrible and a new one began, hope the coming ones are better than those passed

"not too terrible" I get that lol somedays are like this, and I'll take them too if the other option is "terrible days" 😁

currently have lost all insight on what a "good" day really is I'm trying to just take it as day :') doesn't do much but atleast my non-existent hopes aren't being crushed either xD or um ok day? 😮

😢 mhm, trying to be gentle

thankyou again for being here ❤ your welcome anytime

you too be very kind and gentle to yourself 🤗

someone said this in a chatroom here that my pfp is opposite to the username 💀

(They said it a few months ago but silly brain still remembers Of *** course 😖)

True true true tho

Optimism? What? Who? Where? 💀 can't see any ......

idk if I should change name.....

🙁

@NoneTheWiser

Jess you so thoughtful 😭

I'm feeling really touched, thankyou for taking the time to share your thoughts (very beautiful thoughts)

All of this makes so much sense , I know we shouldn't allow people to make us question our own truth but sometimes it's just so hard , I was wondering that despite so many months have passed since that "casual" comment made by a "stranger" on the "internet" but I still remember and i partly blame my brain lol it remembers stuff like this more often 😞 just wish it was easier to not get so affected or simply forget some things

Thankyou thankyou thankyou for this, I'll be reading this very often. 🥺❤❤❤

How are you doing?

@NoneTheWiser

Yep I agree it's difficult with these limiting terms , the pressure is real 😅

Your username is perfect you are so wise Jess, I can resonate with what you said, it's just hard to actually follow haha 😔

thankyou for the supportive, empathetic, validating message ❤ I agree with you about everything

thankyou for being honest, I appreciate it more than anything, saying "I'm okay" when one is not is so easy as compared to being honest about how one is actually doing, I know it is, I do it all the time, avoiding the actual stuff haha :')

Nightmares are so frightening, I'm sorry you had a rough morning but it does make me feel happy that you got the message at a good time, message you really deserved to know, you are amazing, always remember! ❤❤❤

If there's anything I can do please don't hesitate to ask , *supports Jess*