I wish I could tell everybody that...
I am not as ditzy as I appear sometimes :/ And that I also have a learning disability.
Who they see me as isn't who i really am. Social anxiety stops me from being my true self around people, and there's much more to me than the boring quiet girl they see.
Although you see me as the joker in class, I also have feelings. I cover all the hurtful things you say with a smile, laugh or joke.
I'm not boring. I can be really interesting once you get to know me. I just take some time to get use to new things or people.
@Dee980608 I'm the same way. I feel like people give up too soon in the early stages of the friendship because I don't open up straight away.
I'm so sorry for all that I've done. I'm sorry that I annoyed you. I'm sorry that I couldn't live up to your expectation. I'm sorry that I'm selfish. I'm sorry for not being there for you. I'm sorry for being a bad friend, I never learned how to be. I'm sorry that I let you down. I'm sorry that I lied to you about who I really am. I've been putting on an act Bc I know no one can like the kind of person that I am. I'm sorry that I complain. I'm sorry for being boring. I'm sorry for being negative. I'm sorry for saying sorry every single minute. I just wish you all knew that I mean and meant every single "sorry" that I've said.
I was actually never robbed. I'm sorry for making it up, I was young and stupid
I want everybody not to be afraid of me. I do have scary face but I'm not as rude as you think. I want to have friends like the others do. I want to have a serious relationship like the others do. I want to waste my time with everyone like the others do.
drugs aren't all bad and doing them doesn't make me stupid or rotten, it just gives me a different perspective on life. If you don't like it dont do it, but don't ruin other people's lives or get in their face about it when there's nothing wrong with it.
I'm depressed and suicidal and everything but nit have them o freak out, or constantly be concerned and worried about me, or walk on egg shells around me, or force me to go see someone about it. I just want to be able to say it and have them understand and not frek out or go ballistic about it in any way. I've had enough of that kind of reaction.
@EmberSunsets
It's good you're wanting to express those feelings. Perhaps explaining that you don't intend to actually act on those feelings before you say what they are may make them feel less of a panic or overly cautious...I'd probably say something more like, "I'm not able to enjoy life enough to want to keep living it," or, "I wish I didn't exist right now," rather than saying the word "suicide" which implies some sort of plans to act.
You might find additional ideas from people that are more specialized to be volunteers on that subject specifically here (also good for crisis situations if you ever feel despiration or unsafe): https://www.imalive.org/
@CoinFountain thank you so much for your advice
I feel extremely walked over, and I'm constantly being put down by friends. You don't have to do that. Honestly.
