I wish I could tell everybody that...

I wish I could share the miracles and amazing dreams I have with everyone, but not everyone is open enough to appreciate such shares. I learned the hard way that I have to be very selective with who I share those experiences with.

i'm really not okay and I just wish that was okay. i just wish i didn't always feel like i have to be on guard or fix something or protect myself or do something for somebody. i wish i could just be. i wish i could just exist and feel how i feel and that would be fine, and people wouldn't take it from me, they wouldn't aggressively attack me, they wouldn't put me through weird trials based on how i've made them feel. why can't i just exist without the world having an issue with that? i just want to feel okay, and for things to get better. that's all i want. I know i'm the one in charge of that, nobody else. Maybe things will get better. It's just extremely hard sometimes. They keep saying I have a lot of people behind me. It feels like hate.

I don't trust you anymore. Yeah, you're my family, but I can't anymore. Maybe one day it'll all pass, but maybe it won't. It's possible that my eyes were open and cannot unsee what was seen.

That I have anxiety and depression

About my daily struggles and why I am the way I am.

Just because I've outgrown seizures doesn't mean I've outgrown their emotional pain.

That I'm constantly denying my emotions(hoping doing so will cure me or something) so that my angry outbursts don't create panic.That I want to improve,be a better daughter ,be a better sister,a friend,but my mind doesn't seem like it's under my control sometimes (most of the time)

I got emotional of course the little mermaid is a personal special treasure in my life past midnight it's around 2:30 on April 10 it's the worst I just had to let out some tears I think it's necessary for me to do so I hope for the best I move on my dream come true

i am tired it's being alone it's the worst things I can carry it doesn't feel great I'm sad and full of pain and anxiety stress it's never a good feeling to have that with me it's in my own heart it hurts also it hurts so much I dealed been went through a lot it's the worst it made me stronger yes I have a story to tell I am still hurting

I wish I could tell everybody that I'm being abused and need help getting out!!!

I wish I could tell everyone that I'm not how they portray in film. I'm not scary, I'm not going to go on a killing spree. When I see that it makes me upset.