The hypothetical equivalent to a journal from the old journal section

..I forget to mention possible transformations of music into acoustic guitar cover before the bit about at least prevalent 8 bit outputs,

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/3rd_millennium#2040s

*sigh* maybe, maybe, maybe next year El Salvador.

this day *at all* due to that same d--n reason.

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My 'careful observation' of a new (not permanent (?)) employee who in the intro msg said they had hobbies which included going to concerts, playing guitar *and boxing*

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My g.7 teacher, a friend of my sister's I had a crush on, a counselor of sorts I once knew and now this person whose long sleeve clothes covered. unremarkable and not conspiciously burly arms.. -_- -~- "you intrigue me" (Kaoru Hanayama to Andreanov Zagon ~2k03 Grappler Baki series)..the diversity of attitudes with ppl who practice boxing but when you get to anger and/or competition..

I have to say something while I'm still stupidly intrepid enough to say this: the 'novelty' of webstreaming performance makes me 'cling and come back' in a way which isn't quite there w/the 'more passive search for variability' which is looking up for static 'cut and dried' like videos,gif and pictures..there's also a more parasocial element in that it sates a parasocial craving in a sharply niche and quasi-deluded way.

Writing this is. is what's preventing me from going on to overidentify with some cryptic David Tibet song or poem whilst exercising..

Why do ppl go to grotesquely shock value laden*1 like variably unhealthy occultism, fantastically morbid aesthetics and (with variable commitment) demonic aesthetic shlock like Satanism and heavy metal music or (apparently more recently, somewhere btw Billie Eilish and Lil Nas X music videos*2) occasionely pop music, when if that s--t was actually effectual 'in inducing evil' I'd think that even law enforcement would overcome it's indifference if say it was a fact that some secret society infernal ritual was always responsible for the death toll in Russia Ukraine conflict ?.

It's what dimly, stupidly happens when ppl don't realize that you're suppose to cease rebelling at some point and f--g commit to the settled acheivements even if it's boring b/c at some point you realize (even if everything else around you is sorely unaccomodating to it or you easing your way into learning it--ex. this aftermath of mine after my recent upset into pornography overnight ), that's what truly there is something akin to a theory of mind which in foundationally indifferent but =_= ...you can't even really say that b/c all around you is a ceaslessly stupidity of an existentialist hedonism which will painfully self-implode on itself if you make it practice the first duty of love (to listen, to introspect)

I've no sympathy for those who don't realize this. Maybe this my track to learning what no shame as they in English means, in a more proper way.

*1 a certain Jubilee video thumbnail and the fact that there are reaction videos to it come to mind-- and I put a link to this video with some reluctance as I don't veer to use what scant pre-work time I have to add my comments on the non-secular https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4-AwpkMuW4s but will say an opinion in that ~'the answers lay in much more deeply looking into Judaism specifically and then examining the historical movements/ripple effects by other groups after'...frig, the way we as social creatures try to attribute credit or discredit onto the apparently inexplicable external and enter the apparent entailments bilateral pluralism of 'good and evil',give or take theism mainly b/c ultimately we profoundly s--k at our history of practising responsibility

*2 I'm not exactly immune to it either in one sense..ppl who actually know about Gorillaz lore would know that's actually the reason for the musical talent of the character Murdoc and it pops up from time to time, in the phases of the lore but maybe not so much in the recent (Phase 4 (?)) stuff even with all the cultish stuff which ends w/everyone try to gather themselves in the police station as per the 'Cracker island' music video

New Anne Rice Series in Development at AMC (cbr.com)

Reading this and thinking on what 2 (loose) AMC Networks Anne Rice adaptations there's been so far and the risk the network will take in making a series focusing mainly on the Talamasca it makes me think that in hindsight it's odd that btw 2003-2014 the late Rice didn't decide to write a book mainly focusing on the Talamasca instead of the 'usual monsters'.

I wish I could find a link (maybe later) but the recent SNL skit w/Ana De Armas parodying the Barbie movie trailer w/the historically accurate 'American girl dolls' seeking to enter the real world was both funny but it actually made me sad and still does..

Remembering years ago when I read Vertigo's Fable series there was a story about..=_= `_` toys (?) trying to march their way to different land and a manipulative s--t of a rabbit character who takes away the magic hat which produces unending sausages which was a main food supply source for those toys..manipulations with casualties happen but survivors still trudge on, I think I remember that..

somehow that SNL skit reminded me of that and a few other sad stories (not just from Fables) about inanimate objects (Brave little toaster anyone ?,it was based on a short story).

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Irl horrors/possibly relevant to me topical politics I can peek into later even if I'm not fond of the leanings of this newspaper: https://www.msn.com/en-ca/news/canada/public-service-strike-list-of-services-expected-to-be-impacted/ar-AA1a3HSs?ocid=msedgntp&cvid=7e642b01730540b3b766e1c8a39c7bf9&ei=24

I know full well how the sensations and sensory processing of all this is atypical if you're on the autistic spectrum.

Below the test tube for anger but above the one for sadness on here: Pinterest

This one girl from the second elementary school I went to, two ppl who had crushes on me during the final years of elementary, one of my cousins and in all fairness and probability my own sister to some affect -- ._. in the sophomorically sexist past, I've got shameful tracks of looking down upon if not being abrasive and hostile to females who were just trying to authentically be affectionate and caring -- and that's just me listing the ones who were closer to my age bracket.

One of those things pre-diagnosis outlooks, I have to tell myself to not self-loathe myself for.

Even as a toddler, I think I understood how she was meant to be an inversion of Elmer Fudd, with a swap of the hunting impulse for pursuit with unambiguous affectionate towards the anthropomorphic animal characters.

From what I remember it wasn't well received by the other characters since not only was she overwhelmingly physical in that affection to the discomfort and dismay of the other characters but they couldn't always quite do the ~'Looney tunes style' slapstick vindication since she was just plainly oblivious although uniquely well-meaning (unlike say the plainly tactless greedy of 'Montana Max'--mayhaps a parralel to Yosesamite Sam when you think about that name `_`), but a fair amount of time the Tiny Toons did pull it off. Unlike say the ~'What I did over summer (?)' special where Bab's dresses like a ninja and fights off octopus henchmen in order to liberate some orca(s(?)) at a villianous lair, I don't particularly remember laughing my head off when the other resenting characters pulled off their intended vindication but I at least neutrally understood their rationales.

`_` ._. '~' Weird, to fixate on a detail from something so banally slapstick and trivial as Tiny Toons at this point I know but in hindsight that was way unfair, mean-spirited and borderline cringely cruel, not the least since her obliviousness but ceaseless affection makes me think her grip on and expression of empathy was dissimilar b/c of some unintended representation of neurodivergence: maybe something more akin to alleged jovialness of Williams-Beuren syndrome than say autism.

If there is a Tiny Toons reboot in the future, I can imagine something like this being coded into things/hinted at and I personally would welcome that.

"^~^ "=_= I realize that reading into it that way is the sort of thing 'anti-woke ppl' view with disdain.

Emotional realism is what is sought after even in animation, even if it's understood that things are mainly going to be to fantastical and/or stylized to be aesthetically realistic or even 'socially realistic' per se.

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I remember a video once explaining how 'Elmyra and the Brain' was a little ditch effort to keep 'Pinkie and the Brain' going for a bit longer. From what little I remember watching of it, I definitely didn't mind it and found it fun how 2/3 of those characters were congenial with each other in contrast to the (cartoonishly of course) overly self-serious Brain.

should add chia seeds

The next time I go that suburban store I should also get shorts in addition to a shirt while in the clothing section

Done at last