I wish I could tell everybody that...

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I have not had the easiest time growing up, like alot of ppl do i suppose. I don't want to put blame on my parents. Im 24yo and have not really told any this or anyone else but my self know about it. Exept perhaps my older brother he might been through the same. My parents sence i was a child been i would say extream Christians, nothing wrong with that i guess.

Its just latly i have relised the things im about to tell might not be true or i mostly know atleast. I was and have been told that "Jesus is coming soon" so many times and all about the "last days". Some may say its nothing, like ok its just words as they say there beliefs. I lived in fear for so many years and i have not been able to see a future in this world as its gonna end soon anyways so why bother. Most ppl will not be able to understand i believe and no one i have chatted with have tryed to or more its me that have not tryed or been able to open up is what i mean. Not others. Its just one of many things me growing up that i still struggle with today and just wanted to share that.

To anyone read this far i hope u have a great day and you are precious and no one can take your place in this world <3

Kind Reguards J

People need to take the time to know me not pass judgement based on outside appearance

I wish I could tell everybody that.....I am a really great friend to have and that I cannot help the way I look and speak. I have always had my own mind. I wish that other's especially women wouldn't assume that I'm stuck up when in fact I'm really just a shy quiet person. If people would take the time to actually talk to me, they would learn a whole lot that may be completely opposite as to what they are thinking of me. Friends are not hard to come by. It's the one's who judge the book by it's cover without turning the first page. (I wasn't trying to make this deep but it's something that bothers me in my heart). 🌻❤

I WISH I COULD TELL EVERYBOCY THAT I have constant nightmares that keep me up all night. Since the pandemic started they have gotten worse & worse.

I wish that I could explain these nightmares to my family & friends, but they are just to terrifying to relive & explain to other people.

I wish you could see through my fragile feelings and discover what I have buried for so long...under this icy and cold surface that is hidden from everyone. I wish you could look deep into my eyes and feel my fast heartbeats with your hand...then ...no words would be needed.

I wish I could tell you what was really going on inside my head and body because I cannot put my thoughts/feelings/emotions/actions in words.

I don't know what I am doing anymore. I'm scared. I am hurting--physically, emotionally & mentally. I'm confused, don't know where I belong.

I wish I could tell everybody to take a moment, stop what your doing for just a moment, take a moment for yourself and just breathe. Give yourself a moment to return to center and collect yourself. <3

That I am sick and I am dying and I am so so scared.

That I don't want to be here. I don't want to be anywhere.

Most places are OK but not where I want to be. School is stressful, home is stressful, camp (which has been my happy place for years) is stressful. I want to be anywhere but here.