The hypothetical equivalent to a journal from the old journal section
There are various things I can say and believe it or not I'm going to try to not be too remorseful for an unceremonius first entry
As variable as the history of 'channel awesome' participants is I appreciated the music teacher et al Daren Jackson's takes as 'Rap critic'..I stuck with him even sometime as no longer following music trends and as likeable as he is, his consistent frustration with each new-ish song he analyzed made me think ~'this genre isn't for me anymore and unfortunately I don't have much more reason to continue to watch this fellow as well'.
"The history of is to a great extent that of a certain clash of human temperaments. Of whatever temperament a professional philosopher is, he tries when philosophizing to sink the fact of his temperment. It loads the evidence for him one way or the other. Making for a more sentimental or a more hard-hearted view of the universe...he trusts his temperament. Wanting a universe that suits it, he believes in any representation of the universe that does. "-William James
Gj: This week and the days ahead , `Gj: possible outcomes of dental appointment tomorrow, the casual misogyny from clips I saw of 'Metalpocalyse' ,most of my Amazon gift card being used up
:/ Interesting is the attempt of how on this one street eastward, are so many stores which imo are qualifiably flea markets if not pawn shops which try to rebrand themselves as stores for antiques and/or collectibles
I went there again meaning to sell comic books and other media related things and I found out how despite the vibes that reminds me of a certain Salvation army store froomm a llooong time ago in my prepubescent years they don't buy items from ppl. The place is three storeys and has a vibe of a flea market and cluttered storage like areas (an attic, basement, garage etc) so the messiness doesn't take away too much. The one in my memory was kind of like that but with concrete or cement flooring and grey pillars really giving a vibe almost akin to a parking garage building.
There's one building I know of going from east to central in the city with had a sign saying how they 'grade' comic books on Saturdays. `_` I recently read some rrreally iffy things about how the owner is both surly and actually insists that ppl not wear masks..
'~' It's not worth it to make such an effort to go out and try to sell some comics whence I've these things on my mind
--a call back from a university regarding an arrangement
--still need to call a mental health service place and see if they have any naturopaths specifically on staff
--await response about not included og Wii motion sensor
--await compatible GC controllers
--build Gundam before work break week "=_= >:I
I'll await a response back from one other place which might buy what I've to sell and if not I'm fine with donating what comics were gifted to me by a coworker to a thrift store or such.
The track record regarding my self-care for this tinnitus like factor I've had since around late last March..
..late last March or in April, I had an appointment with a physician who referred me to a (honestly not too helpful) specialist in a semi-related town/city who than gave me suggestions as to who to see, which made me ask my dental office who had a staff member who listed suggestions to me before I thankfully came across a practionioner whose service whilst unfortunately not covered by OHIP is an instructor at the university where one of her clinic like buildings is set
..that was helpful and made me a believer in exercise's impact as being part and parcel with physiotherapy and whilst we arrived at a ~'diagnosis by exclusion' I believe it was called ?, at relieving what was counted as a very mild kind of TMJ dysfunction with some prescribed exercises, the left ear based droning persisted
-- I did some counseling around that time regarding elements of sex addiction past during that time
--I stopped following with those exercises some ~2 weeks after the last mid November-ish appointment w/the physiotherapist, what with the countdown for year end doings distracting me..
--I finally chat with the physician again for 'update purposes' a bit after new year's
-- =_= I don't do the nasal salt spray thing since I was so caught on with the ventings I was doing in counseling and I thought that setting the spray up would be complicated
(it flippin isn't -- take what's basically a small-ish plastic water bottle with a specifically designed nozzle put some warm water and a special medicinal use salt package in there to dissolve and then spray it up your nose, that was it the whole time =_= )
--tbh I've only used it a few times..not only is it as unappealing a chore to do like teeth brushing can be but goodness help you if in the interest of using not letting the previously used water and salt combo go to waste (b/c better that than unpacking another package of those ever limited salt packages, right ?) you use it the day after or such and that salted water going up your nose is fudging frigid cold >~< !
... -_- not too sure about when I'll use it again
..after the last early Feb appointment with the one counselor about sex addiction elements, I sought an appointment with an another who encouraged me to seek someone with a naturopath bkgrnd if it's exercise based worries I have (tbh I'm worrying about possible said naturopath based person being for lack of a better word 'hippy dippy' since it's considered a kind of alternative medicine)
...here I am today with the worries of when I'd be able to actually try to date, get things (including a budget down) ready but also with the worries of what I listed down before..
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These chores make it that anyone who pretends as if 4+ hrs spent outside of work can never be usefully spent* is an exploiter cliche of the sort of which I was glad to be away from and not miss during the earlier lockdown phases of the pandemic, d--n it !
* take grooming and I mean * thorough full body * grooming for a possible date which you know might go somewhere non-Platonically for instance..I d--n well don't really blame anyone with a presence of body hair for taking ~4 hours to really get a thorough body hair displacement set and taking that long
Upon seeing a naturopath..
tell them what it'd mean to have exercises prescribed if I already do 140+ minutes per week,
" " which I might well be inflexible in changing b/c of an 'addiction' or fixation to persisting in that as I have for years on end about now.
this has been one h--l of a day but I lack both ordinary pliers or the better suited crafts pliers to work on the Gunpla kit.
Thankfully I know the discount store to get them from.
The dazzlingly pixelated artistry of stuff like this Classic Zelda meets Bloodborne in this impressive pixel art RPG coming next month (msn.com) fascinates me almost enough to opt for PC gaming and exploring the ~15+ history of indie games after ~+'07 and overcome even more my long embedded notion of only looking at the cutting-edge polygonal graphic and high production value console based scene.
I’m interested in the science behind hiccups since I personally don’t even remember the last time I had hiccups.
Self-loathing incoming since pornography use however brief..
Phone bill on my mind now x_x >_<
-_- The lack of feedback regarding the unincluded Wii motion sensor is very discouraging.
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A soft pop, indie vibing ~13 yr old music video for 'Lento [Slowly] ' by Julieta Venegas (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CuTx1QwLPjM) is encouraging enough to make me say that the ricidulousness of travel expenses was so effing jarring, nor the logistics process soo draining and off-putting etc, in travel to different 'nice looking' cities of the world it might give me a different perspective so as to not too easily succumb to how off putting the griminess and divisiveness of this city can feel like -- Reddit - Dive into anything
[Keep in mind, Burlington is the 'still not good enough for Toronto glory' area -_- ]
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Anthony Padilla is like Howard Stern in that he started off as a crass and cringe inducing media personality who became the sort of talk show host a fair amount of ppl feel comfortable enough around, including someone he unjustly ridiculed at one point (I'm thinking about the one person who was influenced by the 'Wolf's rain' anime in the ~'Spends a day with otherkin' episode).
@Archiver0
In the past I used to not really like anime movies to known series since I thought they'd mainly be bombastic profit oriented tie-ins mainly meant for the attention of those who don't follow the main series (I was even more unfond of anime movies which were basically condensed versions of the first story arc or such) which would contribute to muddling canonicity.
Now, I can see that there's definitely a reason to appreciate them as not everyone can make weekly commitments to dozens of episodes spread over the course of years but your still fond of those characters and might even know enough to get a fairly accurate speculation as to what might go down.
*sigh* this..
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-d5kk6SkyY8
I have antipathy towards on various levels...not the least the 'how the f--k did you find the time to practice and afford to do all that stuff mindfully ?. Even w/the 'free time' afforded by the early lockdowns, didn't getting through the learning curves of all this put you through insanely regimented self-pressure ?.
-_- I hate to say this, but no disrespect to Mike and sure there might be an underlying element of envy but click-bait inducing stunts like this is why right-wing hype ppl are still a thing. The risk of them repurposing this as a zero-tolerance ad for how anyone less than overachieving is unacceptable.
-_- this lucid dreaming thing though..https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fkhpqBVMxIs
-Gj: Not finding my main vest. If it's not here it's somewhere at my parents.
Not being around the store whence my mom exited it.
Gj: Being gifted an excellent sports padding set (gloves of some kind plus knees and elbows pads) but realizing that the velcro roll I purchased yesterday can still be handy to keep
-gj: how holistic health options aren't covered by the provincial healthcare insurance, even though I'd gander that when it comes to that particulary the argument is that the conceptual framework is less 'feet on the ground' and hence not as reliable to cover for.
One step at a time
btw the frequent banal inconveniencing of an aging phone with a diminished battery and an arguably sluggish laptop I would sooner veer to spend on the former esp. since I would hate to have that kind of risk while on an out of country trip in a few months.
-____- F--k how replacing either on short notice is like ~2 whole tax returns..the short of s--t you need to make emergency funds for..
I've had this strange itch for a while to get to understand baseball for a while. I realize how it gets criticized for being slow and tedious but when I think back to this warm memory I have of a playing an og GB cartridge version of it, I think to myself that it was b/c it's so slow and uncannily turn based by structure really makes it a not too intimidating sport to get introduced to via a video game in contrast to the speed and maneouvering for playing video games versions of say soccer or basketball.
Unrelated ?: https://www.chess.com/blog/raync910/major-league-baseball-world-series-tyler-glasgow-chess#:~:text=In%20baseball%2C%20the%20opposing%20team,opponent%20and%20capture%20their%20pieces.&text=definitely%20helps%20to%20play%20any,are%20a%20good%20chess%20player. ...https://www.chess.com/article/view/chess-sports-plays
