@readinggirl2 I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your family member. I agree with the other users on here, that grief is not a stupid question/topic. Having gone through it myself, grief and all the confusing, complicated emotions that it come with it are just the unfortunate byproducts of our fierce, enduring love for someone even after they have passed on. The pain, sadness and brokenness are all valid. There definitely is no "right" way to grieve and some days it might feel like grief goes in a loop rather than a straight line but please know that you're not alone and we're all here to support you through each and every new stage of it. Hugs x